AM6 Journal - The beast awakens

[iceman]

Yesterday one woman turned back and looked at me like she was scared! :|

[LiquidMind]

So far so good with stage 2

Making sure I listen when I can and increasing my listening time from stage 1


I'm feeling grateful for everthing right now. Even though I'm not where I want to be currently, I am grateful I even have the opportunity to have goals and dreams to achieve.

Next step is just my own business. Really unsure how to go about doing it right now. I also have a very frenzied lack of care for peoples opinions. Like if someone says something about either me or my choices - I chew them out.


If anyone runs a business out there, you have any pointers?


Til next time

LM

[LiquidMind]

So day 9 of stage 2. I am restless with frustration. One of my main goals this year is to move out and live independantly. The new subs are helping me achieve this but it's like staring at the sun. I just haven't got the equipment to do it yet..

I either need a new job, which, given the current recruitment agencies are absolute sh*t, would be able to help me achieve this, or I start my own business.




I tried it last year btw. Starting my own venture with a longtime buddy of mine. Didn't work out too well. Now he's got a job elsewhere which indicates he has abandoned it. So I'm left here with no inspiration to do anything. I currently work at a casino and the job is boring my balls off. I have done everything possible at that casino and still it's not enough to see me promoted or given new tasks.




I know I'm rambling so I;m going to move on to something else

Today I went back to my swimming, the surge of motivation to work out is increasing. I also saw the receptionist there who is very sexy and also indicated that she liked me when I first joined (feb last year) and now things are kind of awkward. I never made any attempt at her due to just being scared I guess. Now fast forward nearly a year later and the things are improving like my confidence etc its hard to talk with her as shes just used to me saying "hello" and "goodbye" It's a shame because I really want to see her under the sheets someday but I guess I should just give it up




Either way here's to the subs which are still kicking ass! Another day is dawning


More to come

LM

[FREAK4LIFE]

So day 9 of stage 2. I am restless with frustration. One of my main goals this year is to move out and live independantly. The new subs are helping me achieve this but it's litterally like staring at the sun. I just haven't got the equipment to do it yet..

I either need a new job, which, given the current recruitment agencies are absolute sh*t, would be able to help me achieve this, or I start my own business.




I tried it last year btw. Starting my own venture with a longtime buddy of mine. Didn't work out too well. Now he's got a job elsewhere which indicates he has abandoned it. So I'm left here with no inspiration to do anything. I currently work at a casino and the job is boring my balls off. I have done everything possible at that casino and still it's not enough to see me promoted or given new tasks.




I know I'm rambling so I;m going to move on to something else

Today I went back to my swimming, the surge of motivation to work out is increasing. I also saw the receptionist there who is very sexy and also indicated that she liked me when I first joined (feb last year) and now things are kind of awkward. I never made any attempt at her due to just being scared I guess. Now fast forward nearly a year later and the things are improving like my confidence etc its hard to talk with her as shes just used to me saying "hello" and "goodbye" It's a shame because I really want to see her under the sheets someday but I guess I should just give it up




Either way here's to the subs which are still kicking ass! Another day is dawning


More to come

LM

If you give up its over!

Don't give up and keep fighting till the end till you die preferably or else settle for mediocre and shitty results in life while somebody else takes everything that you dreamed about.

You want that receptionist you figure out a way to get her then and don't doubt yourself man.

Just fucking go for it.

Everything that happens to you everyday is on you man.

Take responsibility and make it happen!

Go for it!

[Leo1990]

What was the business you wanted to start?

Have had similar passions for awhile.

[LiquidMind]

If you give up its over!

Don't give up and keep fighting till the end till you die preferably or else settle for mediocre and shitty results in life while somebody else takes everything that you dreamed about.

You want that receptionist you figure out a way to get her then and don't doubt yourself man.

Just ***** go for it.

Everything that happens to you everyday is on you man.

Take responsibility and make it happen!

Go for it!

Thanks dude I needed that

Sometimes you just get difficult days and no one can understand. I know pretty much everyone here on this forum can understand in some capacity and I am grateful for those people, yourself included.

I can't really tell my real life friends that I listen to the subs. I haven't even told my family. All I know is that I am happy I found them because I have seen significant results thus far and cannot wait until it is completed.

[LiquidMind]

What was the business you wanted to start?

Have had similar passions for awhile.

It was going to be a video gaming lounge that served alcoholic video gamed themed drinks.

Couldn't find a place to buy as everthing was either taken or expensive for us.

I refuse to accept my attempt at running a business as over though.
I just haven't got any ideas

LM

[LiquidMind]

I feel much better today. I don't know what happened yesterday just a bad day that can occur every so often. I'm thankful for them because it really does put things into perspective for you.


