All that is gold does not glitter... yet! - Mateunio's Alpha Male 6 journal

[Mystic Pymp]

Stage 3 Day 14

I'm posting quite often here now. It's a good thing, having something to write means I'm doing progress! I'm feeling better now (not phenomenal, but well enough) and House of Cards provides great distraction from thinking too much.

I had the strangest dream tonight. There was this book "The Spain Door" (even in dream I knew something's wrong with this title's grammar) and while reading it I was transformed into its main character having some adventures inside bizarre mansion. Inside the book was something I can only compare to "The Twilight Zone" in terms of strangeness. I don't remember many details, but I remember living armors, brilliant colors (in one moment everything was purple and while), traps and rooms with buttons. There were 2 children and a woman with me, she had to sacrifice herself after I pushed wrong button so that I and kids could escape. I write about this because I never have dreams like that, some of them are very imaginative but not like that. I terms of my games-dreams connection the only game that came into my mind (and during the dream mind you!) was Dark Souls.

I got automatic message on Facebook from my sweetheart today to like her new blog. It was first kind of any contact with her since over a year now. The worst thing is that now I'm making a big deal about it, even though what she probably did was she sent invitation to all her Facebook friends. Anyhow one year of pretending she doesn't exist or that at least all my issues with her are just in my head are over.

I think I gonna deal with it though, before AM6 simple sight of her profile picture would give me little heart attack and ruin my entire day, now I just worry all emotional drama will return as hope I one killed might come back. And I'm sure it won't, I have no intention of letting that happen.