10-06-2020, 07:41 AM
Stage 2 Day 26 (0)
Let this stage end already!
There is some silver lining at least. Yesterday I've had the most productive day in a very long time. Like I was a machine. Today less so, I've managed to do maybe 75% of what I hoped for but even that way probably less as my concentration was weak and I've made many time consuming mistakes. It's still much better than what it used to be in the past weeks.
I think I've changed my look-out towards my habits recently. Now I take my habits as secondary and my work as primary, only superseded by my relationships and health. In huge part it's the results of these drunk realizations - I want these results I long for and so I will fight. If that means I have less time for reading and walking - so be it.
Even now I'm wondering if I should do some loose ends in the evening + I've made a list of things to do tomorrow, where I've never been planning ahead like this - it's always been what I feel like doing or what needs to be done as soon as possible.
Let this stage end already!
There is some silver lining at least. Yesterday I've had the most productive day in a very long time. Like I was a machine. Today less so, I've managed to do maybe 75% of what I hoped for but even that way probably less as my concentration was weak and I've made many time consuming mistakes. It's still much better than what it used to be in the past weeks.
I think I've changed my look-out towards my habits recently. Now I take my habits as secondary and my work as primary, only superseded by my relationships and health. In huge part it's the results of these drunk realizations - I want these results I long for and so I will fight. If that means I have less time for reading and walking - so be it.
Even now I'm wondering if I should do some loose ends in the evening + I've made a list of things to do tomorrow, where I've never been planning ahead like this - it's always been what I feel like doing or what needs to be done as soon as possible.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
