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AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - LiquidMind - 12-11-2014
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Alpha male 6.0 Journey
My 6-7 month period is already underway so let me give you the firsts:
Dec 8th
ay 1 - I start it immediately and the first thing I feel is instant buzz. I feel good like the things inside of me begin to clear already. Not much happened throughout the day so no real results can be derived from the day. Dec 9th
ay 2 - I'm feeling it to begin to take effect a bit more. I'm not feeling the buzz as much as when it first began but it is definitely working away in the back ground. I am being very decisive lately, being able to make decisions quickly and instinctively. I am also building up my assertiveness which I always lacked growing up and until now. So far so good!Dec 10th: Day 3 - So last night was one of the days I work so I got to test out how I feel. I am a poker dealer so naturally I deal with various different people on a daily basis. I feel more sharper, more focused and more assertive. I can also feel less needy around women and the attractive waitresses there are of no concern to me anymore. I think they picked up on this because at some stage in the night one of them came to talk to me but I had better things to do.
Dec 11th: Day 4 - So far this is really good. I am still missing a few cues here and there where I could of stood up for myself and being more dominant but its early stages so far. Also I feel less need to talk - like I am more introverted but in a calm and focused way. Bullshit tolerance has also gone way down since this began- stupid people better stay outta my way!
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - Inconceivablezen - 12-11-2014
Good to see you here Liquid Mind!! Have a great journey!!
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - LiquidMind - 12-11-2014
Hey Inconceivable-zen! How goes your AM6 journey?
About to go to work tonight so gonna see how I handle myself in light of listening to AM 6 for 4 days
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - LiquidMind - 12-12-2014
Day 5 - Well last night went comfortably well. Had some signs of major respect from players in the casino. I felt...hmm..you could say..indifferent to the waitresses there. Normally I'd say Hi like a beta but this time I said nothing unless it was situational. One interesting thing that happened was a female croupier came into the break room and chose to sat next to me instead of all the wide open seats that were available. Seemed odd to me...but I digress, she could have just wanted to see the tv better or something, IDK
I feel like it is slowly beginning to change me for the better. I had just found out on the ride home that the taxi driver from the other night had overcharged me with inapplicable charge rates. I went mental. The taxi driver who told me was white english and explained that he would charge me the normal discounted price for staff at the casino.
If I ever find that other taxi driver, I'm going to introduce him to the gates of hell :exclamation:
Apart from that everything is going smoothly. I am getting more irritated by people behavior lately if it becomes annoying or just downright stupid. Like people who work in these recruitment agencies who tell me things like "We'll call you tomorrow" or "Yeah we'll be in touch!" and they never do. I feel like ringing them up and having a go at them. They all piss me off when they do that.
Well so far so good guys. Gonna listen to it more and get in at least 10 hours of listening per day, I will try stretch it to 12-14 hours depending on how busy I get.
Anyways
More to come!
LM
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - LiquidMind - 12-12-2014
Feeling extra horny lately as the subs have killed my need to fap or watch porn
This is all encouraging of course but I feel the need to watch some right now ahaa..
Day 6 - Better body language - LiquidMind - 12-13-2014
Noticed that today entailed a lot of decisive action and better overall body language.
I was woken up by my 2 mates asking me to go out with them for lunch. I told them no *note in the past I would accept due to feeling the need for companionship and just thinking I need to be around them to validate myself* Instead I decided to up and go to my gym instead to go swim.
My friend asked to come along but under his conditions (not spitefully or anything) but I said no "I'm going now so get into gear or ill just go without you"
I am to the point now I am almost gliding gracefully. My body language has always been semi-decent but now its evolved into "my territory bitch" esque-
I have also taken it upon myself to delete facebook. It serves me no purpose other than to spread bad news columns and general spam. Plus I hardly use it to begin with. I'm happy to leave it dry while I run AM 6 , if I meet some genuine new friends and people then I may re-open my facebook or make a new one but not right now. I am in refurbishment mode
Went and saw a movie with friends. They tried to get me to go eat with them in a certain restaurant but I declined because I don't like it and I wanted to save money. I met up with them later and we had fun. Watched the Hobbit the battle of the 5 armies.
So in short today has seen more improvement. I also noticed more glances by man and women alike. However I am merely reporting my experiences. I expect the latter stages to truely bring me to life!
More to come
LM
Day 7 - Counting sheep/Not so sweet dreams - LiquidMind - 12-14-2014
Phew woke up late today
Seems if I listen to the sub at night I feel proper exhausted come morning. I rolled over and went back to sleep.
Been having a lot more positive visualizations about the sub and I now see myself putting myself first over women. They fawn over me but I don't care
Also had a weird dream last night where my sister was being attacked by 2 girls with empty red buckets. I went in and grabbed them both and said "Come on then attack me!" and stood my ground. Then I took their red bucket and bashed them in the head lmao it was very weird but I see it as a positive none the less.
Might go round my mates later. Will report back from then as an edit -
Day 8 - Powering up - LiquidMind - 12-15-2014
Hey ladies and gents how are we?
