DMSI 3.1

[Benjamin]

I don't necessarily mean that part. It's more the last part that's gonna go somewhere we don't want it. And that's the part that makes it seem like it's a way to start an argument. I knew it was heading there as soon as I seen the original post.

[blackwing Z]

You knew it was heading to sub priveledged as soon as first post said sub priveledged? Lmao...

[blackwing Z]

I think communication is off. U can't see me deliver what I have to say... and take it wrong way. My fault

[FREAK4LIFE]

Sub privilidged? I don't know where you pulled that from...

All this (whatever) privilidged crap..

[FREAK4LIFE]

Not everybody has subs, therefore, having subs is a priviledge which gives you an advantage at dealing with otherwise difficult to deal with emotions/circumstances. Shielding, aura, ogsf, etc..

So as something may be easy for us now, it may not be for others.. and to simply brush it off as its no big deal... is not fair. We wouldnt want to be thrown in that position ourselves.

it's like telling a black person "dont worry about police, just be polite and respectful to them, you're overreacting". It is a whole different world for them.

[blackwing Z]

That cheered me up

[Benjamin]

You knew it was heading to sub priveledged as soon as first post said sub priveledged? Lmao...

Hahahaha no.

I meant the discussion about racism and such that was potentially coming which has the potential of escalating.

[Duke.Togo]

Day 80

Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VEOyNWDdlE4

Today is my last day of DMSI 3.1. I'm 10 days shy of the 90 day requirement, and that's OK for me. This was the longest I had used any version of DMSI, with only a day off here and there. I woke up this morning, did my loops, and realized it was time.

At this point, my brain will go into pure execution, assimilating everything that the sub has been enforcing.

I'm not sure what to expect from the bloom period, but, interestingly enough, I can feel DMSI being processed even as I write this journal entry.

I will keep this journal open, as I intend to write about some of the post effects of the bloom period. In the end, I recorded 42 days on A, and 38 days on B.

Interesting to note, last Friday as I was listening to A for my 40th day, I felt an incredible heat burning through my body. It was the first time, during my entire run of 3.1, that I felt that. It was so incredibly intense, that when I stood up from my chair, my shirt was stuck to my back in sweat. And this, in a cold air-conditioned room.

Last Friday night I found myself out for a beer with a friend of mine. We went to a rooftop (NYC and our rooftop bars), and I had three gorgeous women in different groups eye-f*cking me. It was enough that my friend noticed. Also, similar to RT's experience, one of them gave me a crotch view by spreading her legs open and showing me her panties. That one was interesting.

I didn't make any moves that night, as I only had an hour to be out, and I wanted to focus on catching up with my Boy. He even asked me why I don't go for any of them. I told him there'll always be a group of beautiful women out there, somewhere, vying for my attention.

It was at that point that something really clicked for me.

I know I'm not going to get every girls attention, and I'm not going to seduce every woman that crosses my path. But, there will always be a few, no matter where I go, that's easy pickings for me. I think it was with that realization that I came to the conclusion I did today.

I don't recall how many women I slept with over the past three months or so; there were a few more than what I documented here. I wanted to make this journal about the sub and not about my sexual notches.

I know on some level they are one in the same, but, it doesn't matter now.

I had some other experiences as well. Thanks again to RT and his spiderweb post on E's MHS journal, I gave up coffee and soda about three weeks ago. I still eat chocolate, small amounts, which has trace amounts of caffeine in it. Not nearly as much to affect the dopamine retention in my brain I don't think.

Interestingly enough, since quitting the caffeine quantities, the subs affects and state shifting really became pronounced. Sometimes I would stop playing the sub, but would feel the effects of it, as if time had somehow slowed down for me. It's almost like you can see the ripples in a space continuum. It was trippy, but soothing.

It was during that time that the energy requirements of the sub really became prominent for me.

I'm not sure how I want to close this last sub entry out. For those of you who are still not seeing results with DMSI, the few points I can offer you are:

1 - Quit Caffeine. I didn't think it was that big of a deal whenever Shannon would mention it, but it makes a world of difference.

2 - Be patient with yourselves. I know that everyone who is using this sub wants it to work and want beautiful women to slay at their feet. Honestly, don't make it about the women. The more you focus on that, the less power you have over yourself. External Validation will never give you the desired end goal. I know this is counter-intuitive, as the whole point of this sub is for external validation from women, but, don't make it that. Use the sub to focus more inwardly. The healing and clearing, if you get out of the way, will take you into an amazing inward journey. And as you progress through that journey, the world around you shifts into what you want.

3 - Don't get hung up on trying to use the sniper to get the girl. Yes, that is a technology that is built into DMSI now, however, the more you try to focus on that and the less you are aligned with yourself, the further you're going to push your end-goal away. I can't even begin to tell you who my long distance target is anymore, because I have four amazingly beautiful women, all in different places in the US, and in one case out in Asia, inviting me to come stay with them.

4 - And lastly, be limitless. I'm not a fan of the Matrix, as most of the movie is a rip off a fantastic book titled Neuromancer, however, there is one quote that I can't help but concede to. "There is no spoon." The more you focus on the brick wall in front of you, the greater that wall will grow. Like anything, what you focus on you give power to. We live in a time now where you can start a company in your garage and in a few short years become a billionaire, where private space travel is soon to be a reality, and listening to the sound of the ocean or a trickling stream can change your whole life.

As it is written, so shall it be.

Change how you write, and change your life. Don't get frustrated and don't focus on the negatives.

I wrote in an e-mail to my Brother Strangelove, that I say a gratitude prayer a few times a week.
Everyday that I wake up and am still above ground, is a good day. Find things in your life that you can be grateful for and focus on that. It might sound corny, but it makes a real difference. Pretty soon you'll find yourself adding things to that list. It takes me 30 minutes to go through everything I'm grateful for.

