Aventus's Journey to Becoming More Real (DMSI V3.1)

[apollolux]

so crowded subways trains usually have some semblance of personal space correct? Not with this ride!

The train was fairly occupied for an nyc train but when I arrived to this stop, the doors opened to a flood of people coming in. This busted black girl was the first to come in and she honed into my personal space like it was more crowded than it really was. It was easy less than a foot away despite having some space to back the hell up. like her chest was facing me and there was like a 5-6 inch gap between us.

The uncomfortable thing is the fact that people usually move in if they are forced to. this bitch zoomed the hell in! It made me uncomfortable real quick.

Which train was this? Sounds like the L train to me.

[Aventus45]

so crowded subways trains usually have some semblance of personal space correct? Not with this ride!

The train was fairly occupied for an nyc train but when I arrived to this stop, the doors opened to a flood of people coming in. This busted black girl was the first to come in and she honed into my personal space like it was more crowded than it really was. It was easy less than a foot away despite having some space to back the hell up. like her chest was facing me and there was like a 5-6 inch gap between us.

The uncomfortable thing is the fact that people usually move in if they are forced to. this bitch zoomed the hell in! It made me uncomfortable real quick.

Which train was this? Sounds like the L train to me.

The 6 during rush hour

[apollolux]

so crowded subways trains usually have some semblance of personal space correct? Not with this ride!

The train was fairly occupied for an nyc train but when I arrived to this stop, the doors opened to a flood of people coming in. This busted black girl was the first to come in and she honed into my personal space like it was more crowded than it really was. It was easy less than a foot away despite having some space to back the hell up. like her chest was facing me and there was like a 5-6 inch gap between us.

The uncomfortable thing is the fact that people usually move in if they are forced to. this bitch zoomed the hell in! It made me uncomfortable real quick.

Which train was this? Sounds like the L train to me.

The 6 during rush hour

Sounds about right. I'm on the west side and take the 1 so unless going to school I've been fortunate enough to avoid taking the 4/5/6 regularly.

I don't envy you at all, dude

[Aventus45]

Day 2

I was hustling the entire day because I was gacked on a full tablet of modafinil.

Then I realized just how much my life has changed in a short amount of time. I used to be a lazy and self-delusional person who was all talk about self-improvement and yet I never went anywhere.As well has gone on a binge of whatever hedonistic tendencies I had. I used to have so much baggage and issues relating to women, self-confidence, self-esteem, etc. I was stick with friends that didn't accept me first and foremost, but also they never had the drive to succeed as I now have. Hell, they still don't have it the drive that I'm looking for in people.

Here I am, I just realized that I set out and completed the goals I wanted to hit. I got into the professional development program I wanted to get into and met a lot of awesome mentees as well as having a cool, experienced, and easy to talk to mentor. I recently got into another program, and I'm shadowing a leader in a cultural club. My drive for learning is getting there. The harder subjects are fun to learn.

I get to know people who are more successful and more driven than I am. Hell one of my friends recently got his job two months ago, and he is potentially going to be the highest achieving worker among his job site. He has the potential to slaughter his competition. Today he told me about his internal resolve to fully commit to personal promises as well as how to become better at client facing services. I found it inspiring, and it made me want to achieve more.

I think DMSI had cleared a lot of stuff up as well as having the recent events that happened. I don't think I could have achieved the stuff I had done. I simply wouldn't have had the self-esteem nor the confidence to. I had such a low confidence in myself that I though I wasn't doing that much regarding internships. As I revised my Resume, It turns out I had a lot of dope stuff and I failed to see it through the veil.

[Duke.Togo]

Day 2

I was hustling the entire day because I was gacked on a full tablet of modafinil.

Then I realized just how much my life has changed in a short amount of time. I used to be a lazy and self-delusional person who was all talk about self-improvement and yet I never went anywhere.As well has gone on a binge of whatever hedonistic tendencies I had. I used to have so much baggage and issues relating to women, self-confidence, self-esteem, etc. I was stick with friends that didn't accept me first and foremost, but also they never had the drive to succeed as I now have. Hell, they still don't have it the drive that I'm looking for in people.

Here I am, I just realized that I set out and completed the goals I wanted to hit. I got into the professional development program I wanted to get into and met a lot of awesome mentees as well as having a cool, experienced, and easy to talk to a mentor. I recently got into another program, and I'm shadowing a leader in a cultural club. My drive for learning is getting there. The harder subjects are fun to learn.

