DMSI 3.1 and MLS exploration - Ascension to ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)hood

[eternity]

And you see why I am planning to turn it off and replace it with something else to signal the same thing. I don't want people getting addicted to using my programs.

I understand that, Shannon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well hey, at least you know now a digital drugs section in your store would make BANK. (perhaps this is an insight into why DMSI is better for you in becoming a Multi Millionaire than BAMM at this moment?)

Trying to make bank at the expense of people's wellness or society's function or the wisdom to realize what the entrenched Powers That Be would respond with, would be folly indeed. People are already having a hard enough time with their addictions to video games, Cell phones, movies, cartoons, food, recreational drugs, prescribed drugs and a variety of other things.

Is the end result a better world if I use my knowledge to create digital recreational drugs?

It depends on how you see this, I guess. You, as a creator of recreational drugs, if you make them, have the power to not getting the users addicted, unlike real drugs. Put something in the script, you know. Actually, they can even help people struggling with real drugs to have a much safer, healthier option to choose from when they are tryin' hard to quit drugs. You can put something in the script regarding that, too. And just because, science!

The only thing that may not help with is the reputation, but I am not an expert on that. I can't possibly comment.

I have the power to prevent addiction, yes. And I do suppose I could create something that would allow someone to transfer from physical drugs to the subliminal and then train themselves off of it entirely... this is interesting to me. It can result in a better world.

I will have to mull this over for a while.

If you can make this happen, I can have (no exaggeration) hundreds of customers going this way. just saying. i'd have to take a commission though, for knowing so many highly targeted people

I could be the worlds first Dopeless Dope Dealer. Well i suppose i'd be the middle man and you'd be the dealer.

plus, being someone not in your business, i don't have to play the "i'm not a doctor so i cannot recommend it to you" card. in any case, if you decided to go further with this Shannon, I will be 100% on your side in any way I can, having been in the depths of addiction, as well as seeing life on the other side of it. And like I said before, if you present to me a solution OTHER than the one i'm doing right now, that WORKS, and is SUPERIOR, I will be quick to convert to it quicker than a cat running towards the sound of a can opener.

[eternity]

a woman's words just triggered my inferiority complex and my sensitivity by making her situation seem somewhat superior to what I had to face. And it's making my blood BOIL. I am very angry right now. To the point where I wanna engage in a verbal boxing match with her when I see her. I wouldn't let this get to me but the problem is that I really care about her, and people this close to me can really get under my skin because they know me so well and use what they know about me against me.

i need to be cleared of triggers like this. i can't afford to be reacting so emotionally to something so petty. it's MY inferiority complex that needs to be dealt with. MY sensitivity that is getting me into trouble.

typing it all out, however, has calmed me down a bit. hoping v3.0.1a clears it.

[Shannon]

I understand that, Shannon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well hey, at least you know now a digital drugs section in your store would make BANK. (perhaps this is an insight into why DMSI is better for you in becoming a Multi Millionaire than BAMM at this moment?)

Trying to make bank at the expense of people's wellness or society's function or the wisdom to realize what the entrenched Powers That Be would respond with, would be folly indeed. People are already having a hard enough time with their addictions to video games, Cell phones, movies, cartoons, food, recreational drugs, prescribed drugs and a variety of other things.

Is the end result a better world if I use my knowledge to create digital recreational drugs?

It depends on how you see this, I guess. You, as a creator of recreational drugs, if you make them, have the power to not getting the users addicted, unlike real drugs. Put something in the script, you know. Actually, they can even help people struggling with real drugs to have a much safer, healthier option to choose from when they are tryin' hard to quit drugs. You can put something in the script regarding that, too. And just because, science!

The only thing that may not help with is the reputation, but I am not an expert on that. I can't possibly comment.

I have the power to prevent addiction, yes. And I do suppose I could create something that would allow someone to transfer from physical drugs to the subliminal and then train themselves off of it entirely... this is interesting to me. It can result in a better world.

I will have to mull this over for a while.

If you can make this happen, I can have (no exaggeration) hundreds of customers going this way. just saying. i'd have to take a commission though, for knowing so many highly targeted people

I could be the worlds first Dopeless Dope Dealer. Well i suppose i'd be the middle man and you'd be the dealer.

plus, being someone not in your business, i don't have to play the "i'm not a doctor so i cannot recommend it to you" card. in any case, if you decided to go further with this Shannon, I will be 100% on your side in any way I can, having been in the depths of addiction, as well as seeing life on the other side of it. And like I said before, if you present to me a solution OTHER than the one i'm doing right now, that WORKS, and is SUPERIOR, I will be quick to convert to it quicker than a cat running towards the sound of a can opener.

This is an area I had planned to tackle in the future. Overcoming addiction. So it will definitely happen eventually. Just don't know specifically when, or in what form.

