Mojam's E2 Journal

[Zane]

Your time has finally arrived.

?? Would you please explain?

You can feel urself becoming stronger emotionally. It might fluctuate from time to time but you can feel it. It's there. U feel it don't u? The Strength within you.

[mojamhaque]

Your time has finally arrived.

?? Would you please explain?

You can feel urself becoming stronger emotionally. It might fluctuate from time to time but you can feel it. It's there. U feel it don't u? The Strength within you.

To me the feelings are variable.. sometime feels very strength in mind and sometimes very fearful and tension. Yet not stable. For example Today there is a tension irritating me which is "If I don't anymore then what will happen to my family? How they will survive? How can I do better for them? How can I ensure their future? Is there any way?" Uncertainty filled me... My feel is I am failed in everywhere of my life..

Yet don't know when my good days will come... Always will think positively... Will be able to face every complexity with confidence..

Actually last few months I lost some of my close relatives-
1. My Mother
2. After 46 days of my mothers death My cousin
3. After 5/6 days of my cousin death My colleague
4. Then within 2/3 days of colleagues death received the death news of one of my known uncle
5. After few days received the news of one of my grand father

After those death I became very fearful and occasionally such feel comes fill myself...

Another problem is my financial crisis... This suffered me entire life... I don't want to get anymore financial tension but seems maximum time it fills me and disturbing me..

I know nobody knows about the future but I just want some certainty of future.. certainty of life.. stability of mental, emotional & physical health.

@Zane do you know about any medicine that will help me remain away from those fears or tension?

[Zane]

Your time has finally arrived.

?? Would you please explain?

You can feel urself becoming stronger emotionally. It might fluctuate from time to time but you can feel it. It's there. U feel it don't u? The Strength within you.

To me the feelings are variable.. sometime feels very strength in mind and sometimes very fearful and tension. Yet not stable. For example Today there is a tension irritating me which is "If I don't anymore then what will happen to my family? How they will survive? How can I do better for them? How can I ensure their future? Is there any way?" Uncertainty filled me... My feel is I am failed in everywhere of my life..

Yet don't know when my good days will come... Always will think positively... Will be able to face every complexity with confidence..

Actually last few months I lost some of my close relatives-
1. My Mother
2. After 46 days of my mothers death My cousin
3. After 5/6 days of my cousin death My colleague
4. Then within 2/3 days of colleagues death received the death news of one of my known uncle
5. After few days received the news of one of my grand father

After those death I became very fearful and occasionally such feel comes fill myself...

Another problem is my financial crisis... This suffered me entire life... I don't want to get anymore financial tension but seems maximum time it fills me and disturbing me..

I know nobody knows about the future but I just want some certainty of future.. certainty of life.. stability of mental, emotional & physical health.

@Zane do you know about any medicine that will help me remain away from those fears or tension?

Yes.. Take Ashwagandha tablets. 500mg daily

[mojamhaque]

11/07/2017
Day - 40
Listening hour-08 hours

Feel financially very insecured

[mojamhaque]

Burnishing anything take time. Same thing also happening to me but it is very hard to tolerate

[mojamhaque]

Proper planning make life easier... 37 years I just lead unplanned life... Have to plan the details of life.. yet not enough late.. Has some time to make plan.

[mojamhaque]

Seems need to have s*x. Right now my mind wants it very very very much... But found no girl for fulfill my mental desire.. After a long period tried to watch some video tutorials but can't concentrate. Porn attracts me... But I really don't want to see any porn.. DMSI helps to attract women but right now I have to clean my mind, let go my fears and improve my emotional health. So I am stick on E2. Then my career. For Career I will consider MLS 5.5G and BASE. After use of BASE I can consider to use DMSI. Lot of time require because E2 require huge time to work.... My patience need to increase and have to determined to use E2 for 03 months. Luckily 40 days already passed. Next 50 days also have to listen E2. My listening routine can be as follows-
1. E2----------- 03 months
2. MLS 5.5G---- 03 months
3. E2------------ 06 months
4. BASE--------- 06 months
5. DMSI--------- 03 months

So it would definitely take two more years to use DMSI.......

[Zane]

Looks like E2 is working on ur sexual healing.. OF was doing that to me 10 days ago. I think E2 releasing ur sexual fears

[mojamhaque]

Looks like E2 is working on ur sexual healing.. OF was doing that to me 10 days ago. I think E2 releasing ur sexual fears

May be. Time will say everything

[mojamhaque]

12/07/2017
Day - 41
Listening hour-08 hours

Seems fear is lesser than previous but not yet completely removed... Yet I feel some fears like "fear of office boss", "fear of financial problem", "fear of complexity", "fear of high", "fear of becoming jobless", "fear of failure", "fear of success" etc. But they are not strongly appear to me as they appeared in last couple of weeks... will take some time to completely removed... Is there any conscious training for remove fear? That can help me to remove them from my conscious level and enhance the cleaning.

Can't concentrate in study.. have to make a plan for future reading and career development... frequently losing concentration... mind is filled with different unusual thinking...

Problem of keeping patience still exists... Can't keep patience on anything..

Need to have sex but can't found anyone for that...

Suffering for stomach problem...taking medicine but yet not completely cured.

[mojamhaque]

Made a big mistake due to my hurriness. At least saved after a long time of work. Have to avoid such behavior.

[mojamhaque]

1. Loving my spiritual leader, Obey to my spiritual leader, leading life according to the instruction of my spiritual leader are the main goal of my life.

2. Making money, saving money, help to helpless is my another goal.

3. Computer Programming & Problem Solving is my passion. I want to become a world class programmer. This is my another goal. Have a plan to kick start a software development.

4. Leading fearless life with high confidence, motivation and abundance is my another goal.

Everybody please pray for me so that I can reach my goals.

[mojamhaque]

Many of us wants to know how to have success. It’s seems really strange when we see others who effortless have the maximum results . But isn’t actually like this. Having success means hard work. Even if from outside it seems so simple , that people who are in top at the moment,had put a lot of work, time and dedication . Many of success people were poor at the beginning, and even if they have meat difficult situations ,they haven’t quite doing what they want and what made they happy.

Remember : “Success is liking who you are, liking what you do, and liking how you do it”.-Maia Angelou.

If you think your work isn’t perfect and if you don’t like it, than you should do your everything to make it better. I know, sometimes it’s so hard to succeed, but I repeat -hard work- is everything .
---(Collected)

[Benjamin]

Mojam keep in mind Rule 4.. i'm not sure if you've come across it before so i'll paste it below.

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