09-11-2020, 04:00 AM
Stage 2 Day 1 (38)
I played LTU through the night today and damn, I feel useless. I don't have any motivation to do anything. I think it means the next stage is working, or at the very least it's doing something. I hope this will not lead to me doing something stupid like breaking my NoFap streak, one lousy day is enough to break such a nice score.
I had two dreams today, at least two I can remember. One was about me writing to that friend of mine who hooked up with my ex. Her wrote back to me that he's busy as he's having sex right now (hmmm, OK?) and he's having sexual problems - apparently his tool don't work so well. The second one was me with my female friend, we were sitting and doing something and then we started making out as if our lives depended on it. I started to play with her clit, I think she had an orgasm but I couldn't go quite further than that because I felt guilty as she has a boyfriend.
I have no idea what to make of these dreams. As for the second one it's a trope, I often dream about making out with that particular girl.
That reminds me of kind-of-a-dream I had about my sweetheart a couple of days ago. I don't know exactly what that was, it might have been a dream. I couldn't fall asleep so I was laying in bed trying to make my thoughts flow. I started to think about her and played out the entire future I wish to have, from meeting her and asking her out for a coffee to me telling her in bed how I want to spend the rest of my life with her. It must have took maybe 10-12 scenes if that was a movie. It felt like something between imagination and memory - more crisp and real that a fantasy but more flat and featureless than a recollection. Anyhow when I was tired of it or maybe something distracted me I opened my eyes and looked at the clock. I thought 10 minutes tops had passed. It was 2 hours.
I played LTU through the night today and damn, I feel useless. I don't have any motivation to do anything. I think it means the next stage is working, or at the very least it's doing something. I hope this will not lead to me doing something stupid like breaking my NoFap streak, one lousy day is enough to break such a nice score.
I had two dreams today, at least two I can remember. One was about me writing to that friend of mine who hooked up with my ex. Her wrote back to me that he's busy as he's having sex right now (hmmm, OK?) and he's having sexual problems - apparently his tool don't work so well. The second one was me with my female friend, we were sitting and doing something and then we started making out as if our lives depended on it. I started to play with her clit, I think she had an orgasm but I couldn't go quite further than that because I felt guilty as she has a boyfriend.
I have no idea what to make of these dreams. As for the second one it's a trope, I often dream about making out with that particular girl.
That reminds me of kind-of-a-dream I had about my sweetheart a couple of days ago. I don't know exactly what that was, it might have been a dream. I couldn't fall asleep so I was laying in bed trying to make my thoughts flow. I started to think about her and played out the entire future I wish to have, from meeting her and asking her out for a coffee to me telling her in bed how I want to spend the rest of my life with her. It must have took maybe 10-12 scenes if that was a movie. It felt like something between imagination and memory - more crisp and real that a fantasy but more flat and featureless than a recollection. Anyhow when I was tired of it or maybe something distracted me I opened my eyes and looked at the clock. I thought 10 minutes tops had passed. It was 2 hours.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
