Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

@Shannon

Hey Bud, ive got a crashing sound on my sub, at the 50sec-60sec mark.

I have checked the MDsum thing and its the same.

Is this part of the sub?

Im using UM/OP, hybrid trickling stream flac.

thanks

I get no such thing from that time frame on that file.

[Nox]

I've been on a break for a couple weeks now waiting for the new dmsi, but the proposed LTU sounds pretty amazing. Gonna be a hard decision honestly with umop and uslm bundled in together.

[Chris P. Bacon]

Shannon

After watching the chaos of your current life, it is my sincere desire that you are the first person to benefit from LTU 5.5

[Shannon]

Shannon

After watching the chaos of your current life, it is my sincere desire that you are the first person to benefit from LTU 5.5

That's the plan.

But don't worry. This chaos of my life is going to end in the not too distant future. And when it does... watch out, cause I'm really tired of being caged.

[Jake2015]

I must say LTU sounds absolutely amazing!!

The new tech in there makes me feel a little sad that I bought UM/OP when LTU may be the tech to help me along further.

[DarthXedonias]

Shannon

After watching the chaos of your current life, it is my sincere desire that you are the first person to benefit from LTU 5.5

That's the plan.

But don't worry. This chaos of my life is going to end in the not too distant future. And when it does... watch out, cause I'm really tired of being caged.

For LTU due to the price change will you be giving us a heads up ahead of time (like a month or so) before you finish up the program so us of more less financial means will have time to save up money in anticipation for the release?

Also, for when you come out with 3.3 B side will you be putting in thing to help deal with the "scorch earth" response? I ask because that was the most horrible part when I ran 3.2 B. It was like everything that could go wrong in my life went wrong and my mental state was constantly one negative emotion after another with no let up. Just hoping something will be done about that.

[MasterEnki]

I’m looking forward to seeing what the new LTU will have in it.

[Benjamin]

Anyone else noticing the forums are loading slow?

It's fine for me.

[findingme]

Shannon,

I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.

In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.

Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.

I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.

May I ask for some feedback on this?

I'll share also I PM'd a past E2 user today who'd done E2 for six months before starting AM6. I'm wondering if a longer run (than 3 months) would be better before going on AM6.

Thank you for all the work you put in here.

[ncbeareatingman]

DarthXedonias said this:
"Also, for when you come out with 3.3 B side will you be putting in thing to help deal with the "scorch earth" response? I ask because that was the most horrible part when I ran 3.2 B. It was like everything that could go wrong in my life went wrong and my mental state was constantly one negative emotion after another with no let up. Just hoping something will be done about that."

Keith:
THe abouve is a Perfect description of what I experienced while on BAMM,especially well into 6,7,8,9,10 of the 12 levels. this is exactly what happend to me, my life 'fell apart". #1) This isnt posted to cast blame or attack,it is given to give feedback,for the future,so things can be better for ALL,in light of this program.
we didnt know what we didnt know THEN,but WE DO KNOW what we do know now,and its a whole different world.As the time approaches for the build of BAMM 3.0 which I know very well is way way early, to speak of,I realize that,its just gonna be amazing!! Its that I was so impressed with DarthXedonias words,which again for me expressed what I went through,so perfectly I had to post this. I already know that BAMM 3.0 will be light years ahead, and that even 2.0 was very advanced,too...however...the difference between 2013 releases and now as well as what is to come,whew...well theres almost no comparison. As I've said before I AM more than willing to give the new and upcoming BAMM another shot,I Know its gonna be a winner!! Hell, just look at USLM & UM/OP!!

[Benjamin]

Shannon,

I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.

In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.

Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.

I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.

May I ask for some feedback on this?

That sounds like it's hitting upon those specific insecurities for you.

And when they are being worked on it's more obvious and you're responding in that way or even drawing some of that out of them due to that insecurity coming up.

So it's likely working on something around that.

[findingme]

Shannon,

I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.

In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.

Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.

I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.

May I ask for some feedback on this?

That sounds like it's hitting upon those specific insecurities for you.

And when they are being worked on it's more obvious and you're responding in that way or even drawing some of that out of them due to that insecurity coming up.

So it's likely working on something around that.

Thanks Ben. Yes, I agree I'm trying to draw this out of other men; in those moments, I feel like I need to be "right", even if I'm not.

[ncbeareatingman]

Shannon,

I need to share something which has happened repeatedly on E2, it happened again tonight, and I'm wondering how to understand what is happening.

In addition to running E2 at home on US non-stop, I've been occasionally having opportunity to run it on my phone while at work. However, each time I've run it at work, I've been very sensitive to men being caustic, dismissive, or manipulative. 2 days ago at work I'd run it, and at the end of the day, I felt hurt since my boss hadn't acknowledged me for helping him right before I left. I carried this home, began to write on my E2 thread, but scrapped it knowing I just sought to be validated.

Then, tonight I had E2 running in my pocket, and I played the money game me and 2 guy friends play, and near the end I disagreed with one of them about a rule interpretation. I fought more with emotions than logic, determined to be validated, again. I'm still emotional (angry and determined) now, an hour later.

I'm seeking to understand what's happening. I'll share my middle brother was closest to me, and he left home when I was 12 or 13. He'd also been a loud bully. Am I fighting people who act similarly to him, and is this healthy? I know I'm going towards AM6 after E2, but E2 (to my understanding) doesn't aid in assertiveness. It does in me asserting myself for healing purposes, but I'm emotional now, not feeling too objective.

May I ask for some feedback on this?

That sounds like it's hitting upon those specific insecurities for you.

And when they are being worked on it's more obvious and you're responding in that way or even drawing some of that out of them due to that insecurity coming up.

So it's likely working on something around that.

Thanks Ben. Yes, I agree I'm trying to draw this out of other men; in those moments, I feel like I need to be "right", even if I'm not.

I Honor your courage man and you trust in coming here and baring your soul this way and what all is going on with you. it takes courage to do what you are doing and it is NOT for the weak of Heart,even if you arent feeling the strongest right now...you definitely are getting there. E2 was a power player for me, it was very powerful and effective. E3 is gonna be even more so... hang in,keep going,it will get better. with respect and honor.Keith.

[Broski]

Hey Shannon,

The new LTU and all that will be included in it sounds frickin AMAZING! It covers pretty much everything I want to help me with my life goals. Considering this, and the fact that the upgraded E2, anti fear module, ARA, PTPA, ans negative stress relief may help me overcome my big fear issue ive been having while on US/LM, do you think this would be a good program for me? I realize i would then not be fully testing us/lm and lose any chance of a refund, but considering it is even better aligned with my life goals and could possibly better help me clear these fears/blocks I have, it would be worth it to me. If this is the case will LTU be out within 35 days and should I stop using US/LM now?