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Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6)[Complete] - DarthXedonias - 09-24-2014
Hello guys! First post here even though I've been lurking on the forums for months now. Currently on Stage 4 of AM6 and only have a few more days til I start stage 5.
I think first before I review each stage to where I'm at now, I should give some background. I grew up in a home with a Dominate mother and a Weak backbone Step father. Public Elementary and Junior high was fine but once I got to Private Junior high and High school stuff went down hill. Mostly got made fun of because of my voice, because of this that's when I started being more Introverted instead of Extroverted like I use to be (I'm currently a INTP and identify with all the characteristic practically).
Ever since then being very needy and seeking for Validation. After a few years in Community college I joined the Navy seeking some kind of Camaraderie. Almost didn't make it in that organization because people were definitely not like I thought they would be. A lot of them were even worse than civilians with their abuse of power over others. I got discharged early (was suicidal at that time) with 90% of my benefits Last December. I had tried Hypnosis and Subliminals before without much luck. I found Shannon's site in a last ditch effort to change my life because I didn't want to use and rely on Anti-depressants. I bought AM6 and started last May.
As for a short overview of the Stages:
Stage 1: This one kicked in after a few days. I remember one particular night where I finished watching a movie that had aliens in it, I was paranoid about seeing aliens for a couple of hours that night. It was really weird but after that night its like i released a lot of fear I had about various things. I felt more happy, had more confidence, and sense of self worth.
Stage 2: Kinda of extended a lot of the good feelings I was getting from Stage 1, along with a none neediness towards women and the idea of sex. Where as before I would fap like once a day, on this stage I would probably not fap for like 3 to 4 days at a time.
Stage 3: this is where things were very frustrating and I at one point almost gave up. I think it was a combination of having to feel agitation and angry most of the time and it flaring up my PTSD for like the first 2 to 3 weeks. As a INTP, I'm not use to "giving" in to feelings nor being in that constant state of feeling them because of a "Fear" of losing control. I finally kinda of Recognized my feelings and have no problem feeling them and recognizing them now because I just woke up one day and realized "I've been too rationale most of my life, there comes a time when a person needs to let loose and get angry to let his boundaries be known".
Currently Stage 4: I noticed in this current stage that I calmed down a bit and not every single annoying thing tends to agitate me. I let go and forget about Past hurts/wrongs more easily now. My slight PTSD is almost non existent now unless I hit some type of Resistance. I also noticed that women that I worked with call me "Hun" instead of by my name usually now. I also don't like be in my room a lot and find it boring now, I actually looked forward to actually going to work or doing something productive. One other thing is that that During stage 3 My horniess went through the roof and I was back to faping like once a day, though I still didn't really feel needy toward it in a way. It felt more like a "oh, well thats over with time to do something more important". Now I noticed a lot of the good things from the first 2 stages are back and even stronger. Also, My Neediness towards women and sex is almost non- existent to the point that I fear my sex drive maybe broken lol. I just don't care about women at all and just seeing them as any other human being. I can try to fantasize like i use to but its like I can only do it for a few seconds before i just loose interest. I also find myself leading without thinking about it and people putting me in responsibility positions before other people.
Today: As of today I have quit my Job at the supermarket because one of my Manager's (Female) tried to disrespect me for a 2nd time. I went to someone higher up get it resolved but they just tried to make excuses for the manager ("they are under a lot of stress, etc). Since nothing was going to get resolved, I just quit. At this point I can't stand Cowardly people and people who can't do their jobs. I also tend to be able to sum up people right away, almost unconsciously for some reason, like a word just pops in my head about them (Fearful, cowardly, Indecisive, etc).
In the Future: I plan after AM6 to run the Rotation of WM( I believe I have some Misanthropy leanings, so I think it would be best to start with this)> SM(Still a Virgin, and I like the idea of the Aura's Involved) > Perfect wife(Most women i realize don't do it for me so I rather have someone perfect) > Perfect Wealthy Romantic Lover (I'm of a Religious persuasion that allows for polygamy so I'm pretty sure in my Mind my perfect wife and wealthy romantic love would be of the same mind set, I tend to disdain the idea of being in a monogamous relationship).
