09-11-2019, 12:13 PM
Haven't posted in a while, I think it's time to self reflect…
Pleased to say that all the goals outlined at the beginning of this journal have been achieved. Some to a greater extent than others...
A sense of direction/purpose in life
Have set my eyes on learning to code, currently on a 58 day streak of atleast 1 hr of studying per day. To merely say it's "enjoyable" is an understatement. Often I can grind on it for hours everyday without getting tired or bored. I don't exactly know where I'm heading with this atm but intuitively I feel this is the right thing to learn and something "great" will come from it.
Patience and determination to achieve goals
A major change I've noticed is the ability to stay focused and productive on tasks I set for myself. Procrastination virtually non existent. Also any fears or resistance towards learning and doing new things have also substantially decreased. Generally more open minded.
Emotional maturity/stability
One of the main reasons I bought the sub. (The trio… Universal detox, E3 and letting go of the past). Have been able to let go of soo much mental/emotional baggage Im still scratching my head thinking "how's this even possible lol"… Sub is extremely effective at picking out the weeds and purifying the mind, perhaps even better than long-term meditation.
Overcoming various addictions such as porn and gaming (which I use to cope with stress)
Completely lost interest in gaming. I no longer watch TV and porn use has also been reduced considerably.
- More social and happy in general (which I have seen happening already)
Yep, much more loose, witty and enjoyable to be around.
Eliminating victim mindset… taking full responsibility and adopting a stronger growth mindset
This is a tricky one because I feel like I have either forgotten what it was like to be a victim or I never was a victim. Probably the naturalizer at work here. But generally I do feel self-assured, empowered and motivated to make changes knowing fully well that the choices "I" make will either make me or break me and there is no one else to blame.
So what next? 192 days in... You'd think I'm done Huh? No no no.. I'm still just warming up haha. The foundation has been built and as planned will continue using for 365 days to reinforce it. There are still major holes to be filled. One in particular is my financial situation. I have always been quite an ambitious individual, so merely settling for a 9-5 job for the rest of my life feels like a no no. Really wanna nail this rung of Maslow's needs before I'm 30. Also my love life is virtually non existent, feel like I'm missing out on major growth which could come from having a relationship
Switching to FLAC format Ultrasonic on my portable speaker. I'm wondering if its worth upping the dosage to 5 days on 2 off or reducing it from the advised 4 on 2 off. Things are starting to feel a bit stale.
Pleased to say that all the goals outlined at the beginning of this journal have been achieved. Some to a greater extent than others...
A sense of direction/purpose in life
Have set my eyes on learning to code, currently on a 58 day streak of atleast 1 hr of studying per day. To merely say it's "enjoyable" is an understatement. Often I can grind on it for hours everyday without getting tired or bored. I don't exactly know where I'm heading with this atm but intuitively I feel this is the right thing to learn and something "great" will come from it.
Patience and determination to achieve goals
A major change I've noticed is the ability to stay focused and productive on tasks I set for myself. Procrastination virtually non existent. Also any fears or resistance towards learning and doing new things have also substantially decreased. Generally more open minded.
Emotional maturity/stability
One of the main reasons I bought the sub. (The trio… Universal detox, E3 and letting go of the past). Have been able to let go of soo much mental/emotional baggage Im still scratching my head thinking "how's this even possible lol"… Sub is extremely effective at picking out the weeds and purifying the mind, perhaps even better than long-term meditation.
Overcoming various addictions such as porn and gaming (which I use to cope with stress)
Completely lost interest in gaming. I no longer watch TV and porn use has also been reduced considerably.
- More social and happy in general (which I have seen happening already)
Yep, much more loose, witty and enjoyable to be around.
Eliminating victim mindset… taking full responsibility and adopting a stronger growth mindset
This is a tricky one because I feel like I have either forgotten what it was like to be a victim or I never was a victim. Probably the naturalizer at work here. But generally I do feel self-assured, empowered and motivated to make changes knowing fully well that the choices "I" make will either make me or break me and there is no one else to blame.
So what next? 192 days in... You'd think I'm done Huh? No no no.. I'm still just warming up haha. The foundation has been built and as planned will continue using for 365 days to reinforce it. There are still major holes to be filled. One in particular is my financial situation. I have always been quite an ambitious individual, so merely settling for a 9-5 job for the rest of my life feels like a no no. Really wanna nail this rung of Maslow's needs before I'm 30. Also my love life is virtually non existent, feel like I'm missing out on major growth which could come from having a relationship
Switching to FLAC format Ultrasonic on my portable speaker. I'm wondering if its worth upping the dosage to 5 days on 2 off or reducing it from the advised 4 on 2 off. Things are starting to feel a bit stale.
