DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[JackOfHearts]

"Like my pro pic please" crazy or fake

[Benjamin]

WTF that's so weird. I'd most likely just delete her if she asked that straight up.

[eternity]

WTF that's so weird. I'd most likely just delete her if she asked that straight up.

I never added her. I wanted to scope her out before I did.


I have friends who claim they know her but it seems like a fake profile

[Benjamin]

Even if she is real, and that is her behaviour straight up it's a definite red flag from her.

[eternity]

I'm back on a.

Ran 3 loops in the afternoon (sorry dad, no exposure for you today.)

I was dragging ass at work. Really disliking where I am at with work. I want to get buff and be a male stripper. They make good money, right? Jk...

I went to my usual Thursday night aa meeting and that celebrity vibe was off the hook. I saw some journal where guys gave puppy dog look.... that's what I got. I talked to only men tonight, and it was a room full of only men. It was freaking unbelievable. Luckily I'm kind of used to being showered with attention but to the introverts using v3, be prepared to be intimidated or even to just back off altogether on this sub, if you go to a place where everyone knows you. Dudes were staring at me in awe while I was talking this other guy about me sponsoring him. The look on the onlooker's face was like "omfg. How lucky is he to talk to eternity??". And the guy making the face was a tough and rough guy. He definitely was far from being wimpy, but his expression indicated he knew who the real alpha in the room was.

Definitely felt some energy field around me today while in that room. Was it the aura? Affecting all the men? It felt slightly different than usual, probably because the auras purpose was different than the usual goal of targeting women.

Jeez my social proof is going to fly through the roof tomorrow night when I go back to this place in mixed company. These girls ain't ready

[Benjamin]

I was dragging ass at work. Really disliking where I am at with work. I want to get buff and be a male stripper. They make good money, right? Jk...

Haha damn you had me for a second. I was imagining a testimonial like "DMSI made me a male stripper... now I have panties thrown at me all the time".

[eternity]

i had a really short but intense rage last night, because my phone service wasn't connecting calls to this girl, and i was trying for 10 minutes straight. my blood was boiling and i was getting ready to throw my phone across the room. My rage has been almost entirely under control (if not smothered by something else) for the last 7 years, so I can only think this was due to resisting the sub. I would NEVER be so mad at something so PETTY!!!!! today, i'm feeling depressive. various things are making me sad that shouldn't, and usually don't. like for instance, my male cousin is a hardcore SJW, and typically i just see beyond this aura of nonsense, or rather what i personally consider to be nonsense. but now it's actually making me sad that he is the way he is. almost like i'm mourning for him. and what is confusing is that i really love him, and he's my favorite cousin, and i usually see past this stuff. is it possible i'm actually seeing in him what i don't like about myself? and if so, am i seeing this part of me dying, as if i'm mourning the loss of whatever SJW beliefs or emotions i may have within me?

this is the only connection i can make in my mind. the shield is covering it all up.

but this post serves to note that i experienced rage, followed by depressive.

[Duke.Togo]

The death theme has been prevalent for me as well with Version 3. I had associated those feelings to parts of me that I am now out growing. And because of that I have been feeing an incredible sense of melancholy lately.

The way I have come to understand the feeling, or at least rationalize it is that those parts of me that are being healed had highly emotionally charged events and situations tied to them.

As those parts of me are being healed, in a way, I am also letting go of the core emotions that drove those feelings.

It's like saying goodbye to a friend. It became such a part of me.

And I feel I am also mourning my own pain that I suffered during those times.

I know that whatever I feel at the other side of this will be the person that I am going to eventually become. To become that person, I need to let go of many things that I once held onto, even if what I held onto wasn't good for me.

Take solace in knowing that whatever it is you're saying goodbye to, there is something far greater that is awaiting your hello.

[eternity]

The death theme has been prevalent for me as well with Version 3. I had associated those feelings to parts of me that I am now out growing. And because of that I have been feeing an incredible sense of melancholy lately.

The way I have come to understand the feeling, or at least rationalize it is that those parts of me that are being healed had highly emotionally charged events and situations tied to them.

As those parts of me are being healed, in a way, I am also letting go of the core emotions that drove those feelings.

It's like saying goodbye to a friend. It became such a part of me.

And I feel I am also mourning my own pain that I suffered during those times.

I know that whatever I feel at the other side of this will be the person that I am going to eventually become. To become that person, I need to let go of many things that I once held onto, even if what I held onto wasn't good for me.

Take solace in knowing that whatever it is you're saying goodbye to, there is something far greater that is awaiting your hello.

Wow man, thanks for this post. There's an incredible amount of hope in that last sentence.

