08-23-2015, 01:31 PM
Stage 2 day 4
Currently going through a mini meat grinder of crap.
There have been several small delays in getting the actual funds into a usable account (none of which are related to my partner – he’s been very good so far).
Having gone out to eat twice since day 1 of stage 2 I had two orders served to be completely wrong about 3 times in a row each. That doesn’t happen to me. I’ve always wondered how it happens to others and now I realize the slightest change to what you say can alter the way others perceive you in huge magnitudes.
The second of those wrong orders pissed me off royally and I walked out of the restaurant after the 3rd wrong order redo (I am horribly irritable when I am hungry, and in that occasion I hadn’t eaten all day = horrible combination for the wait staff to deal with).
My computer now also has some random malware which prevents me from going to some of my favorite sites. I mention this because this isn’t trivial; I very rarely have computer problems so I know this is internal resistance kicking up.
I hope to God this all calms down sometime this week. I thought I was good with stage 1 but it appears that each new stage of these six stages will likely leave me dealing with resistance. With that in mind I had a horrible urge to jump to stage 7 and just stick with that forever because I’d rather deal with horrible resistance all at once (over a month or however long it takes to pass) rather than deal with it in chunks. Buuuut I know that’s not how it works so I’ll have to deal with the fact that each level will slap me around a bit and in this case I’m hoping it’s just a week or so worth like stage 1.
Aside from ALL of that though, everything seems in order lol
Currently going through a mini meat grinder of crap.
There have been several small delays in getting the actual funds into a usable account (none of which are related to my partner – he’s been very good so far).
Having gone out to eat twice since day 1 of stage 2 I had two orders served to be completely wrong about 3 times in a row each. That doesn’t happen to me. I’ve always wondered how it happens to others and now I realize the slightest change to what you say can alter the way others perceive you in huge magnitudes.
The second of those wrong orders pissed me off royally and I walked out of the restaurant after the 3rd wrong order redo (I am horribly irritable when I am hungry, and in that occasion I hadn’t eaten all day = horrible combination for the wait staff to deal with).
My computer now also has some random malware which prevents me from going to some of my favorite sites. I mention this because this isn’t trivial; I very rarely have computer problems so I know this is internal resistance kicking up.
I hope to God this all calms down sometime this week. I thought I was good with stage 1 but it appears that each new stage of these six stages will likely leave me dealing with resistance. With that in mind I had a horrible urge to jump to stage 7 and just stick with that forever because I’d rather deal with horrible resistance all at once (over a month or however long it takes to pass) rather than deal with it in chunks. Buuuut I know that’s not how it works so I’ll have to deal with the fact that each level will slap me around a bit and in this case I’m hoping it’s just a week or so worth like stage 1.
Aside from ALL of that though, everything seems in order lol