In any case I'm still racking my brain around what I can do going forward. Maybe not finding work is a good thing. Maybe the universe is sending me a sign - a good sign. One that I need to capitalise on?


I did think about doing web design but I cannot see it being profitable. Not when things like wordpress already exists. I need to think a little bit more technical maybe something like creating something new entirely

[iceman]

If you give up its over!

Don't give up and keep fighting till the end till you die preferably or else settle for mediocre and shitty results in life while somebody else takes everything that you dreamed about.

You want that receptionist you figure out a way to get her then and don't doubt yourself man.

Just ***** go for it.

Everything that happens to you everyday is on you man.

Take responsibility and make it happen!

Go for it!

I can't really tell my real life friends that I listen to the subs. I haven't even told my family. All I know is that I am happy I found them because I have seen significant results thus far and cannot wait until it is completed.

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do you feel its really important that you should tell them?

[Leo1990]

I feel much better today. I don't know what happened yesterday just a bad day that can occur every so often. I'm thankful for them because it really does put things into perspective for you.


In any case I'm still racking my brain around what I can do going forward. Maybe not finding work is a good thing. Maybe the universe is sending me a sign - a good sign. One that I need to capitalise on?


I did think about doing web design but I cannot see it being profitable. Not when things like wordpress already exists. I need to think a little bit more technical maybe something like creating something new entirely

Wordpress is still quite a bit technical. PHP helps alot (if you know it). I have been able to charge $50/hr.

[LiquidMind]

Wordpress is still quite a bit technical. PHP helps alot (if you know it). I have been able to charge $50/hr.

I'm thinking of learning on w3schools.com

It has all you need to learn: PHP, HTML, CSS, SQL, JavaQuery&Script.

Technology is the way forward for the future. I just heard news that my buddy who is a team leader at a well established supermarket franchise (tesco) and has been for nearly half a decade now, is going to have to either get a 6k paycut or be made redundant.

Seems like these typical jobs involving X to Y hours are going to eventually burn out. Technology grows and as a result people are needing to learn code and programming just to stay afloat.

Trouble is. I want the skills like NOW. Like I really just want to get another line of work ASAP or do something by myself.

The motivation is burning inside of me with help from none other than the AM6 subs.

LM

[LiquidMind]

I'm now feeling the motivation to start to kick in. Been seeing myself eat healthier and going swimming too. All starting to around to improving my life piece by piece.

Once I have cash saved and have moved out, then I will use my newly found and developed skills to focus on my own venture and start creating my own money making, femme fatale filled, excitingly epic empire.

Stage 2 is definitely going to help me accomplish this. God knows what is in stage 3?! A nuclear explosion of alphaness?

AM subs are life changing. Really happy so far!

On to the next day

[LiquidMind]

Since listening to stage 2 I've been able to pinpoint certain issues I have regarding my focus and concentration.

Firstly, you should know. My focus and concentration are awful. It takes me all day just to "wake up" and by that point its night time and I need to sleep again. It's very hard for me to get into things and dedicate my efforts 100%. However I've noticed that once I am in the zone, there is little I can't accomplish.

I've noticed I have been suffering from social anxiety and this is what is contributing to it. I don't just have it whilst out and about with new people. I also get it with my family. It's hard for me to be "me" around my parents partly because of my issues growing up in school with little to no help when I was bullied, manipulated etc

On the plus side however, I am making manual efforts to combat this. I noticed I am opening up around my family more and I am slowly becoming myself around people instead of just being quiet and not knowing what to say.

A new girl dealer started at my work too and we got along straight away which was a good indication of the subs at work. (by the way I work in a casino as a poker dealer, not selling drugs on the streets or anything...at least not during the day)

So overall I'm glad these subs are brining these things to light. It might have been a better idea to listen to the emotional past healing subs that are free but too late now. I will continue to battle anything that comes up as I stride towards my road to success!

[LiquidMind]

More and more days I find myself tired and uninterested in anything as a result. I hate not getting good sleeps. If I sleep for a 8-9+ hours I end up feeling groggy and tired as hell. I've gotten 4-5 hours sleep or less and I wake up feeling great. Wtf?

These subs make me more tired as they're supposed to work the brain even more but this is rediculous how much lack of energy or enthusiasm to do anything is. Apparently when we sleep more, the brain is used more to dream, and use REM and stuff like that. It ends up tiring itself out during sleep which is not very good for productive reasons. Some people get by with little sleep and I guess I am one of them. However with the subs its very hard to even wake up sometimes.

Anyone else here feeling tired from Subs?