Have you no shame? - OGSF 5G | EPRHA 2.0

[LionKing]

Day 90

So, I looked under the hood repeatedly, and now I know continuing with E2 is the right choice for me at this time. Most likely for another 3 months, making it 6 months of E2 preceded by 1 month of OGSF. That'll also get me well over my move and new job, so I'll be in a good position to go forward from there. Right now I'm hoping for Ultra Success 5.5G, but no use speculating.

If I stop E2, stuff will come up in 2-3 days. When I start playing it again, it'll release within 20 minutes to an hour with yawns, cry, laughter, etc - and I'll feel like I've gone through something. You could say I'm a bit slow, or sore. After this, I am very convinced that E2 is for real - both state shifting and the ability to bring stuff up. Not conclusive about actually dealing with that stuff, since its still there, but time will tell. I'm also convinced I'd be much better off without these underlying issues.

I'm wondering if the program would be more effective with less listening. If I play it a lot I'll get into this constant state where I can't tell anything is happening, being processed, been processed, or anything. If I stop the program and let the issues come up, then restart, they will get dealt with. So I'm thinking it might be better to have daily mini cycles of this, i.e. only listening at night and letting things come up during the day instead of spamming the state shifting all the time. Because if I do, I will often not feel any of the signs in my body that something is being or has been processed, and its therefore hard to believe that it would be. I guess its just control issues that I have to try and get in as many hours as possible with these programs. I am letting go of it a little though - just a little.

Shannon: is it possible that too much of E2 will prevent stuff from getting processed, maybe because of the state shifting, positive programming, processing instead of executing, or just plain getting tired or bored with the instructions? Would it be better to aim for constant bliss or a bit of contrast between letting stuff come up and then releasing it with the state shifting?