I get to know people who are more successful and more driven than I am. Hell one of my friends recently got his job two months ago, and he is potentially going to be the highest achieving worker among his job site. He has the potential to slaughter his competition. Today he told me about his internal resolve to fully commit to personal promises as well as how to become better at client facing services. I found it inspiring, and it made me want to achieve more.

I think DMSI had cleared a lot of stuff up as well as having the recent events that happened. I don't think I could have achieved the stuff I had done. I simply wouldn't have had the self-esteem nor the confidence to. I had such a low confidence in myself that I though I wasn't doing that much regarding internships. As I revised my Resume, It turns out I had a lot of dope stuff and I failed to see it through the veil.

Reading this post from you was awesome! I'm really happy for you, that you're taking charge the way you are.

You only get one shot at this thing called life Aventus, make it everything you want it to be!

[Aventus45]

Day 3

The aura is different than 3.0.1 for sure. When I got to the point of projecting the aura, 3 0.1 felt like a rough battery powering up and charging. 3.1 feels more so like I'm a human radiator emitting warm and fuzziness around me from my heart area and torso outwards.
I finally felt the H drip effects as I was projecting the aura so I felt like was literally elevated to a warm and fuzzy plane of existence. Nice I'm executing something.

[Shannon]

The Plane of Coziness achievement has been unlocked. You may now access the Plane of Coziness at will.

lol

[Aventus45]

The Plane of Coziness achievement has been unlocked. You may now access the Plane of Coziness at will.

lol

Oh my. If I could live there Everytime I sleep I would be so happy haha.

[Aventus45]

Day 3

The aura is different than 3.0.1 for sure. When I got to the point of projecting the aura, 3 0.1 felt like a rough battery powering up and charging. 3.1 feels more so like I'm a human radiator emitting warm and fuzziness around me from my heart area and torso outwards.
I finally felt the H drip effects as I was projecting the aura so I felt like was literally elevated to a warm and fuzzy plane of existence. Nice I'm executing something.

is this while listening or after?

This was during use.

[Aventus45]

Day 6

My current identity is not solid at all. After 2 weeks of hualing ass and shit, I have a talk with an old friend. It very nearly reverted back to my old self.

I also have a cold... This week is going to be brutal.

[Aventus45]

Went to class and I was subtly flirting with the Hispanic girl again lets just call her L for now. This time theres more subtly more touch going on. So this girl always complains about not being able to stay awake in class so I wouid tease her about it and generally be a dick.

Occasion one

L: I only heard Subject 1 and Subject 2. (topics that covered weeks ago)
me: Wow where were you huh?
L: -giving excuses and explaining her reasons-
me: it was a joke....
L: -Goes in my space and lightly shoves my hand and goes for my computer-
Me: -laughs in asian-

Occasion 2
L: -Turns to me- I'm sleepy~
Me:- Poked her nose- Boop~
L: -small smile and looks at me in the eyes- I'm gonna need more than that
Me: -Punch my open palm, signifying just how much more i was going to dish out-
L: -Look of shock and confusion and (i think) gestured that she would do the same-
Me: - quiet hysterical laugh in Asian-

Aside from that and being generally silly, i fell into a bit of a downer that i just now got out of. Good stuff, I should probably do something with L soon.

[SargeMaximus]

Cool man. Let me ask you something tho: how does one laugh in asian??!

JK.

Love the new sig btw.

[kalmah0804]

No need to respond, but am wondering what school you go to (if you don't mind me asking). I actually went to NYU (think you mentioned it in a previous thread) and find your constant discussions about my daily life back in college (WSQ Park, the 6th during rush hour, etc) makes me real fucking homesick

[Aventus45]

I think DMSI manifested a slim yet curvy Hispanic girl with voluptuous hair. She new to the job site and she was introduced to me and my other coworkers. When I saw her, It was a holy shit moment and I was in shock.The Asian coworker nor C gave me such a powerful first initial reaction. Interesting....

During the short time I was there, She was standing in the strong sunlight posing like a good model off the bat. Since she and the other interns speaking Spanish, I didn't know what they were saying but at first they were making fun of it. After a while, her friends stop caring and she is still posing so it makes me wonder if shes posing for someone lol.

After being in shock for all that time, my shift ended and I needed to leave. I wonder if she is using DMSI and sniped me or something because of how instant and all-encompassing attaction. I'll most likely see her next week and I'll have another week of 3.1 under my belt.