Alpha Male Subs Training Journal

[Shin]

[size=medium][font=Times New Roman]Hey there!

First off all, sorry for bad english. Well, I'm 20 years old and a studient of a university. You can say that i've been living in this world that filled up with the darkness, oh lol.

When i was 4 or 5 years old, i had so many friends. It was easy to socialize. I did everyhting i wanted. It's different when i was in the secondary school and upper secondary school. I was anti-social. My mom and dad always got angry when i made a mistake. That makes me have trauma.

1. Secondary School
   
   I got some studients, specially in my class hate me. They bullied me. Owh, i hate it, damn it! I didn't have any close friends. Untill it's on the 3rd grade, something happened. The persons that bullied me became my friend. Of course i was very happy.
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2. Upper Secondary School
   Here is very annoying. Everyone in the class hated me. There were so much conflicts. How come? Here is the reason.
   
   "I loved studying, reading book, reading any articles. I always finished all assigments at the time. In fact, i could do it faster. I often answered the question correctly. I always said "Yes" when the theachers gave us home work which all studients in my class didn't like it. I wanted to get assigment/homework everyday, but the others said "No,no......" " So, you got the picture?

Well, i'm exactly in college.
I feel so shame, neediness, desperate,etc.
I am anti-social.
I hope i can get many friends here, but it seems impossible.

I have been feeling so lonely. I do everything by my self. I run my life in the darkness. I try to talk to others with expectation hope they like me. But nothing happen.

In front of them (all studients in the class), i assumed like a champion, but maybe i'm a shit and nothing for them. It hurt me bad.

Little story :
It was weeks ago, my father was building a new room with my brothers. They worked together very well. But i didn't. It feels like i was "un-used item". Only face no contributions. I wanted to help them, but sound like -- [Oh! Look at him, he's nothing, he can't do like we do, he don't know how to use the hammer]--.

Oh, men! It's poor. I want to be reliable. I want everyone count on me, rely on me. Untill now, i've been feeling like i can't do anyhting like all men can do. Being Shame, neediness, desperate, manipulated, etc., i hate it.

I want to overcome even erase all negative status.

That's my sory, let's see what a surprise can this product make.
Alpha Male Subliminal Training Set V6

The Journal

• STAGE 1
  
  I got my self acting like mad.
  Confident : not realy . On this stage i feel more agressive. I couldn't control my self.
  
  I had new habbit like looking at my self in the mirror. I bought some new shirts. Some girls called me, i think they want to get my attention. Here i overcome anti-social.
  
  But still :
  o Feeling needy
  o Shame
  
  
• STAGE 2
  
  Still i couldn't control my self. But yeah, i got self maturity, masculinity, and feeling like ready to face other people, although the "shame" id there. The neediness is a little bit decreased.
  
  NOTE :
  I used to get my body languange like a WOMAN. "Owh! bad , hate to tell you about this guys but it's okey.
  
  Also, i did exercise. In social world, i feel more relax but however the passive feeling is still there.
  
  
• STAGE 3
  
  It's different with the stage 1 and 2. Here, i can control my self, calm, and more confident.
  Oh yeah, i forgot something. I have some old friends. In that situation i can take lead. It feels like i'm better then them all and feel cooler then anyone.
  
  o Overcome neediness, but i feel uncomfortable when i do something like men do. Feeling like can't do anything is around me.
  
  o Self esteem : Increased
  0Masculinity : Increased
  
  
• STAGE 4
  
  Just started.
  

[Jake2015]

Thank you for sharing and Good Luck!!

Your story is similar to mine in some ways and I'm sure many here share similar stories so keep going

[Shin]

Last day of stage 4.

I don't what to say here. During this stage, i had a lot of vivid - vivid dreams.

You know what? The anxiaty is still there. So is fear feeling. This means run yhis programm 4 times is better and recommended.

