12-13-2014, 03:02 PM
Stage 1 Day 1
Sometimes the hardest part of the adventure is beginning of it. I don't know how it will be here, but so far it's been quite hard. I feel exhausted mentally, unable to do anything useful and almost paralyzed with resistance. It was surprising for me because I didn't experience resistance with LTU for a couple of weeks and I thought transition from LTU to AM will be more or less easy. It isn't :/ AM seems strange. Maybe not unpleasant, but it's like a noise that makes it hard to concentrate. After 3 months LTU became familiar with me, soothing and almost pleasant. It almost makes me want to go back to LTU, but I don't think it would be good decision. I'll stick to this for at least a week, if sub will still fatigue me then I'll think of something.
Sometimes the hardest part of the adventure is beginning of it. I don't know how it will be here, but so far it's been quite hard. I feel exhausted mentally, unable to do anything useful and almost paralyzed with resistance. It was surprising for me because I didn't experience resistance with LTU for a couple of weeks and I thought transition from LTU to AM will be more or less easy. It isn't :/ AM seems strange. Maybe not unpleasant, but it's like a noise that makes it hard to concentrate. After 3 months LTU became familiar with me, soothing and almost pleasant. It almost makes me want to go back to LTU, but I don't think it would be good decision. I'll stick to this for at least a week, if sub will still fatigue me then I'll think of something.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
