Rise of a Sith Lord (AM6)[Complete]

[DarthXedonias]

Stage 5, Day 20

Things are still going pretty well for now. I had some resistance come up a few days ago and along with it a big amount of fear concerning my financial situation. It passed though and I have regained my confidence. After reading about Spiritman's assessment on Stage 5 so far, I noticed a similarity with my own experience with this stage. This stage is really getting me to want to analyze and make changes in where I want to go in life. Its like I don't want to settle for anything but the best in my life now. Its funny, Us humans are always talking about how short life is but we are constantly settling for less or making compromises all the time.

I will now go over that revelation that I mentioned in my last post since I haven't gotten to it due to being busy. A long time ago I came up with day dreaming about a main character and story that I thought about making a book out of. Over the years I have kept daydreaming about this character, with changes here and there, though I no longer want to make a book out of it anymore. Before I started AM6, I would say this character was a typical "white Knight" type hero with Beta characteristics. During AM6 I noticed that this character started to transform from this White Knight to a "almost" anti-Hero who rules a vast empire, has any woman he wants, and gets anything he wants. I would say he has the confidence and demeanor of Tywin lannister with a little cockiness and sociability of Tyrion Lannister. It was last week when I remembered reading that AM6 can sometimes use your daydreams to bring about changes. I then realized that all this time that this story character I had made was more a representation of myself than anything else. This does excite me for women magnet as well because if I remember correctly WM2 helps you get out of your head and be in the moment. I'm hoping by being less in my head I will be more like this "symbol" of alphaness that my mind subconsciousness has made for me.

In other news, I'm realizing more and more that I just can't put up with People's BS, especially very illogical BS. I met today with my female friend that I mentioned in another post. Everything was fine until we got, casually mind you, on one of those Sensitive "PC" topics. Usually shes pretty rationale a lot of the time but this time she just got all emotional when the issue was even touched right from the get go. One thing I realized about myself is that you can raise your voice while talking all you want, as if thats a argument in itself, but if the content of your message is non-sense I will promptly ignore your so called argument. Things went back to civil quick enough but I'm more wary of her now and might distance myself. I also do this because something she blurted out during that tirade makes me think she might have a deep seated hate for men in certain respects, which I had suspected to a degree but not really confirmed til now. Not that it matters anymore, I've started to develop a new social group of people who aren't a bunch of PC "sheep". I think thats the thing that bothers me the most, People who act like a bunch of sheep and just follow the herd. It doesn't matter which "herd" either (left, right, middle, <Insert whatever>). I'm just tired of people who don't follow their "own" convictions and live by them. I'm realizing more and more that most people just like being "told" what their convictions should be by the "leaders" of their group. Last time I checked it wasn't the herd following "white sheep" that changed and advanced society for the better, but it was the stand on your own and follow your own path "Black sheep".