03-02-2015, 10:47 AM
Stage 1 Day 23
Well I'm feeling a lot better now but still having a few pangs although less intense. My use of the word heartbroken accurately describes the feeling. I have had terrible heart break in my past with one or two women and it's a sickly feeling similar to bereavement but also with an unhealthy dose of obsession thrown in. Some of you may have thought I am in love with my favorite secretary (who I've mentioned more than a few times!). Well I'm not but I am very sexually attracted to her, and part of my hopes for this sub is/was to have her as a FWB. It's strange though that before leaving my old place, and before that, while I was looking for other jobs, I didn't give a thought about not seeing her again even though I had started WM just 2 weeks before leaving. This why these subs piss me off sometimes because they just bring up formerly unconscious feelings or feelings that have been suppressed deep down for a long time that then slap you about.
The feeling is made worse because my sex drive is through the roof and nofap is just not going to happen!?!
The way I'm getting through these agonies is remaining positive and believing that the sub will deliver the goods (geeky secretaries or otherwise
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BTW I had a really dirty dream last night. This is significant because the last time I had an erotic dream must have been 20 years ago
Well I'm feeling a lot better now but still having a few pangs although less intense. My use of the word heartbroken accurately describes the feeling. I have had terrible heart break in my past with one or two women and it's a sickly feeling similar to bereavement but also with an unhealthy dose of obsession thrown in. Some of you may have thought I am in love with my favorite secretary (who I've mentioned more than a few times!). Well I'm not but I am very sexually attracted to her, and part of my hopes for this sub is/was to have her as a FWB. It's strange though that before leaving my old place, and before that, while I was looking for other jobs, I didn't give a thought about not seeing her again even though I had started WM just 2 weeks before leaving. This why these subs piss me off sometimes because they just bring up formerly unconscious feelings or feelings that have been suppressed deep down for a long time that then slap you about.
The feeling is made worse because my sex drive is through the roof and nofap is just not going to happen!?!
The way I'm getting through these agonies is remaining positive and believing that the sub will deliver the goods (geeky secretaries or otherwise
)BTW I had a really dirty dream last night. This is significant because the last time I had an erotic dream must have been 20 years ago