Other than that, I wish everyone on their personal journeys the greatest success.

Onward and Upward...

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars." - Jack Kerouac

[Blacksheep]

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[Duke.Togo]

What made ylu decide to stop? Are you leaving us?

Not leaving my brothers, no. I'll be around and will update this journal with some of the bloom effects.

What made me decide to stop... it's hard to say, and it wasn't resistance. It was more of, I have all of this information that I have been in-taking for the past few months, and now it's coming to the point where I need to start processing it. Evolving from it.

So, that's what I'm going to do, at least until 3.2 comes out.

I feel like I came to understand myself through 3.1. I stared into my own emotional abyss and learned more about myself than I had at any other time in my life. And I owe so much of that to this community also. To you, RT, Strangelove, Wolverine, Eternity, Chaos, Sarge, WIP, Reezox, Ben, Illumi and of course our Maestro.

The discussions that came about from the various 3.1 threads really put so many things in perspective for me. And it helped me look inward while using this version. Now, I feel like the evolution begins. I need time to process all of it before I throw myself into the next release. I figure coming into 3.2 with a good 60 days off subs will give me a fresh brain and less turbulence.

My final post on 3.1 was based on the last day I'd be using this version of the sub. I felt that it only be right that I contribute some of my thoughts back to the community, as I gained so much from everyone here.

Hopefully it proves to be of some value to the members here.

I want to see everyone executing this sub in full fashion.

You're getting close to full execution also. Exciting times are ahead for you Travis.

Exciting times ahead for all of us.

[SargeMaximus]

Wow, thank you for the shout out. Sometimes I feel like my posts are too weird or "negative" to be valuable. Glad you got something out of my ramblings.

Also, I'm glad you're not leaving. It's crazy but I feel so close to everyone on this forum these days. Thoughts of losing a member brings forth some sadness, not gonna lie.

[eternity]

Bahaha I'm planning a trip out to NYC in a few weeks, so we will have to meet up. (Girl inviting me to stay with her type deal, as you've reported)

I get a lot of value from your contributions in here too Duke. Enjoy that bloom! I'm excited to see how things unfold for you during that time.

[Duke.Togo]

Bahaha I'm planning a trip out to NYC in a few weeks, so we will have to meet up. (Girl inviting me to stay with her type deal, as you've reported)

I get a lot of value from your contributions in here too Duke. Enjoy that bloom! I'm excited to see how things unfold for you during that time.

E, definitely let me know when you're in town. I'm traveling a bit in June, but otherwise I'll be around for the rest of the summer. Definitely want to break bread and catch up with you.

[Duke.Togo]

Day 82

Currently listening to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkKulSH2nNc

I took a two-week break from the sub, realized that I originally told myself I would do the 90 days, and hopped back on. I decided to do B exclusively for the remainder of the next 8 days, though I will probably extend it longer.

The break helped, it let me process the sub and the effects of that time have been interesting to say the least.

Within 3 days of being off the sub, I basically put all the women I knew on ice. Some rather harshly ( Y ) and some much more gently ( K ). With K it was hard, because she didn't understand what was going on with me. I ended up telling her I just need some time to figure some shit out in my own head. She was hurt, so I asked her for the time, in an effort to make it easier on her. I've known her for so many years, I know I basically broke her heart when I asked for a break.

After that, I stopped focusing on women completely. I didn't realize what I don't give a f*ck meant until the last two weeks happened. I was so completely disinterested in women that even my boys noticed. We were out at a bar, and a cute girl, young, probably about 25, tried to chat me up and get to know me.

She started by asking where I was from and what I do. I replied asking her if that was the most interesting thing she could think of. She flustered around a bit and I shut her down completely and went back to drinking my beer. I barely spoke to my boy that night.

I also had a pretty continuous headache for a week. It was like all those resistance headaches I didn't have while on the sub, accumulated and decided to cash in on me when I thought I was in the clear. Karma's a bitch I tell you. But I love her anyway...

Yesterday I decided I would start DMSI up again, except this time I'm doing it at night. Just one loop also. One loop feels right for me, for some reason. No sooner did I start last night that I got sick today. I was tempted to buy MIR and use it, but, I have a feeling this isn't that kind of a cold. This seems to be more of my subconscious fighting me. Change is a violent thing, but if you retreat from it, you'll never know what could have been. So, I am going to push through it, because I know I'll come out of it a different man.

Hell, this may have been why I stopped at day 80 in the first place. I won't know for sure until I'm further down the line in my life.

Today, despite feeling like death, I drove out to a place in Jersey to pick some shit up. Went to a Paris Baguette while there and there was a really cute Korean girl at the register, with a rose tatted on her arm. Made small talk with her, but something inside me just clicked again and I knew the DMSI beast was ready to be unleashed. I could sense it in her as well. I refrained due to the fact that I wasn't physically there, but I am going to go back at some point when I'm in better health, and we'll see what happens then.

After I came home I decided I needed a triple threat of action. Watched Commando, Cobra, and Hard Target. For those of you who have never seen Hard Target, give it a chance, easily one of the best action movies of the 90's. It helped that it was directed by John Woo. His first American feature if I'm not mistaken.

Watching Cobra and Commando was awe inspiring and a little disheartening at the same time. I watched all those movies as a kid - my dad never quite got the whole filter thing, and god bless him for that - and man, there was so much machismo in those movies. And then I flicked through some modern hits and wow... just... wow...

Even Tom Cruise had machismo pouring out of his sweat glands in Top Gun. Now, he's an errand boy for a female mummy...

F*ck Man...