02-06-2023, 03:20 AM
Can't wait to put on the loops tonight. I'm experiencing some fear and nervousness coming up. Meeting with my singing teacher today, I also have a phone call planned with a guy from that potential choir-job to set up a meeting later in the week.
I sometimes feel like giving up, but it's mostly because I'm dealing with unease caused by various external and internal circumstances. F. in. I noticed some time ago when I was on the subway, while looking at an attractive woman, that I'm internally blocked from expressing my desire for her, and that's out of fear and shame. It's amazing I got as good results with DMSI as I did while dealing with all that at the same time, it must have caused internal resistance. Probably goes to show just how powerful a program it is.
Still trucking on, sent some application for freelance translation jobs. Not getting many responses, though.
Got some plans to meet with friends in two weeks' time, which is very nice because I've not had much interaction with people recently.
I sometimes feel like giving up, but it's mostly because I'm dealing with unease caused by various external and internal circumstances. F. in. I noticed some time ago when I was on the subway, while looking at an attractive woman, that I'm internally blocked from expressing my desire for her, and that's out of fear and shame. It's amazing I got as good results with DMSI as I did while dealing with all that at the same time, it must have caused internal resistance. Probably goes to show just how powerful a program it is.
Still trucking on, sent some application for freelance translation jobs. Not getting many responses, though.
Got some plans to meet with friends in two weeks' time, which is very nice because I've not had much interaction with people recently.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
