02-27-2015, 06:43 AM
Stage 3 Day 12
Not feel much like writing. I hold on though. My reaction to this stage had been quite polar so far: sometimes I feel like master of puppets controlling my surroundings with nothing but my awesomeness, other times I feel threatened and shy. And I feel second one way more than I'm comfortable with.
I've read Natious' new journal entries and I fear I will have similar things to say at the end of my journey. I'm not really sure what should I expect at this stage yet, but many people have awesome results and mine are, well, weak. There are some things that make me believe AM works, but it simply cannot break through all my shit. Re-run seems to be immanent which is bad news for me - I was considering it as a refinement to put a cherry atop the cake, not as necessary step in the process.
Not feel much like writing. I hold on though. My reaction to this stage had been quite polar so far: sometimes I feel like master of puppets controlling my surroundings with nothing but my awesomeness, other times I feel threatened and shy. And I feel second one way more than I'm comfortable with.
I've read Natious' new journal entries and I fear I will have similar things to say at the end of my journey. I'm not really sure what should I expect at this stage yet, but many people have awesome results and mine are, well, weak. There are some things that make me believe AM works, but it simply cannot break through all my shit. Re-run seems to be immanent which is bad news for me - I was considering it as a refinement to put a cherry atop the cake, not as necessary step in the process.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4