[Blink]

The death theme has been prevalent for me as well with Version 3. I had associated those feelings to parts of me that I am now out growing. And because of that I have been feeing an incredible sense of melancholy lately.

The way I have come to understand the feeling, or at least rationalize it is that those parts of me that are being healed had highly emotionally charged events and situations tied to them.

As those parts of me are being healed, in a way, I am also letting go of the core emotions that drove those feelings.

It's like saying goodbye to a friend. It became such a part of me.

And I feel I am also mourning my own pain that I suffered during those times.

I know that whatever I feel at the other side of this will be the person that I am going to eventually become. To become that person, I need to let go of many things that I once held onto, even if what I held onto wasn't good for me.

Take solace in knowing that whatever it is you're saying goodbye to, there is something far greater that is awaiting your hello.

Brought me to tears. Thank you!

[eternity]

Straight up, I jacked that last sentence and put it as my status on fb. I've been reflecting on it all day, and it even was a source of conversation twice today.

I really needed to read that today.

***
So I didn't really feel much of the aura at all today, even though I spent a lot of time socializing.

I ended up getting dinner with one Mexican girl who happened to want to buy me dinner. So we went out to eat. I didn't feel any aura going off, but I kind of sensed an attraction growing on my end. She's a high quality woman, got her shit together in life, is Latina <3 , and has a strong mind and spirit. She's Seriously wife material lol.

Then we went to the aa club in mixed company (as I said I would do in yesterday's post). The celeb effect wasn't as prominent. The aura wasn't powered up, even though I had just finished eating. This leads me to one thing, and I'm open to being wrong about this: the energy that should go towards the aura is being diverted elsewhere- most likely being resistance.

And a weird incident happened while driving:

I felt like someone was thinking about me and fantasizing about me and masturbating. No joke. I think it was the girl I saw first, for dinner. I kept getting this sexual feeling like as if I was having sex, even tho I was sitting in the drivers seat of the car driving down the freeway.

It was intense. Then, a few minutes later, I get a text from her. Can't draw any reasonable conclusions, but my mind tells me she fantasized about me and I felt it.

[Blacksheep]

(....)

[eternity]

I felt like someone was thinking about me and fantasizing about me and masturbating. No joke. I think it was the girl I saw first, for dinner. I kept getting this sexual feeling like as if I was having sex, even tho I was sitting in the drivers seat of the car driving down the freeway.

If DMSI can pull this off, I will die a happy man.

It makes you wonder how we're all connected beyond the physical realm, for to feel something like that one would have to be connected on some other plane I think.

from what i'm learning about the universe through "the path", as well as shannon's knowledge, and other esoteric teachings, i believe we are connected on some other plane, in ways more than we can comprehend due to our limited perception of how it all works.

it's entirely possible i was just imagining that experience, as the way i connect dots between 2 seemingly related things can be "out there" to most rational minds.

i do believe DMSI works in such a manner, therefore making my assumption likely, in the realm of possibilities.
**

I am past the hump of resistance from yesterday. Something in me lost tolerance for being in the friendzone any longer. Therefore, I have been cold and closed off to the hottest girl i know, despite the fact that i'm the only guy friend she has (i can confirm this, due to the 100+ mutual friends we have), besides her boyfriend. And since I am also not willing to cross the line of homewrecking a relationship (this is a personal preference- i don't care to hear rationalizations on why it would be OK if i do), it only reinforces my position further. Despite all this, I could tell she was almost fighting with herself trying not to give me IOI's last night, because her boyfriend was there. At one point, she stepped behind her boyfriend just so she could play with her hair, while i was talking to them both. She invited me to come over to the house her boyfriend lives, to hang out. the interaction went like this:

her: hey do you wanna come to Holus? (name changed for anonymity)
me: no. wait what? holus? what's that? no i don't.
her: hahahaa you said no before you even knew what it was! it's where my boyfriend lives!
me: it's getting late. i just want to be in bed. i've gotten to the point in life where i don't care what i'm doing- i have to be in bed by 10:30. even if i'm not asleep.
her: oh.. okay. (she looks like she's about to cry at this point, like i offended her great ancestors and entire lineage)


the interesting thing about the interaction was my complete disinterest in being around her. don't get me wrong, if it was a situation where it was just me and her, i would have hopped on. but i'm not in the mood to hang around a bunch of other guys as well, even though i'm friends with the guys that live in that house. AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FO DAT.

so i just drove home. girl, if you want my time, i'm not gonna be spending it with your boyfriend, too. Plus, I was excited to get to sleep in a bed for the first time all week! (i can adjust to floors, but man, mattresses are where it's at!)

[Shannon]

Just make sure she understands what you're thinking so she can make her choices.