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Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal [FINISHED] - Ricardo - 07-12-2014
Starting Jul 26...
I will give some background and my aims / hopes for this sub then report progress as new things develop for me.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 07-31-2014
On Saturday (26th) I started the iconic Alpha Male 6 program. The sub that's designed to turn us old betas into titans of success. Is it the greatest thing since sliced bread or merely a short term placebo thriving on mental masturbation? Lets find out!
Now where am I starting from??
What's my background?
I'm late 40's naturally a quiet type (often remarked upon by people i meet). More often than not i have to repeat everything i say a second time because i am softly spoken. I can't maintain eye contact even with people i know well and usually acknowledge them without looking at them if i pass them by. I am also a very jealous person and sometimes feel quite bitter about people I see (worse if I know them) having what I want. Physically I'm reasonably tall, slim but building muscle and not bad looking. My relationships with women haven't been so good. It's because i'm naturally shy and prefer the quiet life. Ironically i did meet a woman with all my traits and she was cute to boot, but i found her dull and clingy so I dropped her. Have been relationship free for a couple of years partly through laziness and partly because i prefer women in their late 20's early 30's, not the 50+ brigade that haunt my every dating attempt, online, and clubs for my 'age group':@
My aims: obviously to change my background (duh) but also because if this works it will provide a better foundation for the other subs i plan on using. I have confidence and jealousy issues for sure and a fear of rejection so i really need to sort those before concentrating on attracting women
Listening method: 5 hours a night ultrasonic and 6 during the day masked and ultrasonic. Possibly 16 hours at weekends
For interest: Future subs I plan to use:
WM2
AYPSL 5G
IYSD..Perk the old Captain up a bit
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - AlphaMind - 07-31-2014
So that is your real picture Ric? You look badass!
When this done, you might even be a 18 years old men again. In sex life of course
Hahaaahahaahha
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-01-2014
No it's not my real picture. It's Wilfred Brambell from Steptoe and Son, an old comedy here in UK. I like his dirty old man look.
Will update on the sub tomorrow..stay tooooned
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-02-2014
Stage 1 day 8
I've noticed that I'm calmer than usual and can snap out of any anguish I feel coming on. I feel happier and more reassured within myself than I used to be and I'm starting to take more notice of people as individuals and realising that they're no better or special than me which has given me confidence to continue conversing with them instead of going strictly with whatever I was asked. My expression is more relaxed and I've found myself smiling for no real reason.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-06-2014
Stage 1 day 12
Although I've been doing modest muscle building exercises I have now developed a huge enthusiasm to push harder and have doubled my usual routine in the last few days.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-09-2014
Stage 1 Day 15
This stage is definitely clearing out all the negativity that I've suffered with for years. I'm much happier and comfortable within my skin and I've little to no anger or jealousy issues in the way I used to. Any that do come about don't last long. My enthusiasm for working out is still high and despite suddenly doubling my normal workout my body seems to thrive on it. In fact it gives me a high as I do that extra time!
I've also begun feeling unhappy in my current employment as I feel I'm worth so much more than I'm given credit for. I also have moments when I'm thinking "It can't be as easy as just listening to running water for FFS!" and "If I told people what I was doing and why, they might put me in a nut house!" Thoughts like this are only brief but the employment nark is an issue
I've noticed that at work I'm telling people more what I'm going to do rather than what they want me to do. I've even started delegating work which I was always afraid of doing in case it upset people. I am also communicating more clearly than my previous mumbles.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-12-2014
Stage 1 Day 18
Have been feeling very tired these last few days and having negative thoughts about subs in general. I sometimes wonder if i'm receiving the effects of the sub to begin with. I always make sure the silent track is actually coming out of the speakers by periodically checking the output with the FrequenSee ap, which it does. I also do 4 hours headphones/trickling stream during the day.
