02-04-2022, 10:40 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-26-2022, 09:40 AM by DarthXedonias.)
Will just make this short. So far I think this is really the sub I should be running at the moment and plan on running it a few months. Just really want any toxic nonsense out of my head at this point. I do feel like with this sub i can actually finally accomplish that. I have noticed quite a few negative things gone already actually. Negative thinking is basically gone for the most part and I'm actually not running away from things. I know that last part because i am really taking responsibility for my actions in the past and even now. This also enabled me to finally get rid of a lot of anger, hate, and rage that was able to hide itself from previous subs because I was able to stop using excuses to keep it around and be honest with myself that it was holding me back and doing damage to me instead of helping me. Also in the end those things just weren't logical to hold on to anymore.
I am noticing something of an attempt at sabotage possibly because I don't think its my internet. I tried to do the streaming of the sub. The first 2 to 3 times it was fine but then I noticed yesterday it only got over one minute in then just suddenly paused itself. Just a few minutes ago I tried playing again then when I checked on it about 40 minutes later it had stopped about 2 minutes in. Now could it be my internet? its a possibility but I doubt it. I have cable internet (300 mbps) and it hasn't been acting up much lately. No I think somehow this is mental sabotage. So despite me not wanting to do it till later i have no choice but to buy the whole sub and play it on a player on my computer because the online streaming thing is not working out so well for me and with me only getting a little bit of the sub each time it is probably going to start messing up with my results. However if it is sabotage that probably is the main goal. The good news is if it is that means the sub is at the point where if I listen to it correctly my subconscious can't even resist it or any aspects of it anymore I think.
I am noticing something of an attempt at sabotage possibly because I don't think its my internet. I tried to do the streaming of the sub. The first 2 to 3 times it was fine but then I noticed yesterday it only got over one minute in then just suddenly paused itself. Just a few minutes ago I tried playing again then when I checked on it about 40 minutes later it had stopped about 2 minutes in. Now could it be my internet? its a possibility but I doubt it. I have cable internet (300 mbps) and it hasn't been acting up much lately. No I think somehow this is mental sabotage. So despite me not wanting to do it till later i have no choice but to buy the whole sub and play it on a player on my computer because the online streaming thing is not working out so well for me and with me only getting a little bit of the sub each time it is probably going to start messing up with my results. However if it is sabotage that probably is the main goal. The good news is if it is that means the sub is at the point where if I listen to it correctly my subconscious can't even resist it or any aspects of it anymore I think.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche