03-10-2016, 01:00 AM
Day 28
Somewhat sad today. Had dreams of loss, e.g. I'd have cuddly pets and then I'd forget them in the woods. Feeling some brain fog as well. Will listen a little less today then.
I'm thinking much of my procrastination has less to do with fear, and more to do with being attached to things being easy or comfortable - of me being on top of it all. With work for example, I noticed I feel I'm good enough that I "should" be able to just get a better job without too much pain, since other people have as well. Letting go of the attachment that it should suck quite as much, I was able to write another application last night. Took me some 1.5-2 hours to do it, though. That's part of the problem; I'll make these massive applications, when I'd be better off sending more applications with less content. Since I've already made such "good" applications, I'm attached to using them instead having to make them simpler. Quite attached actually, lol.
Somewhat sad today. Had dreams of loss, e.g. I'd have cuddly pets and then I'd forget them in the woods. Feeling some brain fog as well. Will listen a little less today then.
I'm thinking much of my procrastination has less to do with fear, and more to do with being attached to things being easy or comfortable - of me being on top of it all. With work for example, I noticed I feel I'm good enough that I "should" be able to just get a better job without too much pain, since other people have as well. Letting go of the attachment that it should suck quite as much, I was able to write another application last night. Took me some 1.5-2 hours to do it, though. That's part of the problem; I'll make these massive applications, when I'd be better off sending more applications with less content. Since I've already made such "good" applications, I'm attached to using them instead having to make them simpler. Quite attached actually, lol.
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
