Depression session. Confused right now like a shitload of stuff is surfacing. Re-occuring theme. Feeling like losijg everything. Lost feeling obsessed. Confused. Its all felt in my body and acknowledged now. Im lost as to what attraction means. One side beliefs that showing none causes interest. Other hand, there is belief by being interested and real is a thing. As it can amplify attraction if a women/girl is interested. Like some 'damaged goods' kind of rethoric instead of being a fortress of steel. Fear is another thing. Ugh. Fucking nice guy masks. Im hurt under the surface. Admitting this terrifies me.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
