Hi folks.
I don't think this intro is going to be very extensive, but at the very least I think you all deserve to know where I'm starting from. But first, a little background on my "txi0m" moniker.
I used to be an avid pheromone user. I frequented PheroTruth's forum up until a bit of forum drama sparked up (merely by coincidence; life just got in the way). I posted my experiences and blunt honest opinions on the products I used, even if speaking ill of a product meant I might get cut from earning "cool points" with the manufacturers. If you want to know what I used, google my username. I'm sure you'll find plenty of pheromone experiences.
I also dabbled into PUA. This was about 6 years ago. Wasn't anything bigtime, but I focused on daygame with Japanese girls. I was dramatically more skilled with women than I am today. If you think that sounds backwards, you're not alone in that thought.
Fast forward a few years from then to 3 years ago. The onset of depression, emotional abuse, PTSD and all kinds of other putrid bulls*** came over me swiftly. I have struggled with depression before, as well as thoughts of suicide. What's more frightening than the first time you contemplate suicide is when you've instilled a rock solid belief that taking your own life is not the answer. Having this belief is not the frightening part. What's frightening is when you think about suicide while still having an unbreakable grip on the belief.
It just doesn't make sense why your mind would torment you with thoughts and ideas about suicide when you, no matter what, would never make a move toward it. The thoughts just shouldn't be there.
My depression.. whether it's bipolar depression, PTSD, or a mix of both.. has nearly sucked every last drop of life out of me. This is especially true when I think about how high my spirits used to be 4-6 years ago. I don't see the point of doing much. I'm employed, and this new job (started last January) has helped a lot. But I also totaled my car in April, and my underpaid position in a sales job is my only current source of social activity. I will have a car hopefully before the end of summer.
The source of depression is a girl I dated for three years. Everything was great up until the last 6 months of hell. When I think of the words I would use to describe her before then, I would just say "sweet" "cute" "innocent" "jealous" and "prideful". When I think of the words I would use after that time, I would say "two faced" "jealous" "prideful" "desperate" "self-serving" "naive" "zero empathy" "psychopath" "toxic" "hypocrite" and "b****".
Have I made a point yet?
For about two years of this depression I struggled with being present and having a clear mind in day to day life. I normally dream often, so it's no surprise that I've been tormented with dreams (often nightmares) of her for the majority of this time. Especially in the past year, for whatever reason. I guess it could be that I caught wind that she got married. She had to trip and fall on a few ****s in the process (oops), but I found it both insulting and funny that the next guy she dated she ended up getting married to. Probably because she was afraid of something her doctor said about possible inability to have children (oops), but I didn't say that. Probably also because she was afraid she'd die alone (oops). I have a feeling she will anyway (oops).
Have I made a point yet?
All I want is to be able to enjoy life again. I want to be able to watch Japanese TV without wanting to punch the nice TV host in the face simply for being Japanese. I like Japanese people. There's just some neurological bulls*** in the way that makes me think of that girl whenever I hear the language. Whenever I date a new girl. Whenever any Japanese influence enters my life.
I'm honestly surprised I wrote so much here. I'm constantly on low energy and "can't be ****ed" to do even the things I want and need to. I think I've painted a pretty ugly picture at this point, so now you know where I'm starting. And for some reason, I sat on AM6 for over a year and am only now giving it a serious proper run through. No shortcuts, doing it full proper.
Shannon, I have heard amazing things about your products. None of which gets me excited about of AM6 or any other products for that matter (if I undergo significant changes, it certainly will not be via any placebo effect). I'm not here to kiss any cheeks, but I am here to give a blunt honest account of how this product changes me. I also want to say that you have my respect. Truthfully, I'm tired of taking pills that don't work (or don't work well enough). Hypnosis helped for a while, but these days I have trouble falling into trance. I'm also tired of messing around on my laptop like I used to. This laptop has sat on the corner of my bed for a month without getting moved. And it's always on. I used to go to sleep listening to Japanese TV, but obviously my head isn't right for that when it triggers nightmares. So I settled on using subs exclusively. No pheromones, no pua, no hypnosis, just subs.
I am listening to AM6 nightly in the ultrasonic version. Playing it via Audacity on my Macbook Air at half volume (I sleep on a queen sized bed. My head on one pillow, the laptop on the other). When I'm not working I spend a lot of time in my room. In other words I'm going to have maximum exposure to the product. I started stage 1 at the first of this month, and I will advance to the next stage at the first of the next month, etc etc.
Here's to hoping this product is the cure to my misogyny-- the wakeup call I've needed for a long time.
I'll post updates on my mood and general outlook on at least a biweekly basis.
Cheers folks, thanks for reading.
I don't think this intro is going to be very extensive, but at the very least I think you all deserve to know where I'm starting from. But first, a little background on my "txi0m" moniker.
I used to be an avid pheromone user. I frequented PheroTruth's forum up until a bit of forum drama sparked up (merely by coincidence; life just got in the way). I posted my experiences and blunt honest opinions on the products I used, even if speaking ill of a product meant I might get cut from earning "cool points" with the manufacturers. If you want to know what I used, google my username. I'm sure you'll find plenty of pheromone experiences.
I also dabbled into PUA. This was about 6 years ago. Wasn't anything bigtime, but I focused on daygame with Japanese girls. I was dramatically more skilled with women than I am today. If you think that sounds backwards, you're not alone in that thought.
Fast forward a few years from then to 3 years ago. The onset of depression, emotional abuse, PTSD and all kinds of other putrid bulls*** came over me swiftly. I have struggled with depression before, as well as thoughts of suicide. What's more frightening than the first time you contemplate suicide is when you've instilled a rock solid belief that taking your own life is not the answer. Having this belief is not the frightening part. What's frightening is when you think about suicide while still having an unbreakable grip on the belief.
It just doesn't make sense why your mind would torment you with thoughts and ideas about suicide when you, no matter what, would never make a move toward it. The thoughts just shouldn't be there.
My depression.. whether it's bipolar depression, PTSD, or a mix of both.. has nearly sucked every last drop of life out of me. This is especially true when I think about how high my spirits used to be 4-6 years ago. I don't see the point of doing much. I'm employed, and this new job (started last January) has helped a lot. But I also totaled my car in April, and my underpaid position in a sales job is my only current source of social activity. I will have a car hopefully before the end of summer.
The source of depression is a girl I dated for three years. Everything was great up until the last 6 months of hell. When I think of the words I would use to describe her before then, I would just say "sweet" "cute" "innocent" "jealous" and "prideful". When I think of the words I would use after that time, I would say "two faced" "jealous" "prideful" "desperate" "self-serving" "naive" "zero empathy" "psychopath" "toxic" "hypocrite" and "b****".
Have I made a point yet?
For about two years of this depression I struggled with being present and having a clear mind in day to day life. I normally dream often, so it's no surprise that I've been tormented with dreams (often nightmares) of her for the majority of this time. Especially in the past year, for whatever reason. I guess it could be that I caught wind that she got married. She had to trip and fall on a few ****s in the process (oops), but I found it both insulting and funny that the next guy she dated she ended up getting married to. Probably because she was afraid of something her doctor said about possible inability to have children (oops), but I didn't say that. Probably also because she was afraid she'd die alone (oops). I have a feeling she will anyway (oops).
Have I made a point yet?
All I want is to be able to enjoy life again. I want to be able to watch Japanese TV without wanting to punch the nice TV host in the face simply for being Japanese. I like Japanese people. There's just some neurological bulls*** in the way that makes me think of that girl whenever I hear the language. Whenever I date a new girl. Whenever any Japanese influence enters my life.
I'm honestly surprised I wrote so much here. I'm constantly on low energy and "can't be ****ed" to do even the things I want and need to. I think I've painted a pretty ugly picture at this point, so now you know where I'm starting. And for some reason, I sat on AM6 for over a year and am only now giving it a serious proper run through. No shortcuts, doing it full proper.
Shannon, I have heard amazing things about your products. None of which gets me excited about of AM6 or any other products for that matter (if I undergo significant changes, it certainly will not be via any placebo effect). I'm not here to kiss any cheeks, but I am here to give a blunt honest account of how this product changes me. I also want to say that you have my respect. Truthfully, I'm tired of taking pills that don't work (or don't work well enough). Hypnosis helped for a while, but these days I have trouble falling into trance. I'm also tired of messing around on my laptop like I used to. This laptop has sat on the corner of my bed for a month without getting moved. And it's always on. I used to go to sleep listening to Japanese TV, but obviously my head isn't right for that when it triggers nightmares. So I settled on using subs exclusively. No pheromones, no pua, no hypnosis, just subs.
I am listening to AM6 nightly in the ultrasonic version. Playing it via Audacity on my Macbook Air at half volume (I sleep on a queen sized bed. My head on one pillow, the laptop on the other). When I'm not working I spend a lot of time in my room. In other words I'm going to have maximum exposure to the product. I started stage 1 at the first of this month, and I will advance to the next stage at the first of the next month, etc etc.
Here's to hoping this product is the cure to my misogyny-- the wakeup call I've needed for a long time.
I'll post updates on my mood and general outlook on at least a biweekly basis.
Cheers folks, thanks for reading.
and welcome and good luck 
