04-17-2023, 05:34 PM
Increased the number of loops to 6 and will stick to that number from now on. Had some extremely pleasant dreams recently, hopefully that's a sign the program is working (the dreams were related to things I would like to have but do not).
Had a translation test today, hopefully I'll pass (could really use a win here as well as the money). It was tricky but I'm pretty chill about it otherwise. Found an audition lead for chorus work abroad that I'm interested in participating in, will definitely send my resume over. Will have to settle on some repertoire for the audition; I'm feeling frustrated at times that my singing is not up to snuff yet, but also a little bit lazy when it comes to working on it (in a "why bother?" way).
I'm worried about my libido which has been pretty low since that psychotic episode I had and stopping DMSI. I also find myself worrying that should I chance on a woman who'd be willing to have sex with me, my ED would act up (although I do feel more open to working on this issue, talking about it with my therapist and the like, as if a little bit of shame around it got removed). I actually purchased a dietary supplement today that's supposed to help with that, we'll see how it works. Also planning to go on a diet as I've been overeating over the Easter holidays (but that's par for the course whenever I visit my parents). Otherwise feeling stable but a little down, lonely and sometimes nervous, although I did find myself smiling to my thoughts today on several occasions.
Had a translation test today, hopefully I'll pass (could really use a win here as well as the money). It was tricky but I'm pretty chill about it otherwise. Found an audition lead for chorus work abroad that I'm interested in participating in, will definitely send my resume over. Will have to settle on some repertoire for the audition; I'm feeling frustrated at times that my singing is not up to snuff yet, but also a little bit lazy when it comes to working on it (in a "why bother?" way).
I'm worried about my libido which has been pretty low since that psychotic episode I had and stopping DMSI. I also find myself worrying that should I chance on a woman who'd be willing to have sex with me, my ED would act up (although I do feel more open to working on this issue, talking about it with my therapist and the like, as if a little bit of shame around it got removed). I actually purchased a dietary supplement today that's supposed to help with that, we'll see how it works. Also planning to go on a diet as I've been overeating over the Easter holidays (but that's par for the course whenever I visit my parents). Otherwise feeling stable but a little down, lonely and sometimes nervous, although I did find myself smiling to my thoughts today on several occasions.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
