Stage 3, Day 26. Drunk times. I was just on a Tinder date, which went horribly, lol. The girl was visiting with her friend from out of town and was really exited at first, but she was a bit drunk and for whatever reason she couldn't understand what I was saying... she said I should speak slower, but everyone else understood me quite well, so... lol. Anyway, she went away and avoided me, so I got to talking with her friend and the guy she was on a date with and they were really cool (and more sober). The guy actually said that we should definitely "get drunk sometime", but I passed b/c I'm not too much into getting drunk anymore. Went to a club afterwards and met some friends.. had a lot of fun and fondled a pair of breasts.. one really really good connection, but I lost her in the traffic eventually. Drank too much, because I thought "fuck it" after the date. Maybe 5 or 6 beers. What's noteworthy about the night is that overall I got along really well with random people and it was fun overall. Now to sleep this off and I'll be out again tomorrow. This drinking thing sucks, but I managed to justify it to myself again with the date and going out alone and whatever excuses. Well no matter, there's always time for progress.
Doing lots of lost of hours of SM3 at the moment. Not getting tired at all and feeling pretty good. I bought Blackdragons book like everyone else and it seems really good so far. It always annoys me a bit when someone points out that I'm not really taking responsibility in the money department, but I feel like I should get this women thing handled before I really start breaking my career apart.. I am planning and doing some changes, but I could do more. I just feel like that would take all my time, so I couldn't focus on other stuff.
Also, I've noticed that I've taken a more "screening" mentality in the last month or so. I only realized it when I looked into Good looking loser. How this manifests is I care less about rejection, because "she just didn't want what I wanted tonight" and also in that even if it seems that a girl likes me and we get along fairly well, I tend to push to find out if she's actually interested and open to anything happening or not. It used to be that I was good with a girl just liking me and eventually being unavailable for anything sexual. So that's good, more internally validated.
Gonna play some Dragon age tomorrow, I'm hearing its good :) Loved DA1, but got bored with DA2 pretty soon.
Doing lots of lost of hours of SM3 at the moment. Not getting tired at all and feeling pretty good. I bought Blackdragons book like everyone else and it seems really good so far. It always annoys me a bit when someone points out that I'm not really taking responsibility in the money department, but I feel like I should get this women thing handled before I really start breaking my career apart.. I am planning and doing some changes, but I could do more. I just feel like that would take all my time, so I couldn't focus on other stuff.
Also, I've noticed that I've taken a more "screening" mentality in the last month or so. I only realized it when I looked into Good looking loser. How this manifests is I care less about rejection, because "she just didn't want what I wanted tonight" and also in that even if it seems that a girl likes me and we get along fairly well, I tend to push to find out if she's actually interested and open to anything happening or not. It used to be that I was good with a girl just liking me and eventually being unavailable for anything sexual. So that's good, more internally validated.
Gonna play some Dragon age tomorrow, I'm hearing its good :) Loved DA1, but got bored with DA2 pretty soon.
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