11-10-2014, 11:38 AM
Stage 4 day 12
My sex drive is generally higher and I have confidence, coolness and no negativity about myself, no porn, no fap (no problem!).
I've come to see that my current home environment is very restrictive and I need to move out to experience life more. I have lived in the same area all my life but I saw it for what it was just last week in that it's full of people who irritate and depress me. Most of the men are lazy and the women no better than tramps. There are some nice ones around but too few for my liking. WM is going to struggle for me here I'm sure. My only escape is that I work in the city so I should stand a chance of some women at least
I am also looking at ways to increase my finances and have opened up a couple of long term savings plans for starters but also looking at ways to earn money off the internet. I had some success with affiliate schemes in the early days but it's a completely different ball game now.
I have noticed that people are very friendly towards me and keep going to do the touch thing then
pulling back. Some people also seem slightly fearful of me which is strange because even now I'm always pleasant to people.
Some resistance coming through as sudden nerves and periods of heaviness in my
chest and stomach (similar to overeating) but these don't last long. However I freaked out when I read somewhere that my speakers were only up to 18Khz and my mind really played on it like I've wasted my time and it's all been a huge placebo!
The speakers in question are Logitech z200 that logitech quote as 80-20khz so
i'm guessing the error was a misprint. They pass the speaker test and are silent when playing subs but it really depressed me. Even now I'm toying with the idea of getting higher frequency speakers..any suggestions??
Going back to what I said earlier about my living environment being small and full of people I don't particularly like, has led to me considering the MYPSL 5G as I would love to have someone that's perfect for me and I can trust. My standards are very high with women now so really an AYP sub is looking more sensible than WM after AM. But of course AYP's are however long they take but WM is 6 months..what do I do??
My sex drive is generally higher and I have confidence, coolness and no negativity about myself, no porn, no fap (no problem!).
I've come to see that my current home environment is very restrictive and I need to move out to experience life more. I have lived in the same area all my life but I saw it for what it was just last week in that it's full of people who irritate and depress me. Most of the men are lazy and the women no better than tramps. There are some nice ones around but too few for my liking. WM is going to struggle for me here I'm sure. My only escape is that I work in the city so I should stand a chance of some women at least
I am also looking at ways to increase my finances and have opened up a couple of long term savings plans for starters but also looking at ways to earn money off the internet. I had some success with affiliate schemes in the early days but it's a completely different ball game now.
I have noticed that people are very friendly towards me and keep going to do the touch thing then
pulling back. Some people also seem slightly fearful of me which is strange because even now I'm always pleasant to people.
Some resistance coming through as sudden nerves and periods of heaviness in my
chest and stomach (similar to overeating) but these don't last long. However I freaked out when I read somewhere that my speakers were only up to 18Khz and my mind really played on it like I've wasted my time and it's all been a huge placebo!
The speakers in question are Logitech z200 that logitech quote as 80-20khz so
i'm guessing the error was a misprint. They pass the speaker test and are silent when playing subs but it really depressed me. Even now I'm toying with the idea of getting higher frequency speakers..any suggestions??
Going back to what I said earlier about my living environment being small and full of people I don't particularly like, has led to me considering the MYPSL 5G as I would love to have someone that's perfect for me and I can trust. My standards are very high with women now so really an AYP sub is looking more sensible than WM after AM. But of course AYP's are however long they take but WM is 6 months..what do I do??
