06-01-2018, 05:38 AM
I am flying off the handle with my anger more easily. I have been observing this change in myself over the past two or three months.
In the past I developed a pattern of holding my anger in and turning passive-aggressive or sometimes exploding with hours of brooding afterwards (and of course guilt/shame mixed into the melange). Then, mostly due to subs I think, I got rid of the passive-aggressive traits. Positivity and calmness followed. Now I am almost always calm, but sometimes turn into a summer thunderstorm for some seconds, mostly when somebody treats me wrongly or does stupid sh!t that exposes me to dangers for my health. But this goes away fast and I can talk calmly about what bothered me and I saw as wrong-doing.
I am no saint and sometimes I overdo it when there is no reason to. But all in all I am much healthier with this. Although I am still not really comfortable to express my anger this way.
In the past I developed a pattern of holding my anger in and turning passive-aggressive or sometimes exploding with hours of brooding afterwards (and of course guilt/shame mixed into the melange). Then, mostly due to subs I think, I got rid of the passive-aggressive traits. Positivity and calmness followed. Now I am almost always calm, but sometimes turn into a summer thunderstorm for some seconds, mostly when somebody treats me wrongly or does stupid sh!t that exposes me to dangers for my health. But this goes away fast and I can talk calmly about what bothered me and I saw as wrong-doing.
I am no saint and sometimes I overdo it when there is no reason to. But all in all I am much healthier with this. Although I am still not really comfortable to express my anger this way.
_ - Third Stone From The Sun - _