I'm also concerned about my prospects for WM2 since it contains the phrase 'Beautiful Single Women" in a lot of the sales bumph. The problem is that any beautiful women i see don't tend to be single, ie engagement or wedding rings, or chatter with their friends about boyfriends. Therefore I may become a woman magnet but with no women to attract!!
I'm sure it's just sub resistance and I fully intend to finish the ones I plan on but these doubts bug me sometimes,
Incidentally I have started looking at women I previously thought nothing of as they suddenly look sexually appealing..It's all getting a bit bizarre here! I am also arranging to go to a few places I made clear to everyone I hated (clubs) because I have a huge desire to people watch and socialise. This is still only stage 1 and I'm wondering if i can survive the next 5!
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - IceAlive - 08-13-2014
(08-12-2014, 10:14 AM)Ricardo Wrote: Have been feeling very tired these last few days and having negative thoughts about subs in general. I sometimes wonder if i'm receiving the effects of the sub to begin with. I always make sure the silent track is actually coming out of the speakers by periodically checking the output with the FrequenSee ap, which it does. I also do 4 hours headphones/trickling stream during the day.
Well, you wouldn't be tired if your unconscious mind weren't processing something, so it sounds like you are receiving something. I felt tiredness too, but only starting stage 2.
(08-12-2014, 10:14 AM)Ricardo Wrote: I'm also concerned about my prospects for WM2 since it contains the phrase 'Beautiful Single Women" in a lot of the sales bumph. The problem is that any beautiful women i see don't tend to be single, ie engagement or wedding rings, or chatter with their friends about boyfriends. Therefore I may become a woman magnet but with no women to attract!!
Oooohh... you'll be fine
. It's okay to allow these thoughts of yours to cycle up while they still can until you realize they have already begun to morph into the opposite of what you had been experiencing. It's kind of like when you learn how to drive - before that a street looks in a way, and after that on the same street there suddenly appear street signs that make sense out of a sudden. Your belief system will be radically debugged and enhanced while following AM6.I'm not saying you'll highly probably start noticing more single pretty girls or that you'll find yourself being approached by some. I'm not saying anything
. I'm just wondering how intense your rush of bliss will be when you realize in the future that having changed your perspective over the world, as you have, opened doors you hadn't known of before.(08-12-2014, 10:14 AM)Ricardo Wrote: I'm sure it's just sub resistance and I fully intend to finish the ones I plan on but these doubts bug me sometimes,
Incidentally I have started looking at women I previously thought nothing of as they suddenly look sexually appealing..It's all getting a bit bizarre here! I am also arranging to go to a few places I made clear to everyone I hated (clubs) because I have a huge desire to people watch and socialise. This is still only stage 1 and I'm wondering if i can survive the next 5!
Finding more beauty, despite it having been right in front of my eyes all the time, is something I experienced too. I think that if you continue you'll benefit tremendously, cheer up
!
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-13-2014
Thanks Ice for helping put my mind at rest. You are right but the suddenly finding previous women sexy when before i had no feelings is a bit freaky. I'm definitely very tired after listening to subs but i do recover during the day when i'm at work and can't listen to them. My initial feelings in my earlier entries are still very much part of me, so even stage 1 is having a profound effect on me by hosing down all that mental diarrhoea i carry around!
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-15-2014
Stage 1 Day 21.. Quick update..
My favourite foods, chocolate and biscuits are losing their appeal and making my stomach knot up when i think about them. I can only eat small amounts of them now otherwise i just feel bloated and nauseous. Other foods are fine.
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - adam225 - 08-15-2014
Wow, I went off junk food as well whilst doing stage 1. It just doesn't appeal to me anymore. I use to love a few chocolate biscuits after my lunch and tea but I've completely lost interest in them. It's like a "what's the point..." attitude.
I don't get knotting up in my stomach though.... but then again we're all effected differently...
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-18-2014
Stage 1 Day 24
The last couple of days I seemed to develop a manic desire for women and found even the plainest ones really sexy and staring myself into their bodies almost. Suddenly its gone and I'm completely indifferent about them now. Sex drive seems to have gone off too as does porn.
