12-24-2014, 05:46 AM
Stage 1 Day 12
I've lost one day of listening due to fun interactions with cousin, but I don't think I'll extend this stage because of it. I'm getting way more exposure now than I will later on, so it should even out nicely.
I feel terrible. I don't know what in AM does this (improved ERPHA maybe?), but it really punishes me. I really miss optimism brought by LTU - it's still there but in the background, hidden in the shadows while before it was in the spotlight. It might be my autumn blues coming a bit late. Anyhow I feel like everything is void, stupid and pointless. Like completely, not even empty but empty of empty. It's sad feeling, leaves you powerless and makes any action you make non consequential. Oblivion is what it is. It's bad feeling, feeling I don't wanna feel. I must get to work, do something, occupy myself. But excuses arrive one after another and my will is to weak, so weak. I want to order my life, rebuild it from ground up, but I cannot lay foundations good enough to hold the new. So I'm left with improving, renovating and sorting. Slowly. With void all around me.
I have two questions to Shannon but if that was discussed already somewhere (which I'm sure it was) please let me know.
1) How much time must pass between two runs of AM6? Can this gap be filled with 4G product?
2) Are there any approved affirmations for AM6? While doing LTU it really helped me out to read as affirmations whatever of the script was published. Is there some part of AM6 published like that?
I've lost one day of listening due to fun interactions with cousin, but I don't think I'll extend this stage because of it. I'm getting way more exposure now than I will later on, so it should even out nicely.
I feel terrible. I don't know what in AM does this (improved ERPHA maybe?), but it really punishes me. I really miss optimism brought by LTU - it's still there but in the background, hidden in the shadows while before it was in the spotlight. It might be my autumn blues coming a bit late. Anyhow I feel like everything is void, stupid and pointless. Like completely, not even empty but empty of empty. It's sad feeling, leaves you powerless and makes any action you make non consequential. Oblivion is what it is. It's bad feeling, feeling I don't wanna feel. I must get to work, do something, occupy myself. But excuses arrive one after another and my will is to weak, so weak. I want to order my life, rebuild it from ground up, but I cannot lay foundations good enough to hold the new. So I'm left with improving, renovating and sorting. Slowly. With void all around me.
I have two questions to Shannon but if that was discussed already somewhere (which I'm sure it was) please let me know.
1) How much time must pass between two runs of AM6? Can this gap be filled with 4G product?
2) Are there any approved affirmations for AM6? While doing LTU it really helped me out to read as affirmations whatever of the script was published. Is there some part of AM6 published like that?
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