[eternity]

a woman's words just triggered my inferiority complex and my sensitivity by making her situation seem somewhat superior to what I had to face. And it's making my blood BOIL. I am very angry right now. To the point where I wanna engage in a verbal boxing match with her when I see her. I wouldn't let this get to me but the problem is that I really care about her, and people this close to me can really get under my skin because they know me so well and use what they know about me against me.

i need to be cleared of triggers like this. i can't afford to be reacting so emotionally to something so petty. it's MY inferiority complex that needs to be dealt with. MY sensitivity that is getting me into trouble.

typing it all out, however, has calmed me down a bit. hoping v3.0.1a clears it.

Do you think she is "sh*t testing" you to see what you are made of?

I think so.

Women aren't stupid. They know exactly what buttons to push to trigger whatever pain response they want to see. It usually stems from their own insecurities. I think she is testing your "strength," whether you are worthy of having sex with her.

Now the question is: How are you going to respond (if you do), to win this game of hers?

this makes a LOT of sense. she's showing definite signs of increasing attraction, so she's probably ramping up the shit tests. i'd prefer not to engage in this type of shit test, since the lines between friend and potential sex partner is being blurred for her. Thanks for this post WIP. You have a good point with this. Thanks

[Ivaylo]

a woman's words just triggered my inferiority complex and my sensitivity by making her situation seem somewhat superior to what I had to face. And it's making my blood BOIL. I am very angry right now. To the point where I wanna engage in a verbal boxing match with her when I see her. I wouldn't let this get to me but the problem is that I really care about her, and people this close to me can really get under my skin because they know me so well and use what they know about me against me.

i need to be cleared of triggers like this. i can't afford to be reacting so emotionally to something so petty. it's MY inferiority complex that needs to be dealt with. MY sensitivity that is getting me into trouble.

Hey man, maybe it will be useful for you to know that the bold part may not necessarily be true. I had an ENFP best friend for a long time and your reaction sounds a bit familiar. Of course, I don't know you personally, so I may be wrong here.

If you're anything like the ENFP I knew, then thinking somebody is out to get you is part of the problem. If you're comfortable with what's under your skin, nobody can "get" you. You'd be surprised how few people (if any) care to do that anyway.

I've been accused of doing things like that in the past (including when I lost the friendship, if I may call it that) and if that helps, I could only find the accusations ranging from funny to absurd.

What's under your skin probably isn't vomiting rainbows though.

Hope that helps.

[eternity]

a woman's words just triggered my inferiority complex and my sensitivity by making her situation seem somewhat superior to what I had to face. And it's making my blood BOIL. I am very angry right now. To the point where I wanna engage in a verbal boxing match with her when I see her. I wouldn't let this get to me but the problem is that I really care about her, and people this close to me can really get under my skin because they know me so well and use what they know about me against me.

i need to be cleared of triggers like this. i can't afford to be reacting so emotionally to something so petty. it's MY inferiority complex that needs to be dealt with. MY sensitivity that is getting me into trouble.

typing it all out, however, has calmed me down a bit. hoping v3.0.1a clears it.

Do you think she is "sh*t testing" you to see what you are made of?

I think so.

Women aren't stupid. They know exactly what buttons to push to trigger whatever pain response they want to see. It usually stems from their own insecurities. I think she is testing your "strength," whether you are worthy of having sex with her.

Now the question is: How are you going to respond (if you do), to win this game of hers?

this makes a LOT of sense. she's showing definite signs of increasing attraction, so she's probably ramping up the shit tests. i'd prefer not to engage in this type of shit test, since the lines between friend and potential sex partner is being blurred for her. Thanks for this post WIP. You have a good point with this. Thanks

I don't think there is a "blurred line." With women you are either one or the other. There is no in between.

I think at this point you are ONLY a potential sex partner. Would she "stab" a friend verbally just to see the response? Use information obtained during a vulnerable moment to hurt a true friend? I don't think so. I don't think she views you as a "friend." She is sizing up your ability to earn her sexual favors.

Pardon me for saying this, but I think you should abandon any idea of keeping her as a friend if having sex with her might not/does not work out. This line of thinking on your part will only sabotage you from attaining your goal. Pick either friend or sex partner, and stick to it without wavering.

*as we all know though there is no real friendship between a man and woman, as one or the other always wants something out of it, be it attention, sex, or what have you.

Can you be truly happy just giving her your attention while she is f*cking somebody else?

Truth. Wisdom. Thanks.

a woman's words just triggered my inferiority complex and my sensitivity by making her situation seem somewhat superior to what I had to face. And it's making my blood BOIL. I am very angry right now. To the point where I wanna engage in a verbal boxing match with her when I see her. I wouldn't let this get to me but the problem is that I really care about her, and people this close to me can really get under my skin because they know me so well and use what they know about me against me.

i need to be cleared of triggers like this. i can't afford to be reacting so emotionally to something so petty. it's MY inferiority complex that needs to be dealt with. MY sensitivity that is getting me into trouble.

Hey man, maybe it will be useful for you to know that the bold part may not necessarily be true. I had an ENFP best friend for a long time and your reaction sounds a bit familiar. Of course, I don't know you personally, so I may be wrong here.

If you're anything like the ENFP I knew, then thinking somebody is out to get you is part of the problem. If you're comfortable with what's under your skin, nobody can "get" you. You'd be surprised how few people (if any) care to do that anyway.

