08-28-2016, 09:30 PM
Shannon,
I'm not sure what I'm experiencing on v2.3 but I'll do my best to describe it.
1) Did you put reality shifting or identity statements in here? I keep feeling like I'm living in someone else's life. I'm having thoughts randomly cross my mind like “Where are all the women? Where is all the sex? This just isn't how things are supposed to be.” I feel like I'm in the wrong parallel universe. This is a feeling I've never had before.
2) I'm feeling distressed because I don't know how to make my external reality conform to my internal expectations. This experience feels overwhelming at times.
3) I feel like the internal expectations are possible but feel confused because where are they and why haven't they manifested?
4) I've noticed men are reacting a lot like women in that they go into lock down mode (they'll interact superficially but have a poker face and are emotionally disengaged). Or they'll be nervous, or they'll blush. Men are less likely to act just relaxed and friendly around me, as they used to before DMSI. Women also seem more avoidant too, although some are starting to warm up to me. However, I was getting consistent arousal and attraction 3 weeks ago. Now I'm getting inconsistent attraction and uncertain levels of arousal. Some women will even keep themselves at arm's length around me. Literally, I'd have to extend my arm all the way to have my finger tips touch their shoulders. Some refuse to stand next to me or less than 4 feet from me. That's unusual for me. Usually women seem to feel comfortable standing closer to me before v2.3.
5) I want to go out more but don't know where to go. I feel like I'm constantly looking for sexual partners and uncertain where to find suitable ones.
6) The women I were interested in a month ago I'm either no longer interested in OR they seem to have disappeared. This has happened repeatedly. I've noticed this has been happening almost in some sort of cycle as I've been doing this DSMI series.
I'm not sure what I'm experiencing on v2.3 but I'll do my best to describe it.
1) Did you put reality shifting or identity statements in here? I keep feeling like I'm living in someone else's life. I'm having thoughts randomly cross my mind like “Where are all the women? Where is all the sex? This just isn't how things are supposed to be.” I feel like I'm in the wrong parallel universe. This is a feeling I've never had before.
2) I'm feeling distressed because I don't know how to make my external reality conform to my internal expectations. This experience feels overwhelming at times.
3) I feel like the internal expectations are possible but feel confused because where are they and why haven't they manifested?
4) I've noticed men are reacting a lot like women in that they go into lock down mode (they'll interact superficially but have a poker face and are emotionally disengaged). Or they'll be nervous, or they'll blush. Men are less likely to act just relaxed and friendly around me, as they used to before DMSI. Women also seem more avoidant too, although some are starting to warm up to me. However, I was getting consistent arousal and attraction 3 weeks ago. Now I'm getting inconsistent attraction and uncertain levels of arousal. Some women will even keep themselves at arm's length around me. Literally, I'd have to extend my arm all the way to have my finger tips touch their shoulders. Some refuse to stand next to me or less than 4 feet from me. That's unusual for me. Usually women seem to feel comfortable standing closer to me before v2.3.
5) I want to go out more but don't know where to go. I feel like I'm constantly looking for sexual partners and uncertain where to find suitable ones.
6) The women I were interested in a month ago I'm either no longer interested in OR they seem to have disappeared. This has happened repeatedly. I've noticed this has been happening almost in some sort of cycle as I've been doing this DSMI series.
