Alumni80's Alpha Male 5.0 Journal

[alumni80]

This is a journal documenting my journey using Alpha Male 5.0

Some background..

I just turned 40. Floundering between careers (currently unemployed). Celibate and not looking because I'm still pretty devastated from a breakup over a year ago. Also a recovering porn addict. It's a rough time for me.

I have just finished Stage 1 of AM 5.0

So I've finished 40 days of nightly exposure -- (8 hrs) of looped Trickling Stream/Ultrasonic Silent using an iPod with an Altec Lansing inMotion IM3 Speaker System -- rated at 60 Hz to 20 kHz.

Moving on to Stage 2 now.

STAGE 1 OBSERVATIONS

Week 1: Had intense, vivid and endless dreams every night.

Week 2: Increasing fastidiousness. Grooming better, taking care of skin, teeth better, taking care to dress better.

Weeks 3 & 4: Vivid dreams and fastidiousness gone. Some slight improvement with my procrastination issues. Waves of extreme irritability. Intense annoyance with everyone to the point of prolonged daydreaming of violence against others. Find myself choosing to stay in rather than go out because everyone annoys me so much.

Summary: I don't feel like anything is changing and frankly, at this point, I am dissatisfied with the product. Apart from feeling angry and hating people and a mild improvement in my procrastination, there is nothing to write about.

Is there a link to where Shannon describes what happens at each stage? That would be good for me to read. Maybe then I would feel like it is worth continuing.

Any thoughts from others who have gone through AM 5? What happened at Stage 1? What happened for you at Stage 2?

From reading other user journals, it seems everyone seems to at least start seeing some benefits in Stage 1.

[Shannon]

First of all... you're not following the directions. The directions say to use each stage for 32 days. Not 40.

Secondly, you can't tell me you even searched for the answer to your question, because right there on the first page of the FAQ section near the top is the thread titled "Help with deciphering the [Alpha Male] stages".

And thirdly, wouldn't you suspect that maybe the program is six stages for a reason, and that getting upset that you haven't had the end results by the start of Stage 2 would be just a little unreasonable?

And on top of that, it's a well known and documented and discussed fact that not everyone will get obvious results from Stage 1 because it's designed primarily as garbage collection and clearing, and not everyone needs that.

So... perhaps you should reserve judgement until the end, let go of expectations, and realize that this is going to take time. Just like it always does. Just like it always has.

[alpha123]

Hi

I recognize myself in your writing. I would like to encourage you to keep going. I am glad I did. :-)

[Sean]

Stage One either affects people greatly, or very little, and I've not read anyone who described a non-polar result of Stage One.

First, with Alpha Male, it is of the highest importance that you follow the directions. From what I've gathered, each stage is pushing you off your current balance. Like a three-legged table with one leg a little too short, pushing in one direction will correct that imbalance, but if you push too far, the table falls over, with drinks, meals, crockery, and silverware scattering across the floor. This is a bad thing. You don't want to do that. RTFM and follow the instructions without failure.

Second, the fact that your dreams went gonzo the first couple of weeks matches every other journal I've read. The subliminals are beginning to have their effects, but those effects are too subtle to notice at this point. Stay the course: you lose nothing by continuing to listen every night. The refund will still be available at the end of your first AM run-through.

Third, your previous posts on the forum have a different tone to them: Perhaps expressing your irritation openly is newer than you realized.

[jamboree]

It sounds like your on track. The irritation and annoyance is normal. Don't ask me why that is, but your not the only one who has felt that in the early stages. The annoyance and irritability sometimes extends to the product and sometimes the creator. I remember one person stating that by the end of either stage one or two that he didn't know whether to hug or punch Shannon.. LoL. It seems a normal part of the course. Not the punching part. Eventually, it mellows out.

And to everyone else, its ok. He is good. Don't you remember those stages?

[Benjamin]

Yeah Stage 1 is usually where you get sick of peoples crap I did. It's part of becoming more assertive and standing up for yourself and it's an important stage.

I can see why you did the 40 day thing. I know that was something mentioned by you Shannon back when I started Alpha 2010 and you had reccomended someone to do 40 days if they are resistant but since then it has changed to do 32 days no matter what. I'm pretty sure Alumni80 was around back then so that explains it.

-Ben