08-29-2017, 05:55 PM
I have been Running this Sub for 541 days and all I have seem to be getting is Wisdom Enhancement. Whatever is going on with me under the roof I cannot see it. I know I am not full emotionally healed but there are some things that have been going down recently.
Whenever I think of the wrongs people did to me I feel compassion for them and want to forgive me, but if I meet them again like my parents and they upset me all that goes out the window and I get judgmental again.
Also this Sub is pushing me to run DMSI or UD so I have set a Landing Stage time where I Max out the Hours Run then I start tapering off in the beginning of October, Stop in the Middle and Run DMSI on November 1st 2017.
The only reason I am running DMSI instead of UD is because DMSI will be the first 6G sub and I want the Latest tech in order to get a thorough healing experience. The Sex factor is just a Side effect and I am not looking for that as a main dish.
There also was confirmation that I am healing because My mother found something from when I was Six that was a Good memory but it was the start of the time when I felt lonely and out of place, like I don't fit in even with children. I had a good friend in my class and we used to talk a lot but the teacher wanting to assert her authority broke us up and separated us. I used to call him on the phone at 5 years old talking to him and socializing and he was one of the only true friends that I have ever had I my entire life. Needless to say, the administration probably was told by the teacher that we were a nuisance and needed to be broken up so next year in 2nd grade we were broken apart and we grew apart. In 3rd grade I started to get bullied because I gave off a different vibe and thought so differently and was highly intelligent so I started getting bullied by girls. Now I know that they were probably shit testing me since they saw that I was like the only boy in the school with A Deep voice. I failed the tests and became depressed.
One thing that has stuck with me to wrap up is the fact that when I graduated, I got my book signed by a teacher and he told me in the book that once I focus I will become successful. I could not read his handwriting and I looked over that book many times over the years. It was only in 2016 that I was able to read the message. It is true, I am not focused and am scatter brained. This is one of my biggest weaknesses. I think that things happen for a reason and some doors don't open before it's time and this is one example of this.
Whenever I think of the wrongs people did to me I feel compassion for them and want to forgive me, but if I meet them again like my parents and they upset me all that goes out the window and I get judgmental again.
Also this Sub is pushing me to run DMSI or UD so I have set a Landing Stage time where I Max out the Hours Run then I start tapering off in the beginning of October, Stop in the Middle and Run DMSI on November 1st 2017.
The only reason I am running DMSI instead of UD is because DMSI will be the first 6G sub and I want the Latest tech in order to get a thorough healing experience. The Sex factor is just a Side effect and I am not looking for that as a main dish.
There also was confirmation that I am healing because My mother found something from when I was Six that was a Good memory but it was the start of the time when I felt lonely and out of place, like I don't fit in even with children. I had a good friend in my class and we used to talk a lot but the teacher wanting to assert her authority broke us up and separated us. I used to call him on the phone at 5 years old talking to him and socializing and he was one of the only true friends that I have ever had I my entire life. Needless to say, the administration probably was told by the teacher that we were a nuisance and needed to be broken up so next year in 2nd grade we were broken apart and we grew apart. In 3rd grade I started to get bullied because I gave off a different vibe and thought so differently and was highly intelligent so I started getting bullied by girls. Now I know that they were probably shit testing me since they saw that I was like the only boy in the school with A Deep voice. I failed the tests and became depressed.
One thing that has stuck with me to wrap up is the fact that when I graduated, I got my book signed by a teacher and he told me in the book that once I focus I will become successful. I could not read his handwriting and I looked over that book many times over the years. It was only in 2016 that I was able to read the message. It is true, I am not focused and am scatter brained. This is one of my biggest weaknesses. I think that things happen for a reason and some doors don't open before it's time and this is one example of this.
E2 Days in All: 606 Days
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
UD Start Date: November 1st, 2017- January 19th 2018
DMSI- February 22nd 2018- When AM7 Comes Out?