Well, here the rate (0-9) for expectation result :

1. Self forgiveness : 3
   
2. Forgiveness of others without allowing them to walk on you or mistreat you : 4
   
3. Letting go of the past : 4
   
4. Maturity improvement : 3
   
5. Wisdom enhancement : 4
   
6. Self healing, emotionally and mentally : 6
   
7. Trauma and abuse healing : 3
   
8. Supply your own love, affection and attention : 5
   
9. Overcome any victim mentality : 3
   
10. Refuse to justify actions that are not moving you forward, or accept that behavior from yourself : 2
    
11. Kill excuses and refuse to accept them from yourself or anyone else : 3
    
12. Seek the challenge : 1
    
13. Overcoming guilt, shame and fear : 4
    
14. Self validation : 5
    
15. Overcoming procrastination : 4
    
16. Approaching focus, for making it easier to approach others, especially attractive females : 3
    
17. Approval seeking destruction : 3
    
18. Self empowerment/self empowering : 3
    
19. Have let go of any negative self image, attitudes, thoughts and beliefs about yourself : 4
    
20. Have a powerful, positive sense of self respect, self esteem, self image and self worth : 4
    
21. Have unshakable self confidence : 4
    
22. Be unaffected by rejection : 3
    
23. Treat women as people to enjoy the company of, without taking them too seriously, needing them, or being easily upset by them : No practice
    
24. Have released expectations towards women, which often lead to bad choices, actions, attitudes, thinking and responses : 3
    
25. Be self sufficient and self reliant mentally, emotionally and otherwise : 2
    
26. No longer be, or come across to others as “needy” : 3
    
27. Take good care of yourself, your hygiene and your appearance, not just because you want to be attractive to beautiful women, but because it makes you feel good about yourself : 6
    
28. Be able to effortlessly approach any woman you want – and the more attractive you find her, the easier it will be : 3
    
29. Be selective about whom you spend your time with, and which women you give your time, interest and affections to : No idea
    
30. Exude an aura of confidence, commanding presence and authority, which gets you respect, attention and obedience : All is 3
    
31. Exude an aura of sexiness that makes you much more attractive to the beautiful women you encounter : 4
    
32. Have a Zen attitude, which keeps you calm when other guys would lose control, thus demonstrating your self control and mastery of the situation – an Alpha male trait : 2
    
33. Display graceful, confident body language, which broadcasts your power and dominance to all, but especially females : 3
    
34. Display the attitude, thinking, actions and speech patterns of an Alpha Male : 2
    
35. No longer seek approval from others, nor be concerned with what they think of you or what you do or say : 2
    
36. Be your own man, who does what he wants, when he wants, how he wants, where he wants : 1
    
37. Be in control when dealing with women, and especially beautiful women or women you are interested in : 1
    
38. Be entirely unconcerned about “getting the girl” or achieving sexual interaction, which will make the ladies perceive you as higher status, higher value, and more worthy of both : I am still virgin, and haven't even one of girlfriend,yet. I am 20 years old.
    
39. Be easily able and willing to walk away from people and situations you don’t like, and TELL HER NO — whether it’s to her asking for sex or anything else : 2 ( sex ia not included)
    
40. Be in complete control of yourself and your environment : 2
    
41. Develop and display a fantastic sense of humor, which will make you socially popular and attractive to others, especially beautiful women : I have had this. I realise it to my friends ( comfort zone), not to beautifull/attractive women. Guilt, Shame, and Fear is annoying.
    
42. Be entirely comfortable in social situations of any type, whether they are familiar to you or not : 2
    
43. Be a better, higher and more refined quality of man : 2
    
44. Acceptance of, and feelings of deservedness of, being treated well : 2 or 1
    

[Shin]

Continue rating

1. Deserving respect from others : 1
   
2. Self love and liking yourself : 3
   
3. Valuing yourself : 2
   
4. Extended ego balancing : 2
   
5. Strong, centered masculinity and masculine presence : 4
   
6. Destruction of negativity within you concerning yourself and others, and replacement with positivity : 2
   
7. Self acceptance with continual striving to be better than you are : 2
   
8. Destruction of laziness : 1
   
9. Motivation boost : 1
   
10. Doing what needs to be done, because it needs to be done, and that is the way of the Alpha : 1
    
11. Extroversion enhancement and training : 4
    
12. Self forgiveness : 3
    
13. Social stability, skill and strength : 2
    
14. Overcome abandonment issues : 1
    
15. Success training : What is this ?
    
16. Gratitude : 2
    
17. Self trust : 1
    
18. Self image of man, instead of boy : 2
    
19. Leadership training and development : 2
    
20. Decisiveness training : 1
    
21. Authenticity and congruence training : 2
    
22. Destruction of jealousy and possessiveness, and replacement with self security, self reliance and self satisfaction : 1
    
