Day 14
Ups and Downs.
I was feeling great for a while, then listened for too much at felt very off the next day, then in the evening was feeling amazing and had pretty damn amazing interactions with 2 women plus My Girl. Then today has been horrible right from the start. Reacting strongly to stress from work, although I'm getting a lot done and coordinating other's work too. I'm still feeling a somewhat tight even though I've meditated on it for a good time already. I had something fun planned for tonight, but missed it because its like every muscle in my neck and face was tense, along with my mind.
Feeling much better about eye contact, especially with men. I care less and less about competing and its just kinda "hey" with a slight smile. I care less about with whom I'm interacting, i.e. not feeling like I "should" be interacting with hot girls all the time. I guess that's based in fear. A fear of lacking.
I mentioned I felt mostly sadness or abandonment in my body before, but now its been more like fear or panic. Its just a slight feeling though, until I dig it up to the surface.
Easier to pick up the phone and call people or companies when stuff needs to get sorted.
That's it, go get em!
Ups and Downs.
I was feeling great for a while, then listened for too much at felt very off the next day, then in the evening was feeling amazing and had pretty damn amazing interactions with 2 women plus My Girl. Then today has been horrible right from the start. Reacting strongly to stress from work, although I'm getting a lot done and coordinating other's work too. I'm still feeling a somewhat tight even though I've meditated on it for a good time already. I had something fun planned for tonight, but missed it because its like every muscle in my neck and face was tense, along with my mind.
Feeling much better about eye contact, especially with men. I care less and less about competing and its just kinda "hey" with a slight smile. I care less about with whom I'm interacting, i.e. not feeling like I "should" be interacting with hot girls all the time. I guess that's based in fear. A fear of lacking.
I mentioned I felt mostly sadness or abandonment in my body before, but now its been more like fear or panic. Its just a slight feeling though, until I dig it up to the surface.
Easier to pick up the phone and call people or companies when stuff needs to get sorted.
That's it, go get em!
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