I've been framed for doing things like that in the past (including when I lost the friendship, if I may call it that) and if that helps, I could only find the accusations ranging from funny to absurd.

What's under your skin probably isn't vomiting rainbows though.

Hope that helps.

One of the aspects of my communication style is exaggerative and "out of proportion" so i may have made it seem a lot bigger than it really is -- I DO THAT!!!!!

I also left a hole in the story, so let me patch it up now. What I was referring to when people get so close to me that they use it against me.... is that she knows my personality so damn well that she knows exactly what will piss me off -- but she doesn't always do this in shit tests! When i come to her asking for advice, she will say X,Y,Z reason, and then back it up with "Because this is who you are and how you operate", and it will all be true. What makes me ANGRY about it, is that I can't BS myself for very long when friends like this help point out some things about me which are twisted off ways to think.

[RTBoss]

I also left a hole in the story, so let me patch it up now. What I was referring to when people get so close to me that they use it against me.... is that she knows my personality so damn well that she knows exactly what will piss me off -- but she doesn't always do this in shit tests! When i come to her asking for advice, she will say X,Y,Z reason, and then back it up with "Because this is who you are and how you operate", and it will all be true. What makes me ANGRY about it, is that I can't BS myself for very long when friends like this help point out some things about me which are twisted off ways to think.

Cut yourself some slack, my man! Appreciate the friends who can see those things, and use it to help yourself heal and grow. Perhaps that will help take the edge off.

I don't take criticism very well. When I put myself in the frame of mind that I'm in control and I can change what I don't like when I become aware of the problem, it helps me take it (criticism) in stride.

[eternity]

I also left a hole in the story, so let me patch it up now. What I was referring to when people get so close to me that they use it against me.... is that she knows my personality so damn well that she knows exactly what will piss me off -- but she doesn't always do this in shit tests! When i come to her asking for advice, she will say X,Y,Z reason, and then back it up with "Because this is who you are and how you operate", and it will all be true. What makes me ANGRY about it, is that I can't BS myself for very long when friends like this help point out some things about me which are twisted off ways to think.

Cut yourself some slack, my man! Appreciate the friends who can see those things, and use it to help yourself heal and grow. Perhaps that will help take the edge off.

I don't take criticism very well. When I put myself in the frame of mind that I'm in control and I can change what I don't like when I become aware of the problem, it helps me take it (criticism) in stride.

yeah man, my pattern is usually this.

1) ask for advice
2) get called out on my bullshit
3) hate her for a few hours
4) grateful to have people who care enough about me to tell it like it is, for my own improvement in life.
5) assimilate this into daily living.

repeat steps 1-5 in a recursive fashion

it's a good thing, for sure. haha

[eternity]

please don't give me any FLAC for this post.

I didn't know if I could handle the B but I tried it anyway. I'm 7 minutes into loop 1 as of writing this sentence.

0:01 - 3:00 - perception of reality seems to be distorting. the only way i can describe it is that my awareness is dissociating from my body slightly.

4:00 - feet starting to tingle.

5:00 - heart starting to race.

At around the 2 minutes mark, the euphoria started to hit me, but it's not powerful, in relation to the H drip experience.

Running version B for 2 reasons. 1) I have an opportunity tonight with 1 of 2 women that I don't want to blow. If woman 1 doesn't give me what i want, i'll go to woman 2, both of whom live in the same house (i mentioned both of them in last Wednesday's post).

at around minute 10, I felt a state of hyper focus. but it was gone quickly.

[Duke.Togo]

You'll find the hyper attention come back by the end of your loops. B is very different from A. Prepare to be somewhat assaulted.

Will be interested to hear how it worked out for you.

[Shannon]

Prepare the howitzer...

[eternity]

Prepare the howitzer...

Prepared and ready for battle, HQ! Give us the command and we'll open fire... until then. UNPREPARED HOWITZER operator signing out. Over and out.

on a more serious note, i feel fine during the listening session 30 minutes away from finishing loop 2. aside from being tired, i don't really feel overwhelmed. i imagine most of the action will take place AFTER the loops are done, when my brain switches from input mode, to processing mode? and THAT's when the howitzers will be firing. let's see If it gets too intense, I'm screwed. hehehehhehee prepare the howitzer indeed.

[Shannon]

Prepare the howitzer...

Prepared and ready for battle, HQ! Give us the command and we'll open fire... until then. UNPREPARED HOWITZER operator signing out. Over and out.

on a more serious note, i feel fine during the listening session 30 minutes away from finishing loop 2. aside from being tired, i don't really feel overwhelmed. i imagine most of the action will take place AFTER the loops are done, when my brain switches from input mode, to processing mode? and THAT's when the howitzers will be firing. let's see If it gets too intense, I'm screwed. hehehehhehee prepare the howitzer indeed.

Operator? Son, that baby is pointed AT you. lol

I hope you're ready for this.

[Aventus45]

Why am I envisioning Version B is essentially going to be D-Day for the subconscious while Version A is a silent coup?