01-11-2015, 07:36 AM
Stage 5 Day 10: Today feels quite good so I'm going to try and write a few things.
The first week on this stage was quite tiring since I've been using the sub at a 16h average listening time, but now I have gotten used to it. There have been a few realizations that have helped me figure out what sub I'll use next if not a rerun. One of them is that although I have worked on positive thinking and actually thinking I'm a positive thinker I have recently realized that it is rather the opposite. I would often talk as a positive thinker and might even come off as one, but my head is filled with negative thoughts. There has been some big conflict between how I think/feel and how I act in the past. My posts have come off quite negative recently and I would feel in conflict if I tried to sugar coat them, but I think I see what AM has been doing with that. It's not that I have become more negative, it's that the mask is coming off so some real progress can be made.
The other realisation is well, basically the same but how it has affected me accomplishing anything or following through. Over time I've kind of stopped even trying since there has always been something on the way. In short, the self sabotage thinking takes over as soon as things get a little uncomfortable.
Now I'm thinking of focusing more accurately on that specific area before rerunning AM again. My options so far are either Remove Negativity Within, Positive Thinking & Positive Attitude, Winner's Mindset, Ultra Success or a more general LTU.
The first week on this stage was quite tiring since I've been using the sub at a 16h average listening time, but now I have gotten used to it. There have been a few realizations that have helped me figure out what sub I'll use next if not a rerun. One of them is that although I have worked on positive thinking and actually thinking I'm a positive thinker I have recently realized that it is rather the opposite. I would often talk as a positive thinker and might even come off as one, but my head is filled with negative thoughts. There has been some big conflict between how I think/feel and how I act in the past. My posts have come off quite negative recently and I would feel in conflict if I tried to sugar coat them, but I think I see what AM has been doing with that. It's not that I have become more negative, it's that the mask is coming off so some real progress can be made.
The other realisation is well, basically the same but how it has affected me accomplishing anything or following through. Over time I've kind of stopped even trying since there has always been something on the way. In short, the self sabotage thinking takes over as soon as things get a little uncomfortable.
Now I'm thinking of focusing more accurately on that specific area before rerunning AM again. My options so far are either Remove Negativity Within, Positive Thinking & Positive Attitude, Winner's Mindset, Ultra Success or a more general LTU.
INFP-T
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
"If you dont work on shedding your emotional and spiritual baggage and egoic nature, then you are still a dead weight in society.. offering nothing.." - Anonymous
