06-19-2016, 08:42 AM
Day 98
Been reading David Berceli's The revolutionary Trauma release Process. I'm now at 77%, and he STILL hasn't gotten to the exercises! He's just describing all the different kinds of trauma and suffering that he has witnessed, and then there's even quite a bit of politics about how Americans should do this and that. Some of it is interesting, but come on.. get to it already. I have watched the dvd maybe a year ago already, so I know the one exercise where you shaking on your back, and then the sequence of exercises you can do prior to that one. I can't say I've ever felt any emotional releases from it, but its very interesting in theory - even if just for the psoas release.
I was getting quite long looks from women as I was walking around today, it was odd. Fortunately E2 has been working on something, since I've been able to hold people's gazes a lot better for a couple weeks now. Was also in a thinking mood today, contemplating about women and relationship-related stuff. Need to forgive myself on some issues (its about letting some girls get too attached emotionally - because I really really liked them - and then seeing them hurt later on).
Since the new AOSI will be getting all the fear-related programming from E2, I will be switching over either when its released or maybe just right away. Its a no-brainer really considering how much of an issue I've made this success with women thing be in my life. Also, whenever I feel really sexy I also feel really good about myself and am in an influential mood, so its like in my mind sexy = confident and successful. Just can't relax into this passive peacefulness, not right now in the beautiful summer at least. I do feel E2 has opened me up a lot, which is just awesome. Healthy people are very warm towards me, and I can be like that back towards them - and not feel like I wouldn't be good enough for it. For someone who just wants to 'be', or heal, or improve their relationships, or feels like everyone is against them, this is the sub to be on. Its made me belong in a way, I think.
Been reading David Berceli's The revolutionary Trauma release Process. I'm now at 77%, and he STILL hasn't gotten to the exercises! He's just describing all the different kinds of trauma and suffering that he has witnessed, and then there's even quite a bit of politics about how Americans should do this and that. Some of it is interesting, but come on.. get to it already. I have watched the dvd maybe a year ago already, so I know the one exercise where you shaking on your back, and then the sequence of exercises you can do prior to that one. I can't say I've ever felt any emotional releases from it, but its very interesting in theory - even if just for the psoas release.
I was getting quite long looks from women as I was walking around today, it was odd. Fortunately E2 has been working on something, since I've been able to hold people's gazes a lot better for a couple weeks now. Was also in a thinking mood today, contemplating about women and relationship-related stuff. Need to forgive myself on some issues (its about letting some girls get too attached emotionally - because I really really liked them - and then seeing them hurt later on).
Since the new AOSI will be getting all the fear-related programming from E2, I will be switching over either when its released or maybe just right away. Its a no-brainer really considering how much of an issue I've made this success with women thing be in my life. Also, whenever I feel really sexy I also feel really good about myself and am in an influential mood, so its like in my mind sexy = confident and successful. Just can't relax into this passive peacefulness, not right now in the beautiful summer at least. I do feel E2 has opened me up a lot, which is just awesome. Healthy people are very warm towards me, and I can be like that back towards them - and not feel like I wouldn't be good enough for it. For someone who just wants to 'be', or heal, or improve their relationships, or feels like everyone is against them, this is the sub to be on. Its made me belong in a way, I think.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
