A Better Alex, stage 2: ASC Journal

[apollolux]

I need to note here before I forget that, before Monday, I thought that as a nice bonus to increasing self-confidence that the existing claustrophobia I have was being reduced since I've become increasingly more comfortable with riding crowded trains recently.

On Monday, however, an elevator I was riding on campus decided to suddenly stutter, stop between floors, then dip to the below floor unexpectedly. Once the doors opened I got the hell out of there, freaked out a bit, and decided to take the stairs up the remaining floors.

For reference, I was trapped in an elevator for 45 minutes when I was 7 years old, surrounded by adults, mostly males, who I didn't know and I felt powerless and helpless the entire time. Being trapped in that elevator is the source of this claustrophobia I still have and it's very clear to me that it's not yet resolved.