Today I noticed some subtle changes like women checking me out more and me having more energy to get shit done and not procrastinate.
Today at the gym the receptionist who works there who was kind of taken with me when I first joined but I was too wimpy to act on it. I walk in like a breath of fresh air and she says hello and I beam a nice smile with a wink as I reciprocate the greeting. I see her subtly checking me out since then when I go swim (catching her glimpses and her trying to catch my attention etc)
Then at mcdonalds the indian chick behind counter greets me with a nice smile. I reciprocate and tell her my order without flinching. Nice~
Then some hobo comes to the front of the queue and asks how long his food will be to which she responded "when it gets cooked" and then we smiled at each other as we both shared the joke. Then when she brought my food over she was trying to catch glimpses of me ever so often. I've also noticed more people looking at me too.
This AM6 is great so far. If shannon is reading then I ask - Was stage 1 supposed to be so powerful? If not then what can be attributing these changes?
*EDIT - I also got compared to Arnold Schwarzenegger by my friends haha due to my changes no doubt*
Anyway more to come!
LM
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - adam225 - 12-16-2014
Nice results... how many hours per day are you currently listening for ?
RE: AM6 Journal - The beast awakens - LiquidMind - 12-16-2014
As of writing I am currently restricted to using my PC with headphones (which are meant to be ideal anyways) so I can only listen when Im in my room I'm currently not doing as many hours as I'd like (maybe say 8 per day) when I should be pushing for more.
Trouble is I'm trying to log more hours and have decided to do an extra day (33 instead of 32) come the end of the 1st stage just so I've caught up.
I'm trying for around 12 hours per day from now on. The main issue is that xmas is a busy period for anyone so it's tough to justify to people to stay in my room lol
Day 9 - Healthy options - LiquidMind - 12-16-2014
So day 9 of the Am subs and I can safely say a lot of improvements are being made. I am focusing on eating more healthy and last night went late night shopping at my local walmart for some healthy goods.
Got 2 types of tropicanna, some oranges, some cereal and some yoghurt.
I know this isn't supermarket sweep but I'm just reporting my findings on the subs so I can understand my changes in the long run as I barely even shop for myself as I still live at home.
Also went swimming again. This is like the 6th time in the space of a week that I've upped and gone swimming. I do about 30 lengths (15 laps) or so and then chill in the jacuzzi and then leave.
My main focus is a new career and to move out by next year. Women are at the bottom of my list and so far I think that has made them take notice of me more.
More to come tomorrow guys
LM
Day 10 - Offered drugs/ Logging in the hours - LiquidMind - 12-17-2014
So I had woken up from a dream not so long ago and in the dream it felt weird, felt like everything was misty and subfuscous. At one point a friend of mine and I were in the dream together and spotted what looked like a bar from afar but as we drew near it turned into a restaurant. We were seated against our will but my friend enjoyed free cake being passed around.
We were next to some couple and they offered me a drink of some mysterious wine. I drank it and said it was amazing. Then the woman said "well if you like that then wait till you try this" and proceeds to unveil a cloudy white bag of cocaine. It was even written on the front "white cocaine" - no points for being inconspicuous then!
She told me to try it and hid it in a sushi roll so I could not be seen eating it. I said to her "thanks but I don't do drugs, never have done drugs and never will" and gave it back to her. It felt real like I was really there watching this happen for real. These subs really are bringing out my full capacity it seems.
Some other vague things happened and then it ended and I woke up. For the record I never have done drugs ever and never plan to. I can imagine those words being exactly what I'd say if I were ever offered drugs. To this day I can't recall ever been offered any.
As well as the dream I logged 8 hours last night while continuing listening as I awoke.
Got work this evening so lets see what occurs there.
Subs doing weird stuff dream wise. I wonder if that all meant something about my subconscious lifting weights off itself from my past? Who knows
More to come!
LM
Day 11 - Horny days ahead - LiquidMind - 12-18-2014
I can feel the urge to fap growing on me like a garden weed that wont go away but I am standing my ground
The feeling for women has gone back up as a result but I'm still not paying them any of my attention unless they earn it.
I can't wait to hit stage 3 so the full alpha male development can process.
Getting more respect at work as a result of the subs and I am being more witty and funny. Also if any players are giving me shit then I confront them instantly like :exclamation:
How do you guys keep your fap monkey at bay?
LM
Day 12 - Positive charge - LiquidMind - 12-19-2014
Felt awesome last night when I returned from work!
I had a feeling that the world is great and full of good things including joy and happiness. No more dark thoughts for me
Visualized myself with multiple women. Laying in bed with a chick and then getting my phone blown up by many others calling me and texting haha this is the lifestyle I want!
I also chose not to go to my friends house that he invited me to earlier tonight. He usually invites us round and I heard him mention he now thinks he's a leader because we all go to his, pfft! He may be my bro and all but I can't tolerate attitudes like that. I mean ego is a terrible thing to have when it is inflated.
Aside from that just generally not taking much shit from anyone. My voice is getting deeper and I find it also a little more monotone but I'm sure that will even out once the latter stages kick in.
Peace
LM