After all this I plan on doing Repeat of just AM6 and SM to really root the messages in my Subconscious. Apologize for the long post but felt Like I needed to catch up on all those months I didn't post.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - swisston - 09-25-2014
Welcome
I wouldn't be in a hurry to move on from AM too much, especially if you are coming in from a dark place. A second run through might be worth a shot for long term growth and stability.
I ran ASC for a month after AM6 just to reinforce that side of it. Well worth it.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - DarthXedonias - 09-25-2014
Thanks Swisston. I have thought about doing a 2nd run through right away and Honestly I might not have a choice but to do so due to my current job situation. Though at the same time the reasons I might move on is (1) I'm actually very surprised by how much growth I've gotten so far. Honestly, Coming from such a dark place I was very surprised that a lot of my issues were wiped out just in these first 4 stages, I think I might just be very receptive to subliminals due to my previous Hypnosis work (Which I noticed I went very deep when put under). (2) I still notice I feel a lot of social anxiety when I'm the attention of a bunch of people at once. Hence I thought WM might help with this due to its Increase in socialization. (3) I really want to get rid of the Misanthropy Tendencies I have which I think influence why I'm so short in my replies and conversations with people. (4) I'm hoping to become more of a ENTP and hence become more of a Tony stark/Robert Downey Jr type of persona when it comes to interactions with people(especially women) which I think WM would really help with this.
I think I will just wait til the end of November (When i'm due to end AM6) and see where I stand as far as results and my current financial situation.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Ricardo - 09-25-2014
Welcome to the board DarthXedonias. I'm currently deciding whether to run WM after I finish AM so please keep a journal if you do it.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Shannon - 09-26-2014
Post #1 violates one of our rules about advertising for our competitions. Please remove the direct mention of the name of the producer of subliminals in Paragraph 2 of that post.
I'm pleased to see you getting good results from the program. :-)
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - DarthXedonias - 09-27-2014
Ricardo- I will definitely make a WM journal and keep you guys posted. I have high expectations for that sub and Sex magnet, especially the manifestation stages. One thing I forgot to mention in my previous post is that since Stage 2 of AM6 I have had plenty of "Manifestation incidents" such as me thinking about a person I haven't talk to in a while and said person either texting/Calling me within a few mins to a few days later( I also manifested my last job). If i'm having this type of manifestation happen on AM6, i just wonder how it will be on those other 2 subs.
Shannon- And done, sorry about that >.<, and Thanks for the awesome subs. Been a very life changing journey so far.
Stage 4, Day 29 - A interesting thing happened the other day. A couple of acquaintances asked me to do a test and I soon realized it was the Brigg myers test, which I had regularly scored INTP on. This time I noticed though While I was answering the questions that I had changed quite a bit since a few months go. I feel more motivated, determined, positive, self- confidant, and less of a need for people in general. I feel all of this in a "Strong, silent type" of way. At the end of the test this time I scored INTJ.
On another front I'm still trying to get use to this feeling of not being needy concerning women. It's just kinda of weird having this problem for many years of my life and then just waking up a week ago with zero neediness towards women or even caring about being in a relationship with one. At first I thought my sex drive might be broken but I'm currently taking a testosterone booster so that wasn't the issue. I am just plain disinterested right now. I also noticed a few days ago that not just are my fantasizing about women pretty much gone but fantasizing in general is pretty much gone. Before I felt I like I observed and Philosophized about life then actually live it. Now Its like i'm more present, in the moment. I've noticed this the most when I talk to people, Words seem to just come out of my mouth without even thinking about them. I also swear that this sub has given me enhanced intuition about people. I notice more and more that I have that intuition that I mentioned in my first post. It's like I just notice the way the person is speaking, their facial expressions, and body language. I then can size them up very quickly, especially if they have a lot of Fear in them.
Lastly, I do have a question for Shannon or anyone who's done AM6. Has anyone else noticed weird things when your around young kids during or after the program? I've noticed during Stage 4 that kids at my old job will just sit there and stare at me intently even though they might have been loud before being in my presence. The older ones will try to be very, very polite to me. This is a totally different reaction from what I received before the program. I wonder if it has to do with the Command authority and Dominance Auras ROFL!
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Ricardo - 09-27-2014
(09-27-2014, 09:29 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Ricardo- I will definitely make a WM journal and keep you guys posted. I have high expectations for that sub and Sex magnet, especially the manifestation stages.
On another front I'm still trying to get use to this feeling of not being needy concerning women. It's just kinda of weird having this problem for many years of my life and then just waking up a week ago with zero neediness towards women or even caring about being in a relationship with one. At first I thought my sex drive might be broken but I'm currently taking a testosterone booster so that wasn't the issue. I am just plain disinterested right now. I also noticed a few days ago that not just are my fantasizing about women pretty much gone but fantasizing in general is pretty much gone.
Good luck with WM. Neediness is increasing with me but it may be resistance of some sort or some other conflict. Maybe by Stage 4 I'll be better
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Darkness - 09-27-2014
I got into an argument with a 6 yr old and he wanted to keep arguing bc it was fun to him in stage 4, another child at a party offered me fake coffee and hugged me good bye in stage 1, and at work would stare at me and when I spoke was rude to me and then he hugged me his mother to leave him with me in stage 5. This all during AM6
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Mystic Pymp - 09-27-2014
Very interesting journal, I'm gonna follow it to see how you adventure unravels
I myself plan to start AM in 2015 so your positive results give me hope.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - DarthXedonias - 09-29-2014
Stage 4, Day 31
One more day to go on this stage. I'm looking forward to moving on the stage 4 to be honest. Even though I've gotten lots of growth out of this Stage, I'm looking forward to even more from stage 5. I do believe I might only need one more run through of AM6 to cement the results. I Believe this because I went through the bullet points for AM6 and I measured about 85% of those characteristics as strong. Also, tried watching the anime "Ghost in the shell: Arise" on netflix today and stopped watching within 5 mins. I've noticed this ever since stage 1 that I just can't really play most video games or watch most movies anymore. I mostly feel bored watching things within 5 mins of turning it on. I prefer reading fanfics or fantasy type stories nowadays.
I still watch a few movies and play a few games but they usually have a exception to them. They usually don't promote Beta-male behavior in them. One of the most amazing things that I didn't noticed change until it hit me in stage 2 was that If a show, movie, or game had a male character in it and that male character started showing obvious beta male behavior i just instantly started loosing interest in the show. I think it only shows that the suggestions a so rooted now that if I see Beta male behavior I just want to distance myself from it. I actually did this to a long time friend as well. My former friend was very successful in work and college (maintained 4.0 GPA in undergrad and is currently working on Master's) but Socially he got no where and he still had some of a ego (he was actually angry that the anthropology department got more funds than the engineering department despite the fact that these were donations given to each department; He basically looked down on fields such as psychology, history, anthropology etc, because they weren't as "scientific" as his own field).
I soon got bored with associating with him, within stage 1, because all he wanted to do was talk about "entertainment"(games, movies, shows, etc). He didn't want to talk about higher ideals to live by, self-improvement, or things that didn't affect his "personal bubble". The last straw was when shouted me down for my opinion (i was saying that not all doctor's are smart, which should be self- evident from the fact that some lose their licenses LOL), after that I just stopped talking to him really. He tries to set things for us to meet up or talk but I just respond that i'm busy with this or that.
Lastly, One other area has gotten stronger in stage 4, which is my taste in women. Before AM6 I was interested in more dominate, opinionated type women but now I totally can't stand those types. I actually like more submissive type women now. That's partly why before I settled on doing the perfect wife sub that i was contemplating doing the Submissive lover one. At this point, even though I practically have zero neediness towards sex "itself", the thing that actually turns me on now is the lead up to sex and the feelings of dominance from myself and submissiveness from the women I would be with. Its like I get some kinda of high from the idea of having all dominance in the bedroom (Minus the whips and chains) lol! Wow Shannon, I knew I was going to become Alpha and Dominant but I didn't know I was going to be into some Master and Slave **** @.@ ROFL
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - FREAK4LIFE - 09-29-2014
(09-29-2014, 02:46 PM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Stage 4, Day 31
One more day to go on this stage. I'm looking forward to moving on the stage 4 to be honest. Even though I've gotten lots of growth out of this Stage, I'm looking forward to even more from stage 5. I do believe I might only need one more run through of AM6 to cement the results. I Believe this because I went through the bullet points for AM6 and I measured about 85% of those characteristics as strong. Also, tried watching the anime "Ghost in the shell: Arise" on netflix today and stopped watching within 5 mins. I've noticed this ever since stage 1 that I just can't really play most video games or watch most movies anymore. I mostly feel bored watching things within 5 mins of turning it on. I prefer reading fanfics or fantasy type stories nowadays.