23. Constant self growth and progress : 3
    

It is a very low run. It may be a tired session. Stage 5

Stage 5 started July, 22nd 2015

[James Brynlee]

Mmm, it seems you are growing slowly. But do happy with the results?

[Shin]

Happy : 5

Haha lol. I enjoy my journey. Althogh, the result is not max, yet.

My problem exactly is the insult and hesitation i have got from people in my environment . I have growing as a feminine dude.

[ImFreeman]

Hey! how are you using the subs ? ultras with speakers or masked and headphones?. How many hours?. I always got the best results using masked with headphones and 16+hrs a day.

GL, you are younger than most of us, so you are in a great place having found these resources so early. And in no time you are gonna notice how you surpass in life all those jackass that insult you.

[Shin]

Hey! how are you using the subs ? ultras with speakers or masked and headphones?. How many hours?. I always got the best results using masked with headphones and 16+hrs a day.

GL, you are younger than most of us, so you are in a great place having found these resources so early. And in no time you are gonna notice how you surpass in life all those jackass that insult you.

Thank you,

I played Ultrasonik and masked version all with the headphone and no speaker.

On stage 1, i used it only 8 hours. Stage 2, it was 8 hours. And Stage 3 trough now and then are 10-13 hours.

[Shannon]

I'd say you're rating things a bit early. You're not even finished with the first run yet. Plus, most guys find that two runs through is very beneficial, because this program is making a lot of adjustments in a lot of areas at once. There's a limit to how much one can handle at a time, and for someone like you, it may progress a little slower than for other guys. Fear can do that. You remind me of myself when I got started. Just finish this run, take a week or two off, and then run it again.

[Voytek]

0 means the worst and 9 the best in your rating? I ask because I want to assess my progress to in that kind of way.

[Shin]

0 means the worst and 9 the best in your rating? I ask because I want to assess my progress to in that kind of way.

Absolutely, yes.

I'd say you're rating things a bit early. You're not even finished with the first run yet. Plus, most guys find that two runs through is very beneficial, because this program is making a lot of adjustments in a lot of areas at once. There's a limit to how much one can handle at a time, and for someone like you, it may progress a little slower than for other guys. Fear can do that. You remind me of myself when I got started. Just finish this run, take a week or two off, and then run it again.

Thank you Shannon,
Got new information. Ya, it is too fast to rate. Ya, it may take times for me. Actually, i would like to rate my growth in every stage i finished.

And will do 2nd run.

[Ryan]

I'll agree with Shannon. I was much in a similar situation when I started. AM first time makes HUGE changes, definitely... or atleast it seemed that way before with older versions, I know Shannon now makes it so you don't really notice the changes as much because you accept them as how you've always been... BUT, the first run-through seemed like more a sampling for me after all was done, it stuck around but definitely wasn't as strong as 2nd or 3rd time. Like scratching the surface and the following runs dig deeper and deeper and are much easier, definitely.

But you definitely do sound like I did in the beginning. Hell, I couldn't even talk to a single person or go out alone even though I did manage some restaurants at a young age. You're gonna learn a lot about yourself and really make significant progress because I can tell you really want to. Keep at it and enjoy the next run!

[Shin]

Wow, thank you Ryan. I'll do my best to my plan.

[CatMan]

You are rating things too early.

However, remember what I said before. You using that mono mp3 player for a long time really hampered your results and I recommended a complete redo of the program after this run and a one week break to fix it. This run was naturally going to underperform due to that issue. And to always check your audio source in the future to make sure it works properly.

So chin up friend. Things will only get better from this run onward!