08-29-2014, 02:05 PM
Stage 2 Day 3
Had a serious relapse to an exaggerated version of my 'previous' self yesterday. I became angry at everybody and everything and felt so miserable I just wanted to hide. Even my face felt screwed up and desolate, i had to keep my head down and try and get home from work as quickly as possible. It passed off after a night sleep and I have noticed that the BS intolerance has dropped down to the point where I feel sorry for those doing the BS. It seems clear to me now how insecure people are and how they cling to the slightest bit of power like a prop. All I see is a sad individual who I would never want to be.
Have also been getting very nostalgic playing old music and watching stuff from my younger years. It gives me a sad feeling because I can see how much time I wasted on being a idiot and drifting from one fad to another with no concept of the future. It might sound cute and 'thats what you do at that age' sentiment but believe me it comes at a big price in later life when you're skint, lonely and nothing to look forward to.
Had a serious relapse to an exaggerated version of my 'previous' self yesterday. I became angry at everybody and everything and felt so miserable I just wanted to hide. Even my face felt screwed up and desolate, i had to keep my head down and try and get home from work as quickly as possible. It passed off after a night sleep and I have noticed that the BS intolerance has dropped down to the point where I feel sorry for those doing the BS. It seems clear to me now how insecure people are and how they cling to the slightest bit of power like a prop. All I see is a sad individual who I would never want to be.
Have also been getting very nostalgic playing old music and watching stuff from my younger years. It gives me a sad feeling because I can see how much time I wasted on being a idiot and drifting from one fad to another with no concept of the future. It might sound cute and 'thats what you do at that age' sentiment but believe me it comes at a big price in later life when you're skint, lonely and nothing to look forward to.