I still watch a few movies and play a few games but they usually have a exception to them. They usually don't promote Beta-male behavior in them. One of the most amazing things that I didn't noticed change until it hit me in stage 2 was that If a show, movie, or game had a male character in it and that male character started showing obvious beta male behavior i just instantly started loosing interest in the show. I think it only shows that the suggestions a so rooted now that if I see Beta male behavior I just want to distance myself from it. I actually did this to a long time friend as well. My former friend was very successful in work and college (maintained 4.0 GPA in undergrad and is currently working on Master's) but Socially he got no where and he still had some of a ego (he was actually angry that the anthropology department got more funds than the engineering department despite the fact that these were donations given to each department; He basically looked down on fields such as psychology, history, anthropology etc, because they weren't as "scientific" as his own field).
I soon got bored with associating with him, within stage 1, because all he wanted to do was talk about "entertainment"(games, movies, shows, etc). He didn't want to talk about higher ideals to live by, self-improvement, or things that didn't affect his "personal bubble". The last straw was when shouted me down for my opinion (i was saying that not all doctor's are smart, which should be self- evident from the fact that some lose their licenses LOL), after that I just stopped talking to him really. He tries to set things for us to meet up or talk but I just respond that i'm busy with this or that.
Lastly, One other area has gotten stronger in stage 4, which is my taste in women. Before AM6 I was interested in more dominate, opinionated type women but now I totally can't stand those types. I actually like more submissive type women now. That's partly why before I settled on doing the perfect wife sub that i was contemplating doing the Submissive lover one. At this point, even though I practically have zero neediness towards sex "itself", the thing that actually turns me on now is the lead up to sex and the feelings of dominance from myself and submissiveness from the women I would be with. Its like I get some kinda of high from the idea of having all dominance in the bedroom (Minus the whips and chains) lol! Wow Shannon, I knew I was going to become Alpha and Dominant but I didn't know I was going to be into some Master and Slave **** @.@ ROFL
Good to hear about your results. Even though I am not on the alpha male sub and currently using the smoking sub I am having somewhat similar reactions to you regarding films.
I get super pissed off and angry whenever any sort of beta behavior is displayed on the screen by a male character and it becomes increasingly difficult for me to continue watching the film.
Having fun reading your journal keep it up.
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - DarthXedonias - 10-02-2014
Well, just completed my first day of Stage 5 but before I get to that I will review Stage 4:
-Definitely increased the self-validation, self-confidence, and self-worth I felt in stage 2
- Neediness was annihilated. As a consequence, porn is dead to me now. I have the feeling to watch it every once in a while but its only a few seconds before that thought gets kicked out of my mind.
-In the same vein as above, I find practically all women I run into to be just plain boring and their personalities disinterest me. Too many of the ones I run into seem to have had it so good with getting guys with just their looks that they had no reason to develop anything else besides physical appearance. Its practically been certain in my mind at this point that I don't feel like I will find someone at my level unless I use one of the attraction subs. At this point I seem to only want to do WM2 and SM3 for the self-improvement and the "experiences" with women but not for the actual women.
- After getting disrespected for a 2nd time at work by my female manager, I just quit that very day after I found out that the higher up's were a bunch of cowards and weren't going to do anything. This is way different from the norm because the former "me" would have just kept working there and take that abuse. Now I refuse to be disrespected by anyone!
-My outlook on my future is positive and already set in stone as far as i'm concerned. Its like I know where I want to go and "I KNOW" that it is in my grasp. For example, while I was at my old job i was helping a women out to her car and told her I would be quitting that day. She said, "Well, I hope things work out for you". Without even thinking about it, I said "Oh, I KNOW things will work out for me, they always do!".