On Saturday i went to this shitty nightclub near where I live with a mate of mine. Usually I'm really nervous and self conscious at these places but I was completely cool with it and totally unfazed. Received some death eye contact with one bloke standing near where i was sitting. I didn't know him or have any interaction with him he just gave me this killer stare. I did look away first but not down like i would have done before (even a goldfish could stare be down before!)I sensed real danger in attempting a face-off with him.
Still feeling great and happy in my skin. Not so hung up about age differences either. Bought some new clothes and designer smellies and bathing more.
I'm also enjoying the books recommended for AM6. I have learned a lot about women and tried connecting emotionally with a young girl where i work who previously ignored me. Suddenly i couldn't stop her talking and now its "hi Ricardo" everyday!
RE: Ricardo's - AM 6 Journal - Ricardo - 08-26-2014
Ok Stage 1 wrap-up (day 32)
I have become more outspoken and blurted out comments at work I never would have made before. This caused some stifled laughter and wide eye moments but I was agreed with. I've also started building conversations and returning questions, joking with people more, in short being a conversationalist. I am also enjoying chatting to women, not with expectations of dating or shagging but just to get used to conversing with them. It's something I've never really done even in previous relationships which would often be full of awkward silences.
I have also had some blokes giving me the evils again since the club incident. It's like they hate me even though I've never met or had interaction with any of them..weird. Conversely I've noticed a fair few cute women suddenly look away when i've caught them staring at me.
So to summarise stage 1...The effects on me so far are:-
1. Jealousy, insecurity and despondency all now virtually gone (still have the odd relapse but it doesn't stay long. I did have an annoying thought that kept coming up and that was that this was "stage 0"??!! just thought i'd mention it.
2 Big increase in desire for self improvement, clothes, smellies, more showers. Big increase in my daily workout. Junk food intake much reduced ~75% and drinking more fluids, green tea and decaff coffee
3 Can maintain eye contact and have become more sociable and much more assertive. I do get pissed at people having stupid or pointless ideas that affect me or people that don't make effort or are clumsy and although i can tame it i have blurted out opinions i would never have said before. Confidence levels are also much higher.
4 Very positive outlook on life and more appreciation of things generally. Much happier about myself, not the dispondent "life's passing me by and I'm too old to change" attitude
5. Neediness with women much lower. Although i still want the whole female thing it's not a driving force as i can see that there will always be plenty more women around.
6. Urge to fap almost gone,I feel i'm letting myself down if i do it and i'd much rather save it for a beautiful women. I'm enjoying just feeling sexy for a change and my body likes this energy source as i am much more energised and productive
7. Some men give me really threatening stares which i just don't get! A few Women have been staring at me then quickly look away if i catch them.
8. I have developed more appreciation of women in general and not just 'hot babes' But I also feel that a fairly regular turnaround of them in my life is necessary to avoid sameness and boredom. I don't feel at all happy with the idea of the one woman concept and monogomy. Life is about variety and this should be experienced. I'm not talking about being unfaithful to a woman but one relationship at a time
9. I've also lost that tired feeling listening to these subs. Perhaps it's the nofap thing or I'm just getting used to them.
10 The last few days I've gone from feeling great to my previously miserable self and back to feeling great. Saturday was a prime example as i felt miserable and really believed i was wasting my time doing this whole sub thing. I didn't want to do anything let alone socialise and yet Sunday I was strutting around like a celebrity! They are fairly rapid mood swings but i feel alright now and have developed a coolness about me like, "hey check this dude out!"
I can definitely say that stage 1 is a clear out stage. I feel so much better than i did 32 days ago and much happier and positive than i have been in many years
I must admit i didn't think stage 1 would be very noticeable but it really kicked me into touch and gave a me a good shakedown. A prodigious boot camp for the mind! I'm very excited but a bit nervous of what the next 5 stages have in store..Stage 2 starts tomorrow