03-10-2015, 05:06 AM
I have finished the sub a few days ago. https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1...edit#gid=0
It has been a very long journey, but I guess I'm glad that I didn't throw in the towel in the middle. Kind of feels like quite the accomplishment. I have somehow become a bit paranoid towards people since the last stage and people have even mentioned it. That is one of the reasons why I'm going to be running EPRHA for the next 3+ months instead of ASC.
After having compared my results to the sub's intended goals, I actually found that I have regressed in some of them compared to before and I'm not quite sure why. I might have been resisting the programming in some of my self destructive thinking. On some level I think I actually don't want to become better, but rather feel pity and like a victim. Makes me incredibly angry at myself and everyone. These seem the things that I feel should be focused first.
Starting EPRHA this weekend, 1 week after AM.
It has been a very long journey, but I guess I'm glad that I didn't throw in the towel in the middle. Kind of feels like quite the accomplishment. I have somehow become a bit paranoid towards people since the last stage and people have even mentioned it. That is one of the reasons why I'm going to be running EPRHA for the next 3+ months instead of ASC.
After having compared my results to the sub's intended goals, I actually found that I have regressed in some of them compared to before and I'm not quite sure why. I might have been resisting the programming in some of my self destructive thinking. On some level I think I actually don't want to become better, but rather feel pity and like a victim. Makes me incredibly angry at myself and everyone. These seem the things that I feel should be focused first.
Starting EPRHA this weekend, 1 week after AM.
