07-26-2018, 06:46 AM
day 8: I find it hard to notice changes but that has probably to do with the fact that I didn't really socialize the last few days. One thing I do notice though is that I came a little bit more pedantic outwardly. I've always been a little pedantic, but I used to keep it more to myself instead of bothering other people with it. An other little thing that I noticed is when talking online I'm more direct which can come off as more rude. In real life I've always been very direct and (too)honest in the communication, however online I was always more careful because there's a bigger chance of miscommunication. And therefore a bigger chance of rocking the boat, which is something I don't really like.
An other thing I want to talk about is the resistance I probably had the last few days. The last few days I first kept convincing myself that I should run LTU, because it deals with self esteem but also with a lot of other things that this subs doesn't. But after a fight of 3 days I won, at least I thought so. Because 2 days ago my mind tried to convince me to buy AM6. I tried to rationalize it the same way I did with LTU however this time it was even stronger because AM has even more to offer. This time I gave in and I transferred the money from my bank account. But right when I wanted to buy AM paypal suddenly told me to add a credit card before I could make the payment. The problem was that I don't have a CC, so I looked the whole day on the internet to find an answer for this, but it didn't really help. Later that night after some trial and error I came to conclusion it had to with me not having enough money on paypal. I had to add 2 more euros/dollars to pay the paypal fee. When I bought SE kept the fee in mind but not this time.
So after almost 2 days I finally fixed it and I could buy AM.But because of all of this trouble I've decide to stick to SE. I see it as a sign from the universe that it's better to stick to this sub.
An other thing I want to talk about is the resistance I probably had the last few days. The last few days I first kept convincing myself that I should run LTU, because it deals with self esteem but also with a lot of other things that this subs doesn't. But after a fight of 3 days I won, at least I thought so. Because 2 days ago my mind tried to convince me to buy AM6. I tried to rationalize it the same way I did with LTU however this time it was even stronger because AM has even more to offer. This time I gave in and I transferred the money from my bank account. But right when I wanted to buy AM paypal suddenly told me to add a credit card before I could make the payment. The problem was that I don't have a CC, so I looked the whole day on the internet to find an answer for this, but it didn't really help. Later that night after some trial and error I came to conclusion it had to with me not having enough money on paypal. I had to add 2 more euros/dollars to pay the paypal fee. When I bought SE kept the fee in mind but not this time.
So after almost 2 days I finally fixed it and I could buy AM.But because of all of this trouble I've decide to stick to SE. I see it as a sign from the universe that it's better to stick to this sub.
