Stage 1, Day 23. Work anxiety.
I've always been easily stressed by work and I've been in a very stressful situation at work for a while now. In short, I'm working long hours but due to certain reasons outside of my control I must do all that work in secret and instead continuously report almost zero progress on the thing that I'm actually personally responsible for, and should be doing. To make it worse, I'm also completely stuck on that main problem so I wouldn't even know where to begin if I did have the time. Not a strong position for me to be in meetings. Basically I'm stressed all day, lethargic, unable to hold eye contact and completely out of energy when I finally get home. I feel like a completely different person on the weekends. Socializing feels really good in comparison, esp. anything sexual seems to really bring me back to life, but I don't have the energy for it during the week.
If I can clear a good chunk of that anxiety, then maybe I won't burn so much energy with it and I can actually solve things one at a time instead of just feeling blocked with everything at once and wanting to escape. I did 1 accelerator track, 7 eef tracks, 1 positive track and went jogging today.. I feel a bit better and got some perspective on it. I'll have to find a way to do pstec or feft at work once that anxiety creeps in and maybe I can make some progress with this.
I've always been easily stressed by work and I've been in a very stressful situation at work for a while now. In short, I'm working long hours but due to certain reasons outside of my control I must do all that work in secret and instead continuously report almost zero progress on the thing that I'm actually personally responsible for, and should be doing. To make it worse, I'm also completely stuck on that main problem so I wouldn't even know where to begin if I did have the time. Not a strong position for me to be in meetings. Basically I'm stressed all day, lethargic, unable to hold eye contact and completely out of energy when I finally get home. I feel like a completely different person on the weekends. Socializing feels really good in comparison, esp. anything sexual seems to really bring me back to life, but I don't have the energy for it during the week.
If I can clear a good chunk of that anxiety, then maybe I won't burn so much energy with it and I can actually solve things one at a time instead of just feeling blocked with everything at once and wanting to escape. I did 1 accelerator track, 7 eef tracks, 1 positive track and went jogging today.. I feel a bit better and got some perspective on it. I'll have to find a way to do pstec or feft at work once that anxiety creeps in and maybe I can make some progress with this.
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