02-14-2021, 01:24 PM
Stage 7 Day 2 (0)
Been talking with my mom today. Soon I'll be leaving to go visit her for a week or so. I was telling her about my investments and she told me her usual "don't focus on money, focus on being happy" shtick.
She's not wrong but that doesn't make her right. My usual ironic response would be "I'd rather be rich and miserable than poor and miserable" which is equally good and bad statement. Truth is, as I see it, you need security money provides in order to be happy. You can replace it with courage but I lack it now. So big money would be a solution for many of my problems and sure, it would bring more, but that brings me back to my truism. I believe you can be wage slave and be happy, I'd just try to avoid this path if I can. And certainly I don't wanna work till I die due to stress.
I can talk more about this if anyone cares, it's quite hard to write something coherent without going into huge essay mode.
The problem I see with this is that these past 2 weeks I started to shift my self-value into monetary metrics. I simply feel so stuck with my life right now. Seeing return on my portfolio makes me feel like I actually have some agency. And while this is not something I'd want to do as my job - I'd die out of anxiety while day trading - but mid-to-long-term it gives me job. As long as I'm clever about this, diversify and all that I'll be fine. Sadly I have to come back down to Earth and face my anxieties instead of living in a dream world of future wealth.
Been talking with my mom today. Soon I'll be leaving to go visit her for a week or so. I was telling her about my investments and she told me her usual "don't focus on money, focus on being happy" shtick.
She's not wrong but that doesn't make her right. My usual ironic response would be "I'd rather be rich and miserable than poor and miserable" which is equally good and bad statement. Truth is, as I see it, you need security money provides in order to be happy. You can replace it with courage but I lack it now. So big money would be a solution for many of my problems and sure, it would bring more, but that brings me back to my truism. I believe you can be wage slave and be happy, I'd just try to avoid this path if I can. And certainly I don't wanna work till I die due to stress.
I can talk more about this if anyone cares, it's quite hard to write something coherent without going into huge essay mode.
The problem I see with this is that these past 2 weeks I started to shift my self-value into monetary metrics. I simply feel so stuck with my life right now. Seeing return on my portfolio makes me feel like I actually have some agency. And while this is not something I'd want to do as my job - I'd die out of anxiety while day trading - but mid-to-long-term it gives me job. As long as I'm clever about this, diversify and all that I'll be fine. Sadly I have to come back down to Earth and face my anxieties instead of living in a dream world of future wealth.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
