11-17-2015, 06:38 PM
Stage 4 day 26
I had to take an extra long walk today because I really wanted to narrow down why I feel down and out every 1 – 2 days of each weekly cycle.
When reflecting over my goals I feel happy, but it dawned on me that I am not treating each day and week as its own solid period of goal reflection.
I am literally shooting for the moon going into this biz trying to outplay 98% of my competitors. But my big picture goals appear to be too much of a stretch on my subconscious right now. That doesn’t mean that I should let them go - no, quite the opposite. I need to embrace them but in a slightly different way than I’m doing now.
Right now I am shifting my focus from big picture leader of the industry to daily and weekly improvements just because thinking months and months ahead (I was honestly even thinking 1+ year from now) probably brings me too much out of the present moment and out of touch with what’s going on right here, right now.
This might be a crude example, but it happened, so whatever. I was on the toilet for about 20 minutes without realizing it yesterday. It was nothing particularly special, but I was in a dreamlike state contemplating tweaks and changes I could make to my current projects so they would yield faster results.
So there I am hunched over staring up at the walls rubbing my chin etching out mental diagrams of what I need to do and how to execute everything properly.
That might seem comical, but that was serious brainstorming.
I *think* the reason for the low periods of my current cycles is largely due not having ‘Think Like a Millionaire’ fully assimilated yet, so thinking big is slowly sinking in, but not quite a permanent part of my subconscious reality yet. So there’s plenty of resistance there kicking up. Oh yes sir, that’s for sure.
Reorganizing my goals for step-by-step growth might seem like a huge step back in a way, but I think that’s how my ascent can be more smoothly made, rather than in huge discomfort based leaps and falls.
I had to take an extra long walk today because I really wanted to narrow down why I feel down and out every 1 – 2 days of each weekly cycle.
When reflecting over my goals I feel happy, but it dawned on me that I am not treating each day and week as its own solid period of goal reflection.
I am literally shooting for the moon going into this biz trying to outplay 98% of my competitors. But my big picture goals appear to be too much of a stretch on my subconscious right now. That doesn’t mean that I should let them go - no, quite the opposite. I need to embrace them but in a slightly different way than I’m doing now.
Right now I am shifting my focus from big picture leader of the industry to daily and weekly improvements just because thinking months and months ahead (I was honestly even thinking 1+ year from now) probably brings me too much out of the present moment and out of touch with what’s going on right here, right now.
This might be a crude example, but it happened, so whatever. I was on the toilet for about 20 minutes without realizing it yesterday. It was nothing particularly special, but I was in a dreamlike state contemplating tweaks and changes I could make to my current projects so they would yield faster results.
So there I am hunched over staring up at the walls rubbing my chin etching out mental diagrams of what I need to do and how to execute everything properly.
That might seem comical, but that was serious brainstorming.
I *think* the reason for the low periods of my current cycles is largely due not having ‘Think Like a Millionaire’ fully assimilated yet, so thinking big is slowly sinking in, but not quite a permanent part of my subconscious reality yet. So there’s plenty of resistance there kicking up. Oh yes sir, that’s for sure.
Reorganizing my goals for step-by-step growth might seem like a huge step back in a way, but I think that’s how my ascent can be more smoothly made, rather than in huge discomfort based leaps and falls.