I decide to open a journal. In the end of 3rd run, I found out the speaker is broken, so I re run.
Currently on day 21 stage 1. This time stage 1 has much effect than the previous runs.
Today is my mom's birthday. I came late. I tent to avoid this kind of party from childhood, I don't like that environment, it's superficial, I don't feel any value. Men just drink beer, bragging, talk about politics, telling the same but not fun story,... I hate that but always keep silence. Today, when I come in, my father told me drink with mom and say something, I feel unreal, like I'm acting it for other's fun, so I did'nt say anything. it made the room awkward, I went back home. Think back about my mom, today is her day not someone else's day, I need to do sth for her, and I came back with a bunch of flowers. I'm proud that I did it, my mother seems very happy, and I can see my relatives look at me differently, strange, surprised eyes. It's new and I'm unfamiliar, in the positive way.
Currently on day 21 stage 1. This time stage 1 has much effect than the previous runs.
Today is my mom's birthday. I came late. I tent to avoid this kind of party from childhood, I don't like that environment, it's superficial, I don't feel any value. Men just drink beer, bragging, talk about politics, telling the same but not fun story,... I hate that but always keep silence. Today, when I come in, my father told me drink with mom and say something, I feel unreal, like I'm acting it for other's fun, so I did'nt say anything. it made the room awkward, I went back home. Think back about my mom, today is her day not someone else's day, I need to do sth for her, and I came back with a bunch of flowers. I'm proud that I did it, my mother seems very happy, and I can see my relatives look at me differently, strange, surprised eyes. It's new and I'm unfamiliar, in the positive way.