03-05-2015, 02:59 AM
..and those 2 girls already knew me well, so it'd make sense for them to remember it if they saw me in a dream. On the other hand, if a girl who doesn't know me dreamt of me, she'd probably not remember me because I was just some dude.. but she'd still recognize me on some level if she saw me in real life.
But yeah, dreams are interesting. As I was testing out a few different subs this week (when I couldn't make up my mind), something good came of it: I'm now pretty convinced that the subs work :) Every time I used a different sub for 1 day (sue me), I'd have a dream that night that was relevant to the subs I was running. I also noticed feeling different and looking at, and behaving with, people very differently.
^^So I'm glad about that. I'm trying to be grateful, but I do regret that I jumped on AM6 right from the start. I think its just such a massive and multi-faceted program that progress is very slow and even uncertain, depending on your starting point. For me, I didn't see results in many months which made me anxious and had me doubting hard about whether the subs work at all. I then started to learn about clearing and who knows what happened after. I think I would've been much better off if I had done a 3-6 month sprint of ASC or EPRHA first. I would've been convinced that the subs work for me, and (especially with ASC) I'd have had better leverage already so I'd probably have gotten more out of AM6. And getting more out of AM6 would've then lead to getting more out of SM3. SM3 works - I saw clear indications of it many times. It just wasn't consistent for me, which I think had a lot to do with that I should've worked on my confidence, outcome independence and self-validation more pre-SM3.
I'm speculating that, as various stuff has been added to AM across the versions, the program gets more and more divided in its focus and for every confidence-increasing suggestion you're getting more negative feelings than in previous versions, like not being happy about the way things are, OGSF and EPRHA digging all kinds of negative imagery from the past and imagination, then your angry if someone doesn't respect you, etc. I even remember reading a post in Shannon's journal from around the time he was creating AM6 where he said that there's going to be so much stuff in AM6 that maybe it'd be better if it was divided into 2 levels, or something like that. That's how I remember it anyway, it should be looked up. Was there something about AM5 being level 1 and AM6 level 2 or I dunno.
But anyway, I'm more positive about running AM6 again now that I know subs actually work for me. But I want to get my confidence to a consistently high level before that for 2 reasons:
1) If I belief I'm confident, then overcoming stuff should be easier
2) A confident man actively goes after what he wants and doesn't passively wait for the subs to do some magical manifestations or remove all fear or whatever before he can really commit
But yeah, dreams are interesting. As I was testing out a few different subs this week (when I couldn't make up my mind), something good came of it: I'm now pretty convinced that the subs work :) Every time I used a different sub for 1 day (sue me), I'd have a dream that night that was relevant to the subs I was running. I also noticed feeling different and looking at, and behaving with, people very differently.
^^So I'm glad about that. I'm trying to be grateful, but I do regret that I jumped on AM6 right from the start. I think its just such a massive and multi-faceted program that progress is very slow and even uncertain, depending on your starting point. For me, I didn't see results in many months which made me anxious and had me doubting hard about whether the subs work at all. I then started to learn about clearing and who knows what happened after. I think I would've been much better off if I had done a 3-6 month sprint of ASC or EPRHA first. I would've been convinced that the subs work for me, and (especially with ASC) I'd have had better leverage already so I'd probably have gotten more out of AM6. And getting more out of AM6 would've then lead to getting more out of SM3. SM3 works - I saw clear indications of it many times. It just wasn't consistent for me, which I think had a lot to do with that I should've worked on my confidence, outcome independence and self-validation more pre-SM3.
I'm speculating that, as various stuff has been added to AM across the versions, the program gets more and more divided in its focus and for every confidence-increasing suggestion you're getting more negative feelings than in previous versions, like not being happy about the way things are, OGSF and EPRHA digging all kinds of negative imagery from the past and imagination, then your angry if someone doesn't respect you, etc. I even remember reading a post in Shannon's journal from around the time he was creating AM6 where he said that there's going to be so much stuff in AM6 that maybe it'd be better if it was divided into 2 levels, or something like that. That's how I remember it anyway, it should be looked up. Was there something about AM5 being level 1 and AM6 level 2 or I dunno.
But anyway, I'm more positive about running AM6 again now that I know subs actually work for me. But I want to get my confidence to a consistently high level before that for 2 reasons:
1) If I belief I'm confident, then overcoming stuff should be easier
2) A confident man actively goes after what he wants and doesn't passively wait for the subs to do some magical manifestations or remove all fear or whatever before he can really commit
Thoughts, opinions and beliefs subject to change without prior notice.
