Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6)[Complete]

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I'm also realizing just how weak a lot of the people I use to acquaint myself with were. Just to clarify, I would make a difference between a weak person who wants to change and a weak person who doesn't want to or even realize he needs to. I wanted to become a better person before I started alpha and realized that I wasn't who or where I wanted to be in life. I would put my former "friends" in the later category of weak. Many of them didn't want to examine there own lives, become better people, or work on any of their weaknesses. For example, my former female acquaintance above spent 4 years studying history (with no back up employable minor) at a private university and graduated only to start working minimum wage at a clothing store. As of right now she is still living with her mother and has no plans for the future. I've noticed with her and a lot of the people I use to associate with is that they drown themselves in entertainment (Movies, TV, video games,etc) and that is pretty much the only thing they talk about. I sometimes feel like people do that as a way to escape having to deal with reality or themselves in the same way a alcoholic relies on liquor as a form of escape sometimes. What do you guys think?

On some level I agree with you, observing other people has made me draw a very similar opinion of people and their growth. However there's something more to it. "I would make a difference between a weak person who wants to change and a weak person who doesn't want to or even realize he needs to". I think I belong to both of these descriptions.

A few years ago I was so motivated to change and now when I'm in the dullest, most boring and empty place ever, it's like I'm not really that motivated to change. Yes I run AM following the instructions, but at the same time I don't feel like putting any effort into the change and I have no clue why now that I have this program I have to be in this state. I gladly escape to these addictions like video games and movies. I stopped hiding in the liquor and smoking, but I still do hide in the entertainment. I think the hardest thing is when on some level you want to change and on another you fear losing the current comfort. I didn't pick up these subs with the motivation to change, but with the hope that it would somehow save me from my lost self. If AM can help me with these core issues, it's all that I ask from the first run. Just to somehow find the motivation to take action toward my change.

There's never just black and white in my opinion. I think it's more that people are afraid to change rather than they don't want to. Who wants to keep living a sad and miserable life?

I hope my message was clear, I'm quite tired at the moment.