01-01-2021, 02:51 PM
Stage 5 Day 19 (2)
1 done, only 364 to go...
Nah, I'm joking a little bit but to be honest I don't have high hopes for 2021. I don't think it will be better or worse than the last year, it will be the same. More challenges in my life may mean I will have something to occupy my mind (something I struggled with) but also.. well, there will be challenges and I don't feel strong or prepared enough to face them. I'm sure this week and especially the next one as I handle them one by one I will regain my confidence. Right now though I'm pessimistic. The future is bright, just not the immediate one.
The fact that I feel physically ill doesn't help much. My health was failing me this ever since Autumn and I can only guess that it's the product of corona scare and anxieties. I have vacation for a couple of days so I wonder if I should get to work or skip it for now. I'm scared though that not working while worrying about it will make it even worse unless I have something to occupy my mind. Exercises and walks helps but not when my muscles ache and it's so damn cold outside.
I think I'll run the next batch of sub a day early, I felt better, more upbeat and motivated while running it so I hope it helps. It's funny how on previous stages I felt better during the breaks.
1 done, only 364 to go...
Nah, I'm joking a little bit but to be honest I don't have high hopes for 2021. I don't think it will be better or worse than the last year, it will be the same. More challenges in my life may mean I will have something to occupy my mind (something I struggled with) but also.. well, there will be challenges and I don't feel strong or prepared enough to face them. I'm sure this week and especially the next one as I handle them one by one I will regain my confidence. Right now though I'm pessimistic. The future is bright, just not the immediate one.
The fact that I feel physically ill doesn't help much. My health was failing me this ever since Autumn and I can only guess that it's the product of corona scare and anxieties. I have vacation for a couple of days so I wonder if I should get to work or skip it for now. I'm scared though that not working while worrying about it will make it even worse unless I have something to occupy my mind. Exercises and walks helps but not when my muscles ache and it's so damn cold outside.
I think I'll run the next batch of sub a day early, I felt better, more upbeat and motivated while running it so I hope it helps. It's funny how on previous stages I felt better during the breaks.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
