Aventus's prelude to greatness (OGSF)

[Aventus45]

My mind is processing the sub to the point were I am bed ridden. Either it's not the subliminal or I'm processing really big stuff.

[RTBoss]

My mind is processing the sub to the point were I am bed ridden. Either it's not the subliminal or I'm processing really big stuff.

Geez. I thought this sub was supposed to be "gentle!" What are you feeling? Really tired? Anxiety? Just a down day?

[Nox]

My girl spent all last weekend in bed sleeping with EPRHA. Sometimes we seem to hit big bumps that take more resources. Keep resting dude!

[Aventus45]

My mind is processing the sub to the point were I am bed ridden. Either it's not the subliminal or I'm processing really big stuff.

Geez. I thought this sub was supposed to be "gentle!" What are you feeling? Really tired? Anxiety? Just a down day?

I got floored lol. It it takes alot more energy to start doing something when my body wants to sleep. So I went to sleep but I become more tired as I was sleeping. Brain is probably like Im sleeping so I should overclock and process as much as possible. Also could be because my muscles are a bit sore because I didnt foam roll.

[eternity]

My mind is processing the sub to the point were I am bed ridden. Either it's not the subliminal or I'm processing really big stuff.

Geez. I thought this sub was supposed to be "gentle!" What are you feeling? Really tired? Anxiety? Just a down day?

actually, it is pretty gentle, but as far as i know the most growth comes out of discomfort. So some level of uneasiness is required for the subs to work. I've been getting into bouts of social anxiety, and general fear lately, sometimes they last a couple hours. But I need to get into those states in order to learn how to state-shift out of those mental states.

It's gentle in the sense that it's not a crippling overwhelming discomfort that's aggressively brought about by the subliminal, so it can then process the discomfort.

[Aventus45]

Day 36
Last night I was dreaming about setting my standards after the fiasco with my ex-gf. Physical Intimacy and Trust are two big points. Today as I turned the sub on for a quick nap, It started addressing the trust or the fear of trusting people. In the end of it I woke up more tired and the best way to handle the fear is to just drop the people who take advantage of my trust.

[Aventus45]

Dreams
Zombies have some form of meaning of fear to me. I dont know what kind of fear it represents but I'm thinking it is the general feeling of fear. So the first dream I had is inspired by a game I was playing Dying light. Mix that with @8 days later and it is a frightening combination. I was basically forced to go back to a city and ran for my life as zombies sprinted and chased me down. Confronting fear and still running away from it?

Second dream was like a movie. I forsaw my own death and I can't stop it. Everything I did eventually led to the event. Helplessness?

In real Life.
The spring weather messed with my internal alarm clock or something. I missed my stop and This girl just smirked at me the entire time. Tried to hold it in the reactive feeling but it eventually seeped out anyway.

[Aventus45]

A friend asked me if i had enough money for some trip and i kept dodging it. I eventually gave her an half assed answer. Looks like i might have something regarding money. Money is a problem for sure though.

A classmate sat next to me. Totally normal usually but she just started firing off questions at me about my nationality such as where my parents came from etc. I couldnt look her in the eye when I was talking to her. Starting to see that pattern too.

[Aventus45]

Decided to forgive my Ex in my mind. Instant knife in the heart Chakra feeling.

[eternity]

Decided to forgive my Ex in my mind. Instant knife in the heart Chakra feeling.

ouch!!! but now that you made the decision, you can start healing

[Aventus45]

Day 40
Went to a social event and tried to immerse myself and It felt really awkward. When I am with my close buddies, I have a loud and great voice. For some reason, with new people, I don't have the same volume with new people. Like my voice turned down a couple of notches. Hopefully, Am6 fixes a lot of those issues and more. Not to say I am sitting around and hoping for the best but I'll continue to inject myself into social events.

[Breeze]

Day 40
Went to a social event and tried to immerse myself and It felt really awkward. When I am with my close buddies, I have a loud and great voice. For some reason, with new people, I don't have the same volume with new people. Like my voice turned down a couple of notches. Hopefully, Am6 fixes a lot of those issues and more. Not to say I am sitting around and hoping for the best but I'll continue to inject myself into social events.

If I were you, I wouldn't expect AM 6 to fix that. Now I am not saying that AM 6 can't, but when it comes to social situations, it is almost always some kind of fear. I am not you, but the main reason for your voice to be turned down when you meet new people could be that you build a wall around you, and therefore, be disinterested and discouraged to meet them. The thing with AM 6 is that you will go through patches where you will want to disconnect from the society and this will not help your social awkwardness much.

Just my 2 cents.

[Bliss]

Yeah Leo is right. You're probably conscious of it more so now that it's being worked on. Fear is elusive man... I know I definately have fears of being socially awkward, but I also have fears of being really confident and the life of the party. Total contradiction :p

[Breeze]

Day 40
Went to a social event and tried to immerse myself and It felt really awkward. When I am with my close buddies, I have a loud and great voice. For some reason, with new people, I don't have the same volume with new people. Like my voice turned down a couple of notches. Hopefully, Am6 fixes a lot of those issues and more. Not to say I am sitting around and hoping for the best but I'll continue to inject myself into social events.

If I were you, I wouldn't expect AM 6 to fix that. Now I am not saying that AM 6 can't, but when it comes to social situations, it is almost always some kind of fear. I am not you, but the main reason for your voice to be turned down when you meet new people could be that you build a wall around you, and therefore, be disinterested and discouraged to meet them. The thing with AM 6 is that you will go through patches where you will want to disconnect from the society and this will not help your social awkwardness much.

Just my 2 cents.

This answer makes me sad. Maybe I put too much expectation on subs. You would think the time money investment of AM6 it would fix everything. If socializing is a challenge then surely the seek the challenge would clear this up?
Maybe it needs socializing is a fun game added in to it? Im not talking about AM7 but an upgrade to AM6.

I, or anybody, cannot comment on an individual if his expectations will be fulfilled or not. It depends on many factors. And only you can know for sure. As far as socialization is concerned, yes, it did help me express myself, destroyed majority of the anxiety, but one thing it didn't do is make me connect to people. It didn't make me less defensive in my interactions. Maybe results are different for you. Maybe not.

The important thing is to not put all your eggs in one basket. Accept either possibility that it may or may not help you in this one particular area of life, and then proceed from there. You will save yourself a lot of disappointment and learn to take full responsibility for the results.