LionKing's Mating Season (SM3)

[LionKing]

Oh shit, that sounds rough. Maybe move? lol

I'm thinking about it.. jobs are just really hard to come by atm, same with apartments. You'd think moving to a bigger city would help, but in this case it wouldn't. I'm weighing some options for my work & career right now anyways, just seems I don't have enough information. I'll have to talk with some people and get their opinions.
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Stage 3, 15 minutes in. "Stage 3 takes the self improvement and foundation building to it’s logical limit and conclusion." :)

HERE is the evaluation sheet for stage 2. The numbers themselves might not be accurate, but if I felt like I've made clear progress during stage 2, I increased the score by 1, or in very clear cases by 2. If I continue like this, I will most likely go beyond a "10" on some rows :D "Persistance in the face of rejection" is the only point where I had to lower my score.. basically if I'd get rejected, i.e. find out the woman is just not interested in me, I'd stop that second. Then we're just not meant for each other. Sexual performance might be up a little bit, but nothing dramatic.

I had an interesting exchange with this 1 woman last Sat, clubbing. It was basically the most awkward and prolonged interaction I've ever had with a woman, period. What's interesting about it is that it actually went well :D For very long periods of time I felt I had absolutely nothing to say to her, but I just *really* liked looking her in the eye.. so I did that and tried to not burst out laughing, sometimes blabbering something incomprehensible while they were both staring at me expectantly. She had this "oh wow, I'm going to leave now"-look on her face several times, but she never did. In fact, she put her hand on mine secretly and her friend was asking her many times if she should leave, saying "I don't know where YOU guys are going to end up tonight" & similar stuff. In the end I walked her home (she lived on my way), afterparty was a no-go, I got her number and I said I'll text her. The next day she replies to my text she's seeing this one dude, so she's sorry, but she's not available. Said she doesn't know why she didn't tell me.. well, in my professional opinion, she wanted the D, that's why :D No bad feelings towards her, I enjoyed it a lot. I did get this "all good women are taken" mini-depression the following day, but its leaving me gradually. Should probably PSN on that. I did challenge myself to tell her that I'm on a break from exclusive relationships anyway and I feel relieved now that people are just people and not possessions anymore. No reply from her, but it was an internal mini-victory nonetheless.

About pstec... I've cleared a ton of stuff and I feel its been really beneficial. If you listen to that pstec interview they sent a link to in an email recently, you'll get a good picture of what kind of benefits its had on me in addition the clearing lots of specific issues & blocks. The interview featured this woman who was unemployed, started pstec and lived happily ever after. She said there's this calmness about her and that its easy to make people feel at ease in her presence and open up to her. Eye contact is much more relaxed now, where it was really anxious before. But it is a very zen-like effect. Not that relaxed and sexual isn't a killer combination one on one, but I think SM3 is probably aiming for a bit more edge & drive. Maybe pushing for uncomfortable to force me to take action. That number I got was actually the only time I've asked a woman for her number in months, simply because I've not felt any need for it. Or to hook up, really. When I go out I get to feel horny & sexy for hours anyway, so its like I already got to feel that so why bother with losing sleep and dealing with late-night stuff.

Anyway, I'll experiment with using the emotional pstec tracks less or not at all stage 3. I already wrote that I'll not use them at all on this post, but Geodude's POST turned me around again. Especially the part about being happy while going through the process. I've been driven in a needy way before, and, IMHO, this is much healthtier.

By getting rid of those limiting beliefs, I will be significantly happier and less inhibited. ... Clearing just gets rid of the brick wall of limiting beliefs that the subs slam you against until you clear it.

I think GD has great points, but that the "slamming" power of the subs might be accidentally lessened with overuse (because the new beliefs cause me to seek situations that cause anxiety, and so clearing the anxiety might clear some of the new beliefs along with the old blocks). So I'll treat acute stuff, but won't take it as preventative medicine for now. I'll still do positive tracks with "I can do anything" & "I can take anything". Maybe 1 accelerator + PP per day, alternating between those two.

Miscellaneous stuff: Sometimes when I'm alone, especially Sunday mornings, I'll get so horny I can't think of anything else but sex for hours, but other times there's no particular drive. No liquids spilled without the presence of a female in many months now, no porn either. There is attraction with women, but they're not lining up or anything. I'm still not meeting women during the day. I'll go out on Saturdays and approach the 2-4 hottest women I can find. I want, and need, them to be really my type of hot, because those girls get my engine going and I love that feeling. They do too.

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Just got another sexual complement praise text from my girl... its just so over-the-top this time I'm not even gonna write it here, lol. But yeah, expect sex to get better on SM3 ;)