-On day 31 I had a hour long dream, which was weird. It was basically a Movie that I dreamed up and I was looking at myself in the third person. I can't remember much but I know it was long and it had something to do with being in space. Who knows, might have been Star Wars related lol!
Stage 4 was a great ride but time to move on. I will post my Experience with Stage 5 , Day 1 in a few hours. Time to get some sleep first >.<
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - Ricardo - 10-02-2014
(10-02-2014, 12:54 AM)DarthXedonias Wrote: Well, just completed my first day of Stage 5 but before I get to that I will review Stage 4:
-Definitely increased the self-validation, self-confidence, and self-worth I felt in stage 2
-In the same vein as above, I find practically all women I run into to be just plain boring and their personalities disinterest me. Too many of the ones I run into seem to have had it so good with getting guys with just their looks that they had no reason to develop anything else besides physical appearance. Its practically been certain in my mind at this point that I don't feel like I will find someone at my level unless I use one of the attraction subs. At this point I seem to only want to do WM2 and SM3 for the self-improvement and the "experiences" with women but not for the actual women.
- After getting disrespected for a 2nd time at work by my female manager, I just quit that very day after I found out that the higher up's were a bunch of cowards and weren't going to do anything. This is way different from the norm because the former "me" would have just kept working there and take that abuse. Now I refuse to be disrespected by anyone!
-My outlook on my future is positive and already set in stone as far as i'm concerned. Its like I know where I want to go and "I KNOW" that it is in my grasp. For example, while I was at my old job i was helping a women out to her car and told her I would be quitting that day. She said, "Well, I hope things work out for you". Without even thinking about it, I said "Oh, I KNOW things will work out for me, they always do!".
Interesting observation about women not needing to develop personalities because of their looks. I don't think that's quite the case that they are all so vacuous. We all play games and put on acts, it's just that women are better at it. They may have found that to attract guys they only need to flutter their eye lashes and laugh at his jokes, which 99.99% of the time would work.
But aside from that they do have personalities and are far more emotional and searching than men are, so to say they have no personalities could be some resentment you feel towards about how easy the attraction game is for women than men.
I definitely feel that WM and/or SM would ease that view because if you are so attractive to women then you can adopt the same role and have a good laugh at them yourself. In short have the fun that they have
The AYP sub sounds a great idea but to be honest I'm coming round to the idea that WM or SM first would be better firstly because the AYP may take up to 8-12 months where as you know those two only take 6 months each with a whole lot more variety
RE: Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6) - DarthXedonias - 10-02-2014
Ricardo- Oh, i still plan on going on with my rotation of AM6>WM>SM>AYP. That has not changed. Though like i said, I'm going to be doing WM and SM more for myself and actual self-improvement then actual women.
About the outlook on women I actually question whether its resentment or not. I feel like it's a combination of High self worth, indifference, and high standards that gives me this attitude. So, in someways I feel like I have, at least in the indifference mindset, taken on that role you have talked about. Instead of me trying to qualify myself to females, I feel like they should qualify themselves to me.Though, the funny part is that I don't care whether I get the girl or not. I will tell you right now though, fluttering their eye lashes and laughing at my jokes will definitely not win me over like it would other men.
This same attitude seems to played itself out when I would work at the supermarket as well. I would see a average looking men walk in with a horrible looking women or maybe a average looking women who I could tell didn't even respect the man she was with. Usually when I saw this I would start thinking, "Why did you settle for her?" "You could have done so much better". "Are you really going to stand for the way she is treating you right now?" For example, I remember I was bagging items one night and this one couple came to the check stand. They got the wrong type of milk to qualify for a promotion we were having, which was to be for the guy's cereal. He went back and got 1% milk. Well, the chick apparently said no, and proceeded to demean him in front of everyone. The guy high tails it back to the dairy section and comes back with 2% milk to appease her. I just shake my head while this occurs. The amount of disrespect men are willing to go through in order to have the pleasure of "sticking their stick" into a "hole" every week astounds me.